I've barely talked to Cerulean (AquaticAndFantastic) in a long time. Now I've lost her.

Looks like everything went according to plan. She probably hates me now! As will everyone else as they find out all the things they did! Like how I drove Will insane. Ah, Mag1c_Mak3r would be so mad. Or how I messed with Cinder to make her do what she did to poultry_man_. Or how I replaced all of Hatchling's memories with xXderpy_merpXx and made them memories with Layla. Everything I did.

This means they won't miss me! So I can go and find my personality. Because I lied to Cerulean. I do have one. It's just in the wrong body. The wrong person. And I know who has it. She knows too, so I'll just...

Rena's Lost Personality:
Really social, loves being with friends
Stubborn as heck, will do anything to help her friends
Incredibly sensitive
Playful when it comes to people she trusts
Sarcastic but tries not to be rude
Problem solver, tries to be creative

(This is me trying to remember what I was like or would be like without the mental troubles)

I'd say I regret nothing.

Nothing...

I maybe regret everything. I regret hurting my creations so much, I regret not spending more time with my author friends, I regret just letting the personality thing go...

Cerulean said I was special to her. Well she's special to me because she makes me feel special too. Like there's someone who sees me as important... oh gosh, why would I say those things? Why would I... she must be so upset and feel so alone... I messed up again, didn't I?

Well, I have to keep pretending I don't regret it. Retreat to the AUs, my real home. Maybe I can carry on with my passion... maybe I could find some other authors to work with and befriend while the ones who currently are friends with me think I disappeared... Eh. We'll see. I just hope they don't forgive me too easily.

Eheheh, if they realized it was me in the first place.

~ Rena