I frown as I look around for Levi but I couldn't find him anywhere. I tried to stand but I couldn't move from this tree I was sitting on. Trees usually liked me so I didnt understand why it was being mean now.

I try scenting for Levi but he wasn't close and there was nothing else but me, the wood and the room.

"That's where you're wrong, I'm here too." I look up and my eyes stare into my own? My head spins when I stared at myself with a deep frown. "It's me, Roger."

I stare up at me...or him...us? I stared at him for a moment before shaking my head but he was still there when I straightened. So I tried closing my eyes really tight but he was there staring at me with a bad smile.

"Where are we?" I ask angrily.

"In the author's head, that's why you can talk." He says with a smile. "Thank fuck she listened to my prayers and separated us."

"Who's the author?" I ask looking around again for Levi.

"Not important. B-"

"I want Levi." I say with a low growl but he just smiles.

"It's just me and you." He says with another bad smile that makes me want to rip his lips off, but if I did that then I wouldn't have lips and I wouldn't be able to press my lips to Levi's.

"Where is Levi?" I groan and this spinning thing with his eyes.

"Here's the deal, you answer a few questions and I'll let you go back to Levi." He says making my eyebrows meet, I didn't trust him. "You're smart not to."

"How can you hear my mind, you're outside of me?!" I yell but he just keeps smiling.

"The author and I are close like that." He says smiling widely.

I already didn't like this author.
I felt a small pinch on my arm and jumped in the wood, I look at Roger but he puts his hands up.

"Pretty stupid to say you don't like the author, I mean, she's in charge of everything." Roger says and suddenly grapes appear in his hands. My mouth drops as I stare at Roger eating grapes happily. "She loves me."

"I want." I say trying to stand but I couldn't.

"Be nice then." He warns and I growl at him. I really hated Roger. "Feeling's mutual, now are you ready to answer some questions?" I nod and Roger pulls out a bunch of paper from the air.

"Question uno - who is your favourite sibling?" He says before taking some time to explain to me what siblings were.

"I like the little man." I say smiling widely. "He gave me a deer."

"Well aren't you easy, and in more ways than one." Roger says before moving to the next paper while a grape appeared in my mouth. I chewed it happily and waited.

"Second question and a personal favourite of mine, why don't you like Roger?"

"Because he's stupid." I say looking Roger straight in our eyes. He frowns so I keep going. "He's mean and angry all the time, I don't like him."

"You literally growl for a living, how on earth am I angry all the time?" He snaps making me fold my arms.

"You're angry right now." I say making him growl.

"No I'm not." He snaps.

"Yes you are."

"Am not."

"Yes you are."

"No I'm not!"

"You're shouting right now!"

"So are you!"

Two sets of grapes appear in our hands making us smile as we begin eating them in silence.

"Okay, third question- what's your favourite thing about Levi? P.s. you're the cutest. They put a bunch of heart emojis but you don't know what an emoji is so now it's a little awkward."

"I like his smile. Whenever he smiles I know he's okay and then we both feel good inside. His smile is really nice, makes my head go fuzzy." I reply as I smile in memory, my mate is the best. "What does cutest mean?"

"Like adorable kind of, like they're saying your really adorable or cute." Roger explains and my smile quickly fades.

"I'm not adorable." I snap but he ignores me as he begins reading out another paper.

"Aren't you feeling the mating pull to mark Levi yet?" Roger says and I stare at him. "What?"

"I don't understand."

"Basically don't you want to bite Levi and make him yours forever?" He explains and I nod quickly.

"I always want to bite him. From the first time I met him I wanted to bite him, but I hurt him and he was scared of me. I think if I bite him it'll hurt him and I don't want him to be afraid of me, I want him to love me." I say while looking with my hands. "So even though I really want to bite him, I have to make myself bite my lip instead."

"That's cute but stupid, much like you." Roger says and I growl again. "Moving on! What's the first thing you'd say to Levi if you could talk to him?"

"I love you."

"What a surprise." Roger says rolling his stupid eyes. "What would you do if you met Levi's parents? Well his other dad since you met julian already?"

"He has another big man?" I question with a frown of confusion. "I thought the yellow hair one was the biggest of them all."

"It's become a fear of mine that you're clinically stupid." Roger says while rubbing his face. "He literally showed you photographs of the whole family, remember?"

"I was sniffing Levi, I didn't really look at them." I say honestly and he groans loudly.

"Author help me out, a picture of Aiden stat!" Roger says a paper with a dark haired, big man popped in front of me. I saw him in the other pictures, but in this one he looked bigger and meaner and angrier....he looked like he'd like Roger so I didn't like him. "I'll ignore that comment which I take as a fucking compliment, do you know who bis wolf is?! If Maximus liked me, I'd die happy. Anyway, what would you do if you met him?"

"Would Levi be there?"

"Depends on the author."

"If Levi's there, I'll hold his hand but if he's not, I don't know." I say honestly and more grapes appear making me smile.

"Why did you attack Julian? Spicy question, I like this one." 

"Who's Julian?"

"For fuck sake!" Roger shouts. "I think I'll have to answer this one for you. Basically he w-" Roger stops suddenly before biting his lip and smiling. "Sorry folks, author says that question is off limits."

"This author sounds mean." I say quietly, holding the grapes extra tight. I was afraid they'd take it away from me.

"She like the Moon Goddess, a bitch." Roger says before quickly adding on. "But I love her, with my entire soul."

When nothing happens he breathes out and continues with the questions.

"On a scale from 1 to 10, how useful is the voice in your head? AKA, your wolf."

"How does this work?"

"One means you really, really love me and need me and ten means you wish I'd die." Roger says with one of those evil smiles that I didn't like.

"Four." I say making the smile fade as Roger stares at me with a look I didn't know. "If I didn't have you, I think I wouldn't have mate. I want to give you ten but four."

"Sometimes you really are......nice.... to have around. I mean, y-you're not a bad human." He says before shaking his head and continuing.

"Do you want kids and How many kids do you want?"

"What's a kid?"

"A child. A small person which you raise until they're big people." Roger explains but I didn't really get it. "A pup. How many pops do you want?"

"I want pups. I think I want one pup or as many as Levi wants." I say quickly as I look around for him again but he wasn't here. "How many more? I want mate."

"There's a shitload to go, maybe I'll bring out Levi if you behave." He promises so I nod quickly.

"What do you think of each of Levi's siblings?"

"I like little man, he brings me food. I like the little woman who looks like him."

"Why do you like Josey, you've seen her never met her." Roger says with small eyes.

"Because she looks like the little man, and I like the little man." I say before I remember the angry one. "I don't like the mean one, I want to hurt him."

"But we won't do that." Roger says and I nod even though I already thought about what his blood would taste like. "And Peter?"

"The one that ran away?" I ask and he nods. "I don't know."

"Do you remember things from when you were younger?"

"No." I say trying to remember everything, but all I saw was trees.

"I do." Roger says making me look up at him. "I remember everything even if you chose to forget it."

"What?"

"When you met Julian, did you remember that you attacked him?"

"I had a lot of fights before I met mate, I don't remember any of them. But this Julian man, when I met him, he smelt familiar. His scent made me feel bad, so it must've been bad."

"Was Levi a prisoner of the same people who kidnapped the kids. Like like Levi and his dad???"

"I only remember being a wolf in the woods until I met mate."

"Spoiler alert, he was kinda. Author said not to say anything else." Roger says before getting another paper. "Age?"

"I don't know."

"We're twenty eight"

"That sounds old." I say and Roger nods.

"You're mentally thirteen so it makes up for it." Roger says with another bad smile. "Next, this one's funny." He says laughing for a minute while I stare waiting. "Okay, okay.... what's your dick size?"

"My dick size?" I ask and Roger laughs.

"Your little friend that gets excited when Levi's not wearing clothes." He says and I look down immediately. "How big is it?"

"I-I don't k-know." I say looking away.

"Well we'll leave it at pretty big, how about that?" Roger says and I nod again, my face felt hot now.

"Oooo goodie, a question for me. Does Roger remember Levi from when he was a kid? Yes."

"We knew Levi?" I ask and he nods. "Why can't I remember?"

"Because you're stupid." He snaps back and I growl. "It's complicated alright, doesn't make sense worrying about it, the author will explain when she's ready."

"I want grapes."

"You'll get a bellyache." Roger says with his arms on his chest.

"I want mate and grapes!" I shout an Roger sighs.

"For fuck sake, author some help please." Roger says and suddenly we're in the room of waters and I'm in the tub of water. I smile as I lie down in it, grapes were next to me and I could smell mate everywhere. "Thank you, now, both of the intimate scenes were from Levi's perspectives, so J, what are your feelings about them?"

"The times I got really, really happy and my body got weird?" I ask and Roger nods. "I like those times but I don't know if I like the way my body makes me feel. Everything gets hot and I don't know what's going on. But then Levi makes his happy sounds and I get h-hotter and things c-come out and I d-don't know."

I try to go under the water to hide but Roger pulls me back up. My body was hot now that I was remembering and I felt tight.

"Sometimes you can be cute." Roger says before hitting me hard on my face. I try to attack him but the tub want let me. "On a scale of 1 to 10 how badly do you want to strangle Roger right now?"

"One hundred." I growl and Roger smiles.

"Feelings mutual." Roger says moving around the papers. "Felling. Is. Mutual." He finishes slowly. "The following questions author said not to answer:

What separated J from Levi?
Why did he attack Levi's dad?

Moving on. If you could cook, what would you make?"

"Deer." I say immediately and Roger sighs.

"Let's pretend he knows what actual food is, if he could cook he'd make pizza or sushi." Roger says and I frown, I liked deer. "Is he going to be able to talk?"

"I can't talk."

"You can, you're just a little messed up inside." Roger answers looking sad. "Does J remember anything from his old pack? He doesn't but I do."

"We don't have a pack."

"We used to." Roger says a little quietly and I think he looked a bit sad.

"What happened to them?" I ask but he doesn't say anything. He doesn't say anything for a long time and then suddenly he rubs his eyes and smiles at me.

"No more questions about the past okay," he says, his lips shaking. "How about we make this the last question, J.....are you going to let your inner wolf out soon.. cause I'd love to see that?"

"I don't know how to." I say with a frown. "I can let you out?"

"Yes." Roger says and my head fizzes. "I'll teach you how, soon don't worry. The author's got a plan."

"Is it a good plan?"

"It's a bumpy one, but you and Levi will be together.... most likely." He says and I open my mouth to yell but he beats me to it. "Go back to your mate now. No more questions, author will wipe this from your memory."

Before I can blink, everything changes and I wake up pulling for air in Levi's sleeping grounds.

"J?" I look down at mate who was looking at me tiredly. "You okay baby?"

I lie back down and put my arms around him. I kiss his skin and close my eyes, my throat hurt a little but it was just a bad dream.

----meanwhile-----

"Do you have to wipe my memories too?"

"You know I do."

"Is he going to make it out of this okay? He's already been through so much, I don't want him to get hurt again."

"He'll be fine Roger and so will you."

"Tell me one thing, please."

"Go on."

"Did he suffer? Is he okay now? Will I meet him one day?"

"Not in this lifetime but you'll meet your mated wolf one day Roger, one day."

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Well wasn't that spicy.....
I tried to make it interesting and little special so it wasn't your everyday Q&A.

Hope you enjoyed, though I bet that just made you guys have like a hundred more questions.

Thank you to everyone who asked questions, I enjoyed writing this. I'll be writing an extra for Peter, so keep an eye out for that.

I hope you guys enjoy this new year to come. I hope we have great memories and cries from my books for those who stick with me. I loved this year, it was fun and I think my writing improved.

So Happy New Year ❤