Fifty Seven
"So you pretty much interrogated him." I state with a flat look. "Nice going."
"Hey, don't get all hurt just because he was being crabby," Hanji defends. I roll my eyes before going back to taking off my jacket.
Hanji's plan was stupid as ever. Her little idea to show me Levi did have a decency to care about me truly backfired. I never meant for her talk to him directly, I knew it would make things worse.
He didn't look at me all day. Hell, he didn't even speak to me. As much as that angered me I try to show I didn't care. It would give him the upper hand.
"You know, this whole thing you two got going on is really annoying," Hanji groans. She flops down onto her mattress with a heavy sigh.
Tossing my jacket into a nearby chair I take my hair out of its ponytail. "It really isn't none of your business."
"You and Levi think the same, you know. And yet you two can't just confess your feelings."
"Tch, I'm not confessing shit." I sit back down. I try my best to not think how his room was just across the cabin. Even if I was angry at him I still wanted him.
It was like some stupid primal instinct I couldn't get rid of. My body's desire to press against his. To run a hand throw his hair. To feel his teeth clamp down on my shoulder—I shake my head firmly.
There's no way in hell I would continue those thoughts. It would leave me feeling aroused but with no way to channel it. Tonight wasn't the night to feel that miserable.
"I think it'll be better if you do," Hanji hums. "I mean what can happen really?"
I scoff loudly with a disbelieved smile. I wasn't sure if she said that as joke or not but was she dense?
Levi Ackerman. I liked Humanity's Strongest solider. If that wasn't enough information I don't know what is.
"I can give you five things off the top of my head that can go wrong." I mutter. "Your suggestion would lead me into deep shit."
"Then I don't know anymore, Emma!" Hanji sends me an frustrated glare. Her tone baffled me. I gape at my friend, blinking twice as I found it difficult to speak. "Levi won't admit to his feelings, you refuse to tell him and I don't know how to help anymore. You guys are seriously getting nowhere by playing this prideful game. Honestly, if you don't want to tell him then don't. At least put all your energy into a guy that actually likes you."
She didn't have to speak his name for me to know who she meant. Edward. That idiot left for two days without saying a word.
No matter how much Hanji and I looked for him he was nowhere to be found. Till today. Showing up out of nowhere he expressed how sorry he was for leaving so suddenly.
I didn't bother telling him the punishment Erwin had planned for him after this exercise. I didn't want to think how he now placed Edward as an official suspect now.
His actions these past few days were too suspicious. I shake my head, I didn't want to think anymore.
"There's no point in that. I'm not going to give everything to a guy I don't even like." I mutter while clamping my hands together.
"So you'll give your everything to someone who isn't aware of your feelings?"
I grimace at her words, averting my gaze to the floor. I didn't realize how dumb that sounded till Hanji spoke them. Yearning for a man who deems little interest me, how pathetic.
Levi has made me into this lousy being with nothing but him on my mind. The many times I told myself to get a grip led to the overwhelming anger that was built inside me. If Levi wasn't such an asshole I wouldn't have to feel this way.
If he just took a moment to hear me out then I didn't have to say such terrible things. If he wasn't cold as ice I wouldn't have to think he was in the wrong.
"Amazing plan, Emma," Hanji comments sarcastically. "Have feelings for a man who can't reciprocate—awesome."
I suddenly couldn't take this anymore. She was belittling me, I know she is. My hands shake while my teeth bare into a snarl. I rise to my feet and set my fiery glare onto my friend.
"Shut up! Don't act like you know everything! It's hard for me, alright? The fact I have feelings for that asshole is beyond me! I didn't choose to like him, it just happened! And so what if I don't tell him?! That's none of your fucking business!"
"Then stop your damn moping!" Hanji shoots back. Her glare equalized mind but something else shone in them. I didn't have the interest to figuring out what it was. "I tried to get him to talk and he said nothing. Give up then if you won't do something about it. Save yourself from another heartbreak, Emma."
"You don't get it, do you?" I fume with my fists clenched. "If I were to tell him I had feelings then—then it would ruin everything!"
"Ruin what? You two aren't even talking anymore! Heck, your guy's bickering somehow gotten worse despite the progress made! There's nothing to ruin anymore."
I didn't want to tell her the agreement I made with Levi.
No strings attached.
That was what I agreed upon. If he found out—no, what did it matter? It was over.
And if Hanji doesn't believe me then I'll show her. I'll show her how right I was.
"I'll show you," I growl as I prowl towards the door. "I'll show you what's left to ruin."
Yanking the door open I stomp through the living area heading for Levi's room. I wasn't sure what was going through my head. Why was I doing this?
Just to show how humiliating it would be if I told Levi everything? God, I must be that desperate to see him if I was going this far.
When I reach his door I realized none of that mattered. My anger was my sole purpose for being here, nothing else mattered except proving how right I was. I don't bother knocking, I grip the doorknob and roughly push it open.
"Levi, I need to—"
My tongue suddenly becomes heavy in my mouth as I take in the scene before me. Petra held Levi close, her hand covering his cheek. She lazily pulled her lips away from his to glance over her shoulder.
Levi's hooded in some sort of trance. Till his eyes land upon me. They widen in shock, his mouth opening with no words emitting from him.
Nothing seemed to register at first. Tension rose between the three of us as I weigh each of their surprised stares. I shouldn't feel mad and yet there this burning feeling enveloping my whole body.
My mind was blank as a slate, there was no thoughts to my actions nor my words.
"What the fuck?!" I shriek in outrage. "The hell did I just walk into?!"
I send my glare to Levi even though I wasn't sure why I directed most of that anger to him. We weren't in a relationship, I shouldn't care. But there was this disgusting, green pit of jealously widening a hole in my heart.
So he wants to play the game like this then? I muse to myself. Fine by me.
"You damn hypocrite," I sneer. "One minute you degrade me for assuming that I like Edward and yet you're over here sticking your damn tongue down your subordinate's throat."
"Well, we didn't get to that part," Petra murmurs.
I whirl my fiery glare to her making her cringe. I never bore personal grudges towards her but now she done it. I knew they had a thing for each other. And I had to fucking witness it.
"If you didn't barge in then—"
"Get out."
She blinks in surprise while gaping like a fish. Was what I said too shocking? Why the hell was she staring at me like that?
"For your information," she begins with confidence slowly coming to life. "I'm staying here for the night. So if you have something to say to the Captain then—"
"I said—get out." Petra shakes her head, while I point at the door. "I'm sure I didn't speak gibberish, Petra. Listen to your fucking superior and get the hell out."
I was ready to throw her out the window as she casted Levi a helpless glance. The sight was irritating, it had me scoff hatefully with a scowl. She expected Levi to do something but, he didn't.
He was glaring at me with icy hate that made me sure he wanted to slam me against a wall. He doesn't speak, hasn't since I yelled at him. I think Petra had realized that too and walked out.
Only a few grueling seconds passed after the door clicked shut. I moved my glare to Levi, my blood simmering inside me.
"Want to explain yourself?"
"Why should I?" He growls. "You shouldn't even be here, brat."
"That's a topic for another time. Answer my question."
"Tch." He looks to the side with dark frown. I keep my eyes on him willing my anger under control.
Still, my fists shook while my heart thundered painfully against my chest. When Levi doesn't answer it only fueled my boiling rage.
"I should've known you two would get together sooner or later," I hiss. "Still, I'm surprised you would like someone like her."
"Are you jealous?" Levi abruptly inquires with a dark glint in his eyes. His questions sets me off balance, I blink continuously. He notices with a scoff. "Spare me the lecture. Your jealously is unacceptable here."
"Bullshit," I snap. "You were jealous over the entire Edward crap. I got every right to be jealous now."
"So, you admit it?"
My body shook with my glare blazing. This damn asshole, he was getting on my nerves. I'd do anything to shove his head into a wall.
"So what if I am?!" I explode. "I didn't like seeing you kiss Petra! I didn't like the fact you kissed someone that wasn't me!"
I was breathing heavily as if I ran a mile. My chest rose and fell while Levi simply stared me down. Heavy tension loomed the air, my anger not ceasing.
Nor does Levi's. It seems my answer wasn't enough. He stalks towards me with a predator's intent. I only took that as a challenge.
"You didn't like any of that, huh?" He growls. His warmth breath caressed my face. My knees almost buckled. "Good to see you got a taste of your own medicine. Say it again." He orders darkly.
My jaw hung open before I bared them into a snarl. There seemed to be a gleam of dominance looming in Levi's beautiful silver eyes. No matter how angry I was I marveled his eyes.
"In a million years," I grit. He suddenly grabs the collar of my shirt, being in me down to his height.
"Say it. Tell me how much you didn't like my lips on another woman. Tell me how you wish it was you that I kissed. Tell me why you're jealous. Let me here those words again, you hopeless brat."
I wasn't sure if it was his words or my own pent up emotions that allowed me to blurt everything out at once. I became unstoppable as thoughts I've been dying to say flooded out of my lips. Even I couldn't stop myself.
"Yes, I'm jealous, alright?! So jealous that I want to slam your head into a wall! And you want to know why?! It's because I fucking like you!"
Those words hung in the air between us. Levi doesn't say a word nor do I. I curse myself tremendously for yelling such a thing but I quickly remember proving Hanji wrong.
Setting my cool stare upon Levi I straighten my spine. I already knew what he was going to say and prepared myself. That did little when a twinge of hurt blooms through my chest. His cold glare didn't help things either.
"You like me, brat? Is that what this is all about?"
I refuse to fall prey to his mockery and keep my mouth shut. It brought a devious yet dark smirk sweep across his lips.
"You're so good at not following orders. I tell you not to catch feelings and yet here you are spilling your heart out."
"That's not even nowhere close to what I was doing." I growl. "Don't blow it out of proportion."
"Oh, I'm not," he quickly assures as he tightens his grip on my collar. "Just pointing out how much of an idiot you are."
Anger brewed hotly through my veins while my eyes narrow. I knew he would reject my feelings. Hell, I knew he would mock me but I was at the brink of exploding. And he just ignited me.
I slap away his hand and grab his collar instead. I pull him towards me my face inches from his. His smirk doesn't leave and only widens.
That pisses me off even more. I don't speak nor does he. Holding each other's glares a mixture of anger and lust started to form.
I could hear my heartbeat accelerate when I see the desire behind Levi's anger. I'm sure he saw the same thing in me as well because he slowly closed that small gap between us. His soft lips gently brushing against mine.
My breath hitches. I knew I was angry at him but I couldn't deny that lustful feeling any longer. Nor could he.
"You're a goddamn idiot," he murmurs huskily. I swallow thickly before etching my lips into a cocky smirk.
"So are you."
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