Do you want to know a little something.

I want to die, but I'm too scared to do anything. I hate my sister, I hate everything she does. Every time she yells at me to do something when she can't do it herself. Every time she acts like she's superior than me when I'm older. Every time she acts like I don't have feelings. Every time she makes fun of me for her entertainment. Every time she treats me like her slave. Every time she hurts me. Every time she treats me like I'm useless. Every time she makes fun of what I do. Every time when she doesn't leave me alone. Every time when she acts like I don't have friends. Every time she acts like no one loves me. Every time she blames stuff on me. Every time when she doesn't leave me alone. Every time she doesn't listen to me. Every time she makes me want to cry. Every time when she makes me hate myself more. Every time when she doesn't know when to shut the fuck up and to do fucking shit for herself.

I hate it.

I really fucking hate it. She doesn't fucking listen to me, she never fucking acknowledges my feelings, she doesn't even fucking care. She only cares for herself and does what's easiest for her. She fucking hates me.

I hate that. I hate everything. I want to cry. I want to get away from her. I don't want to listen to her yelling at me. I don't want to listen to her bossing me around. I don't want to be her punching bag. I want to be me. But no. I have to listen to her fucking telling me what to fucking do when she can't do shit herself.

I'm done. I want to leave her and to be by myself, to be me for once. But I can't do shit because I'm a dumb coward who can't do shit and is too fucking nice and let's people use her. I'm too scared to stand up for myself. I'm too scared to kill my self. I'm too scared to do anything. So I'll do absolutely nothing and suffer and be used and being a slave for my shitty sister who can't do shit for herself.