Full discloser, I'll probably talk about this person a lot. She was one of the first people I did individual roleplays with, back when I was like thirteen and was too scared to say no to someone or block them. 

And boy, did I have a lot of reasons I should have blocked her. But, here is just one of the stories. 

So, as some of you may know I'm pretty good at playing guys. That's because I was pretty much only "allowed" to play the male in a lot of my early roleplays. I had a wide selection of female characters, but very few people gave me the opportunity to use them outside of the group roleplays I did in the beginning. It seemed as though as soon as I opened myself up to individual roleplays my days of being able to be the girl were over. {Yes, I know I'm being dramatic, hush.}

Anyways, this girl was pretty quick to jump into my pms to roleplay. I was excited at first, as like I've said she was one of the first people I was interacting with on an individual level. From her username, I knew she was in one of the fandoms I was in as well. And, for my standards at the time, she was pretty descriptive, used nice grammar, and honestly seemed like she was going to be great. 

So, we started the first of our many roleplays. At this time, I only did straight pairings since I felt way too embarrassed to do anything else. I'll get into that in another story though. 

I knew that one of us would have to be the guy, and when she told me to be I was okay with it. Not so okay with being told to, but I figured she just worded it poorly. 

At the time, I was also too embarrassed to do smut, which is actually why I avoided gay roleplays because all I'd seen with those at the time was smut. Again, more on that later. 

The roleplay started off...Oddly. Her character was Mary-Sueish, which I didn't even know was a thing back then. And she was trying to move along the plot too quickly, which was a bit annoying but I went along with the fast past "plot" she had going on. 

And then, she tried to transition into smut. I told her I wasn't too comfortable with that, but she insisted that we should do it. She said I'd get more comfortable with it the more we did it. She continued to push, and I gave in because again, I didn't know that I would be okay if I just outright said no. At the time, I was worried that if I didn't comply with how other people wanted me to roleplay they'd put me on blast and no one would want to roleplay with me ever again. 

So, we did the thing and I thought we could just move along in the plot but she kept bringing it up and having it happen again and again.

Then, out of nowhere, she declared that she was bored and that we should switch to a new roleplay. I asked if I could be the girl this time, and she told me no because she had a new plot that she needed to be the girl for. So, again, I agreed and played the guy. And again, she had us do a lot of smut and then moved onto another roleplay where she was the girl becuase "it was her idea so she should be able to do it".

Then, finally, she couldn't think of an idea and I managed to pitch one with the firm requirement that I was able to be the girl this time. She agreed, and I was pretty happy about it.

Suddenly, she didn't want to move the relationship along quickly and she didn't want to do smut either. She replied a lot slower, and ended up ending the roleplay after a few days of sparce replies on her end.

Then, it was back to her being the girl and pushing smut for a while. 

And that's where I'll end this story, but don't worry I have a lot more around this particular girl. The next one is my first gay roleplay experience and the reason I didn't do another one for years. 

Stay tuned!