My Own Sides
I really hope people read this and actually comment or something on it cause this took me literally 9 hours- (make that 11 whoops)
For some reason today I had the very random urge to come up with and draw my own sides. I think they actually turned out pretty well, and I like them quite a bit. So, I'm gonna show off each individual drawing I did of them and then the big drawing all together of them + me at the end.
I'll say things about them under each of the drawings, and then at the end under the final drawing I'll kinda talk about their dynamics with each other a bit.
So the first ones name is Ida. He represents mental illness-so basically, my anxiety, depression, and dysphoria wrapped up in one very depressed character. Whoo !
So first off, about his design. He has the broken heart as his sort of "logo". They each have different hair colors because of my inability to stick with one hair color. His is blue because, obviously, the color blue is associated with depression and feeling down. He wears an oversized hoodie, always paired with a pair of pajama pants cause those are comfort clothes. The large hoodie is because obviously he's dysphoric, and wants to hide his chest. His hair is down because he can't be bothered to get out of bed and do it, and he wears pajamas for the same reason. Not wanting to get out of bed.
I decided that, rather than consider any of them "dark sides" I just made them all normal sides. Ida isn't necessarily a bad guy-he is the one who points out things that could go wrong any time they leave the house, or that something about me is too feminine, and encourages me to stay in bed all day, but that's because they feel that way. It's kinda like with Virgil-he's just looking out for Thomas.
I chose the name Ida because I was looking for a name that started with either M or I for Mental Illness, and that was the most interesting name I found. He has also been affectionately nicknamed Eeyore by Nevaeh.
The next side is called Nevaeh. He represents creativity.
His name actually inspired a lot of his design. So, I'm unsure if you can tell or not but the logo on his shirt is meant to be a pair of wings. He's sort of an amalgamation of his/my favorite fantasy things. He has a halo around his head for angels, devil horns, and vampire fangs. His name is Heaven backwards, which is why I chose the angel and demon themes. I chose the color orange for him as I thought his favorite holiday would be Halloween-it's a creative holiday that you get to plan and create a new costume for. He wears mostly normal clothing. His hair is styled always, usually curly but it varies from day to day.
As you've surely noticed, he likes to take advantage of the fact that he can look any ways that he wants to. He likes the idea of basically cosplaying every single day, being whatever he wants to be! Usually he sticks to this design, but if one day he wants to be a dragon? Merman? Centaur? He can do it!
He's constantly got a pen and notepad on him. Randomly get an idea? Jot that down and make sure to harass Oliver with it until he inevitably starts a new project only to abandon it soon after for something more interesting! Want to actually get a project finished? Well planning that out isn't his job! That's Raven's!
Next up is Sunny. He represents my feelings. (Ew)
The first thing you've probably noticed is the lack of eyes-because Sunny represents mostly positive emotions(as any others are usually caused by Ida) he's obviously a very happy and bright character. Blindingly bright. You can kind of notice a yellow glow surrounding him-he's always glowing, and it gets brighter the happier he is. Because he represents feelings he also has a little to do with my guilt (because that's not something mental illness really covers). Therefor, he also has to do with my morality. His logo is basically supposed to be like a "moral compass". He is yellow because yellow is often associated with happiness, optimism, and confidence which he represents.
Sunny has only recently been starting to shine a little brighter. For a long period in my life Ida was blocking out his light, making Sunny feel less happy and thus making him glow less bright. Now he and Ida have settled differences and Sunny is able to help me in feeling a little more happy and confident in myself. He's encouraging and works very hard very often. He still has a hard time being heard, but he's slowly learning to be louder.
And finally, Raven. He's the logical one.
There's not much interesting about his design. There's tiny references in it tho, he's a huge nerd who likes Doctor Who ("bow ties are cool"). He's also an Android, which is why there's a blue light on his forehead. It's a reference to Detroit:Become Human of course. His hair is black because black is associated with sophistication, dignity, and practicality. His name is Raven because for a brief time when my hair was black my dad gave me the nickname Raven and I liked it. That's the only reason.
Obviously he's logic so he tries to be smart and on time with things. He tries his best to stay on schedule but man. It's impossible with me lmao. Sets up a sleep schedule? Nevaeh fucks that right up by having me write all night. He wants to get at least on a writing schedule? Nevaeh's either out of ideas or has too many and overdoes it. Wants me to properly care for myself? Ida prevents it.
So, here's the final drawing.
There are a few things I missed in it. For example, apparently my glasses in real life have blue on top and pink on the bottom. Dunno how I missed that lmao. Also, I completely forgot my freckles! So that was a little disappointing, I like my freckles.
Anyways, about how each of them get along with each other.
So, Ida has a difficult time talking to everyone due to his anxiety and also the fact that he caused a lot of problems for most of the others so they didn't like him for a while. The only person who hasn't resented him at some point was Nevaeh, because Ida making me sad actually led to me writing more and being more creative. They actually work together from time to time to help each other out-Ida gets to vent, and Nevaeh gets a new story idea. They also both kinda relate over not feeling good enough.
Ida doesn't have great relations with Raven, but they don't dislike each other. Raven attempts to rationalize away Ida's worries. Ida does get in the way of productivity, but Raven can sort of understand that he can't really help it so doesn't have any ill feelings towards him for it.
Ida definitely didn't get along with Sunny for a long time, which I'm sure you got from Sunny's description. I won't go into any more detail about that here.
Nevaeh and Sunny get along pretty well. Sunny helps to encourage Nevaeh and assures him his ideas are good and that people will like them. Nevaeh hangs around him a lot because he enjoys being told he's good at something.
Nevaeh and Raven have to work together often to finish projects, but that doesn't mean they don't bicker. Raven gets frustrated with Nevaeh very easily when he's having writers block because he just wants to finish things on time and stay on schedule, but Nevaeh has a hard time with that. They can manage to get along but most of the time they're going back and forth about something.
Sunny and Raven don't have much in common, and don't have much reason to spend time together. Sunny dislikes how Raven is so cold, and Raven simply is trying to do his job. He doesn't dislike Sunny for any reason, and doesn't even know Sunny thinks this of him.
That's all I've really got for now! I had a lot of fun today coming up with all of them and how they interact with each other. I considered writing something about them but to be honest I don't have any ideas for what I'd write, and I'm sure hardly anyone will take the time to read this and much less a story about characters they don't know or have any reason to care about lol. People follow me mostly for fan fiction, which I understand. It would be fun to do something with these guys tho.
Anyways, it's 5 AM and I have places to be when I wake up later so. I'm gonna get off of here and maybe finally get some rest. I somehow managed to sit in the same spot for hours straight drawing and not getting up for anything so like, I'm gonna maybe go make myself drink some water and take some ibuprofen since I know now that I'm not distracted with writing my backs probably gonna be killing me. Thanks for reading through all of this if anyone did lol. Take care of yourselves. Bye!-Oliver
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