I Will Always Be With You

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Rating: K+(but mild swearing)
Modern AU
Summary: Mikasa wants to be with Levi at all times.
Note: I got this idea from "Imagine RivaMika" on Tumblr. And when I read the idea I cried so much... (note that I write the ratings and stuff after I write the one shot) After I finished the one shot I cried... a lot. Like a lot a lot as in "I couldn't move and function" a lot. I'm crying right now as I'm re-reading this for mistakes. Which means there will be sadness ahead.

Word count: 946
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"Are you doing okay?" A soft voice asked him. He nodded in reply, staring at his hands. She looked at him questionably, sitting down in front of him, on the bed, next to his sitting form. "The doctor will be here soon. I'll give you luck but this is too hard for me."

Levi looked at her. "I'll be fine Mikasa." He mumbled. Mikasa's hand drifted into his, grasping it between her hands.  "Promise me you'll fight through this and live. Okay?" She smiled.

"I will." He said softly, caressing her cheek with his other hand. "Don't worry."

"I love you." She spat out, meaning every word.

Levi pulled her in for a kiss, despite the awkward position they were in. Tears formed in her eyes, pulling back as the door opened.

"It's time for your surgery Levi." Mikasa muttered, looking deeply into his eyes. Before he and his bed was escorted out, Mikasa stopped him giving him an envelope. "If you wake up, open this and read it. Please."

"I will. Love you Mikasa." He stated, wishing he could spend more time with her.

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He opened his eyes to see a bright light. He propped his back onto the wall, meeting a woman's eyes.

"Hello Levi." The woman cooed.

"W-Where's Mikasa?" He asked, making sure she knew finding his girlfriend was his first priority.

"Ah. You shouldn't try to find her right now. Eat you pills and read the note she gave you." The nurse left him to be alone.

His hand shook as he grabbed the note. He took the paper out of the envelope, carefully unfolding it. It read:

Dear Levi,

If you're reading this letter right now, that means surgery went exactly how I wanted it to be. Thank god you're alive. I'm guessing you tried finding me, but couldn't because the nurse wanted you to read this first.

Let me make this clear:

I'm not here. I am with you, just not here. There is a simple reason why I wrote this note, and that leads on to why you can't see me, nor meet me right now.

Rivallie... When I met you, I wasn't that in love. I didn't know what love was at the time which would describe how my life was before you. You found me weeping right outside Eren's hospital room. I knew he was dead, but still couldn't help but cry. He was a brother figure to me. I loved him(as a brother) and didn't know I would feel more attached to someone other than him.

Look, you know I didn't know you were a patient. Let's be honest, you were dressed as a normal nineteen year old. So when you told me you needed a heart transplant, I was shocked. For the next few months I stayed with you, walked along the park or the streets, talking about our past and our hopes in the future.

Then I began to be in love with you.

You understood me in a way Eren or anyone could never do. You knew and once suffered the same pain as what I was going through. Fuck. I loved you so much. When you asked me to be your girlfriend I burst into tears. I knew you would never leave me, and you never did.

Now, back onto why I'm not here.

Levi, you have a lot to live. And I didn't want to suffer the loss and pain all over again for like what, the fifth time? I can't loose you. I can't. I would never be happy and satisfied with my life without you. That is why when they checked my blood for the type, I volunteered. I guess you could say I'm inside of you. Or that I'm part of you. That makes sense right? I mean you were a part of me I never knew about.

I'll make this less confusing:

The heart. The same heart that is keeping you alive for you to read this letter, is mine. You're using my heart.

But please, don't be sad. I didn't sacrifice myself for you to be sad. I sacrificed myself so you would live a decent life, a happy one. Full of memories and joy.

So please, live and begin to love someone else. Someone who's normal and doesn't need to be comforted every minute. Find someone new. There will be no one else like me, because if there was, I'd still be with you.

Levi, before I end this letter, I ask of you to never forget me, or the next multiple words I say. And no, do not be sad of the memories we shared, be grateful we met.

Levi Ackerman, I love you. So so much. So much that I've gave my whole body for your survival. I love you and every scar and stitch you have on you. And you know that damn well. I'll be with you no matter what. No matter what cause, no matter what happens because my heart is thumping because you made me feel alive.(and I don't want you to die)

Again, Levi I love you. So goddamn much. Thank you for showing me what love is like. What life means.

I will always be with you.

私はあなたを愛し、幸せにしてください。

Your Lover,
Mikasa.

Tears rolled down Levi's eyes. He nodded in reply, feeling Mikasa's smile from above him. He knew what she wrote in the beautiful language of Japan, as it was what they said to each other. "I love you." He whispered, clutching on the letter.

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IM CRYING SO MUCH RIGHT NOW IM NOT JOKING JUST PURE TEARS IM SORRY LEVI AND TO EVERYONE WHO READS THIS IM SO SO SORRY.

私はあなたを愛し、幸せにしてください。 means "I love you, please be happy" In Japanese.(which made me burst into tears)

Extra Note: I am currently writing another one shot but I really wanted to post this one.