SIMON

She was sat with Cal, again. All she ever did now was sit with Cal, sit on his lap, hugging him, kissing his neck, having piggyback rides and sleeping beside him in his bed.

I'd spoke to Josh about how he feels, and he said he's happy for his cousin.

Today we were spending the day up in Manchester for a meet up with some fans at the Manchester City Football stadium. We'd arrived about 30 minutes ago and I was currently helping Josh set up the seating area, putting them in lines for our little Q and A. Cal and Elise had tagged along, but they weren't staying here in the stadium for the whole day, they were going out during most of it, and were coming in at the end to surprise everyone.

After a few hours it was almost time for us to start leaving, Cal and Elise come in the back, making everyones heads turn and the fans start cheering and clapping. Some of them rush over to Cal and Elise, crowding them and I smile as Elise begins to hug members of the group, they take photos with them, smiling and signing their posters.

I take a photo with the next person, whose name is Amy and she kindly asks for a hug.

At the end we all have a massive photo with everyone and then we have some group photos.

Eventually the event begins to end, and we start saying goodbye, hugging everyone as they leave. I was stood beside Elise, Cal her other side.

A girl hugs Elise after Cal and she grins.

"You and Cal really suit each other," She says and Elise smiles.

"Thank you so much," She says, smiling widely.

The girl steps towards me and as I lean down to hug her and chuckles.

"But I think you and Elise suit better," She says and I smirk, we both pull away and she gives me a grin before moving on to hug Tobi.

After awhile, when everyones left we begin to pack up and I watch Elise and Cal start playfighting. I roll my eyes at them, frowning as I begin to pack up some of the equipment we used.

She looks round, smiling towards me and she gives me a little wave. I give her a soft smile, continuing to shove stuff in boxes.

"You need to stop staring at her," I hear and I look round at Tobi.

I shake my head, "Wha-? I wasn't!"

"Shut up, Simon, I saw you! You were watching her and glaring at Cal," Tobi says, he moves towards, speaking quieter, "You like her, don't you?"

She looks over again, this time waving at Tobi who grins and waves back.

"No, Tobi, I just think she can do better than him," I say, shrugging off Tobi's stupid suggestion.

"Oh yeah? Maggie managed to get out of Anna why she dumped your ass," Tobi says and I feel my eyes widen, throat suddenly going dry.

"And what did she make up about me?" I ask, voice croaky, "And Maggie? You and Maggie on it at last?"

"Maggie and I aren't the issue here," Tobi says, folding his arms, I give him a wink and he laughs, "Yes, fine, me and Maggie are together,"

"Nice one," I say and I offer my hand, he grabs it and I pull my shoulder into his, patting his back with my spare hand.

"Anna told Maggie that you called her Elise...During sex, Simon, what the fuck?" He says, and I feel my cheeks start to burn.

"Fuck off Tobi, I never did that! Anna's just trying to pit me and Elise against each other," I say and Tobi shrugs.

"Whatever man, its safe with me, I'm not going to tell her," Tobi says and I watch as he heads off to Harry, Ethan and JJ.

Once everyones done we all leave the stadium, we grab some food before getting on the train. I sit beside JJ, opposite us sits Josh and Vik, Ethan, Harry, Cal and Elise sitting in the seats beside us, Tobi was just managing to sit beside Vik at the minute, though he could sit with some of the others that went, he wanted to sit with us.

We chat amongst ourselves, just talking about how we want to do this more, and how excited we are for the Upload event in London. I keep to myself for most of the journey, watching out the window.

When we finally get back, its really late and Josh and Vik go off to record, JJ says he's going to play fifa and I find myself sitting in the living room. It feels empty here without Elise. She's staying over at Cal's. Callux and Harry weren't staying in the apartment tonight- they were at their girlfriends apartments.

I didn't want to think about whats happening right now in that apartment.

I shake my head, turning my attention to the TV, I had an episode of Friends on and I couldn't seem to pay attention to it. I check my phone, hoping something would interest me there. I find a message from Tobi, he tells me to tell Elise, just so I don't have the weight on my chest. I tell him I don't know what he's on about and leave it at that.

I turn off the TV, heading upstairs and I throw my phone onto my desk, putting my camera up on its stand, flicking it on. I sit down in front of the camera, I sit for a moment, with my head in my hands before eventually looking up.

"So, if I actually do decide to ever post this video, then I'd like to say, that this was very difficult for me to release, because this is something very private. And as much as I like to talk to you guys about my private life, this is a part of my private life that you guys always laugh at me for. Theres a reason I haven't got a girlfriend, and I've only just realised it. Its because I'm already acting like I'm in a relationship. I'm acting like I'm in a relationship with someone who hates me, I act like I'm in a relationship with a girl who loves and is dating one of my friends. And I'm in love with her. I realise now, that I'm totally head over heels in love with a girl who I thought I hated. And its the worst and best feeling all at once. Now I know what they meant, when they say,

there's a fine line, between love and hate,"

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Thank you for reading!

I love you all immensely, if you weren't reading, voting and commenting like you are I probably wouldn't have this inspiration to write this book, so thank you!

Also, well done to all those who guessed that Simon had called Anna 'Elise' when he slept with her!

I thought it'd be a good idea for Anna (and now Maggie and Tobi) to have something against Simon if she(or Maggie or Tobi) ever needed it *wink*

~KatnissBajanCanadian❤️