It's like I was living with twins. One day he's kind and calm, but other days he's cruel and violent. I've been here for I think about a week and a half now. I can never know because never once have I seen a single clock on the wall.

Some days Eric would let me out, others he would keep me in the attic but he was always be lurking nearby until one day he came up the stairs and spoke to me.

"Xave, I need to go out, you need new clothes... but here's the thing. You have behaved yourself well enough and I think you deserve some credit. So here's the thing," Eric said looking unsure and scared, as if he had been stressing over this for a while. "I am going to let you out so you can have free range over the house," he said leaning against the doorway, "but, you cannot leave. Because if you do, and I catch you I will hurt ya real bad." Eric said as he walks over, holding up the key to the shackles that dug into my wrists."You understand why, right?" He asked as he unlocked the shackle on my left arm, revealing bruised and bloody flesh from where the metal grinded against my skin.

"Ouch... That doesn't look too pretty Xave, those chains not treatn' you well?" Eric asked as he gently grabbed my arm, looking at the wound that wrapped around my wrist. "I'm sorry, I won't chain you up anymore okay?" Eric asked leaning down and kissing my wrist. He looked back up with watery eyes, it surprised me, it surprised me a lot actually.

"I'm so, so sorry Xavier..." He said leaning down and resting his head on my shoulder "I just... love you, so much... I don't know what to do..." He said, I could feel the warmth of his tears on my shoulder as a million thoughts ran through my head, but the one that screamed the loudest was empathy. I felt bad. This man doesn't know why his psyche is like this, but I don't think he deserves this. He's just... confused and made a rash decision.

Even though this was the man who hurt me, kidnapped me, abused me and made me so confused, I did the only thing I could think of. I reached up, putting my arms around his back gently rubbing circles onto his back. I heard him sniffle a bit before looking up at me unsure and scared. Almost pathetic. Like a lost puppy. A puppy under my control.

"Xavier...." Eric said softly his hand reaching up and touching my jaw lightly. "I... I want to kiss you, Xave." the man in front of me sounded somewhat breathless as he spoke.

I looked into Eric's big green eyes as he said so, glossed over from the tears he had poured out. Why not? If this guy thinks I'm head over heals for him, then it will be easier to escape.

"Then do it." I said looking back at him. He hesitated, but leaned in hesitantly and it was light and innocent, the exact opposite of what I expected from him. I felt his lips tremble a bit against mine. As I thought, he was scared. Scared of messing up. I pulled away slightly, our noses touching. His expression said it all, his eyes were wide and his cheeks were tinged pink I knew he wanted more, but I wasn't going to do anything about it. I wanted to see how far I could push him. I pulled away.

"Can you unchain my other wrist?" I asked casually, as if nothing happened. Eric looking at me strange, not the reaction I had expected out of him.

"....Yes..." He said grabbing my wrist and unlocking the other shackle.

"Thank you." I said as the shackle fell of my wrist and landed on the bed. I rubbed my other injured wrist and lifted up my right leg which held the shackle on my ankle. He looked at my bruised foot, and took the key, unlocking the piece of metal. He then grabbed my foot before I could put it down. Eric stared at my bruise, what was going on inside this man's mind? I can't figure it out anymore, is he going to hurt me? He looks kind of scary right now.

"D-did I do something wrong?" I stutter out, accidentally letting my fear show. Eric looked up at me and frowned.

"No, you did nothing wrong dear. But, how did you get these bruises?" The dark haired man asked as he looked at me with longing eyes.

"You stepped on them.. Don't you remember? It was because I said something you didn't like." I said. In the previous week many things had happened, but whenever I made a mistake he would hurt me in some way. Nothing too major, whether it was smashing my fingers and does or hitting me. It didn't hurt too much.

"I..." Eric tailed off, looking down at my foot then back up at me. "I did that?" He asked in disbelief. What?

"What do you mean, 'I did that?' of course you did!" I said feeling myself get angry and slightly scared. There was no way that this man didn't remember bruising me. That is, unless my pain is so trivial to him that it no longer brings him amusement.

"I don't remember doing that at all." Eric said giving me a look that froze me in my movements.

Pure terror.

I now know what that looks like as an expression. Eric looked absolutely horror-struck.

"I-I'm sorry!!" Eric said hysterically. Why did he look so terrified of me? I didn't know. "Is... that why you flinch everytime I touch you?" He asked.

"Why... why do you care so much you fucking kidnapped me!" I snapped moving away from him on the bed.

Eric's eyes grew wide and his head dropped. No. I was not going to feel bad for him this time. He didn't deserve it.

"I know... I'm horrible. This may be hard to believe but I need to explain everything to you. Sometimes. I just snap. I do things I would never do but don't ever remember my actions. It's like being drunk but I haven't touched alcohol in months Xavier. Something's wrong with me and I don't know what." Eric said looking at me, probably trying too read my expression. I kept it blank, not giving him the satisfaction of knowing what I'm thinking. Eric continued on speaking anyways, "But... it hasn't happened for a really long time and I- I don't know what to do anymore."

"Bullshit." I said and he looked up at me, tears in his eyes. Those were probably fake.

"W-what....?" He asked, his voice sounding shattered into a million peices.

"I said that's complete and utter bullshit. I don't believe your lies for a second, you just want to control me and persuade me with your sappy story. I won't do what you want. Not now, not later not ever. I will spend the rest of my life if I have too- defying you." I said my eyes narrowed I watched his expression change before my eyes. I want to know if what he says is true or not.

"Ah..." He said looking right through me. "I-I understand." He said standing up. Eric looked mortified. He looked, broken...

"I... don't have a reason for living anymore." Eric mumbled as he looked away and stood up. I looked at him strange as he turned to walk out.

"Eric... where are you going?" I asked and tried to stand from the bed. I got no answer of course. He walked down stairs not even bothering to look at me again.

"No, Eric... Please don't leave me." 

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