Hey diary! It's me again, obviously who else would it be? It's my diary right? I bet you could be the only best friend I have in all my reincarnated years. Well, Kyle has been acting a little strange, you know, like he's avoiding me or something. Do you think I should talk to him? No, right, I need to stay aloof, the guy should always make the first move that's right. Then I suddenly had a flash of Eric.

Yeah! There's this guy I think his name is Eric or Raiden, I don't know I'm confused... wait.... Rederick.. yeah that's better I think Velvet is right cos I kinda feel like I'm attached to him or something but she's wrong by saying Kyle is not meant for me right? Like we just literally started dating a week ago, so she's talking nonsense on that one right? Ha.... I feel like screaming aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah... Great Kyle is calling me, what timing.

Hey!

I said.

Rockie?

Yeah?

I'm sorry to have been avoiding you but I think I need space.

You need space? What do you mean by that? What kinda space?

Rockie pls...

He said.

No! If this is about Redric it shouldn't be because I've never met this guy in my whole life.

I said it like I was debating like some kid in an argumentative essay. Yeah, though it's kinda similar because we are arguing not an easy though but orally. Ok Rockie stop blabbing.

Kyle please listen to me...

Before I could say another word he hung up.

Wait! Did he just hang up on me? Well that was rude, wasn't it diary? I think I've got to go see him. I got down from my bed, dropped my pen and went straight into my wardrobe. I put on the blue crop top Kyle got me and my black cargo jeans. You must be thinking where the yellow would come in yeah of cos my shoes. I wore yellow sneakers. I would never miss out on that color in any of my dressing. I took my backpack, left my hair pouring down because if I haven't been having memory issues, I think he once said he likes it when my hair is left pouring down. I went outside and toom take my power bike, my mom got me when I was 13 and never used.

Oh, honey bear you're riding your gear! Should I be safe or feel happy that you're finally using your birthday gift after 3 years.

My mom said to me.

Really! Do mothers always have to exaggerate everything?

I thought.

Secret is timeless, mom.

I said and rode off. I parked you right in front of Kyle's house and knocked on the door, nobody answered so I just kind of pushed it open. I worked upstairs to his room, rehearsing my speech.

Hey Kyle!

Nope, that's too ah. Ok

Hello Kyle!

No! That's too formal.

Wassup Kyle! Are you cool or hot?

Oh, oh my gosh, that was stupid. I was literally standing in front of Kyle's room door.

Just knock, he wouldn't hit you or anything like that.

I set myself.

I guess I wasn't ready for whatever that door opening may give to me. then I decided to open the door without knocking.

oh.. my... God..

Yeah, I was totally gonna freak out. What is Diana doing in bed with Kyle, I mean my boyfriend? So she made love with him. Wow, that was way off.

Hey Rockie, you didn't tell me you were coming over.

He said, getting up and putting on some clothes.

Why? So you would have probably hidden her under the bed or something else, like they do in movies. I said in my head. No one heard me.

Is this what you call space, Kyle?

I asked him, really confused about the whole space thing now.

Um... rocks I'm sorry.

Diana said.

oh she has done it this time I could hit your head real hard on the rocks. She seems to really like rocks.

Um... sorry for what exactly? Tell me? For making love with my boyfriend or practically having to have bullied me from the very first day I took my first breath.

I said to her.

None of the above.

She said, as I just stared at her with a blank face, wondering what then the sorry was for.

Um... Rocks, I'm sorry for you to have found out this way.

She said.

Well, Kyle's my boyfriend for real this time. You were only a game that he played, you hear me a game. What made you think that an amazing, popular guy that he is would really fall in love with...with a geek like you?

She said and kissed Kyle intensely right in front of me. Really? Geek rock? Do I have to be the one nicknamed?

You should be ashamed of yourself geek rock.

She said, facing me like she was gonna fight me or something.

No, I think you're wrong there, you should be the one ashamed not me because you are the one naked right now in front of a guy, not me. You have no shame ....less shame D.

I said to her.

Well just for you to know, less shame D is a combination of shameless and Diana. You really know how to act shameful, so you deserve the name. You can call me whatever you want, rock, rocks, geek ,dork, whatever, do you know why? Because being all those isn't shameful after all.

I said and looked at Kyle one more time and remembered that message I saw on his phone. I felt like pouncing on him like how Tom would pounce on Jerry but I just let it slide. Huh...who needs him anyway.

So I walked out of his house and out of his life. Wow "less shame D" Rockie are you serious? Well that doesn't matter all that matters now is that I stood up to my fears and that's thanks to you diary.

This time I'm a new Rockie no one's telling me what to do ever again..

This is the old me....

And this would be the new me.

Kyle would pay!!!!!!
I swear!!!

LOVE ROCKIE
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