I know that you won't see this

And I know that you won't say anything

But.....

I miss you...

I miss talking to you and I miss laughing with you and I miss hanging out and joking around and just being friends with you. I'm sorry for what I did and I know it's my fault, I'm sorry for not doing what you said and I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry for being alive and hurting you I'm sorry. I'm sorry for saying no and not calling you by what you wanted me to call you the first time. I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry. I'm sorry for stating my opinions and I'm sorry for fighting with you and I'm sorry. I wish that I wouldn't shut up and I did as you said. I wish that I didn't say anything even though I was hurting inside. I wish that I didn't ruin our relationship. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so so so so so so so sorry. I'm sorry. I know that no matter what I do you won't forgive me, but I'm so sorry.

I miss you....

I want to be friends again....

But then again....

I'm jus a stupid girl who fucks up at everything...

What the fuck can I even do anymore....

I'll just fuck shit up even more...

Why don't I just die, so I won't be a nuisance to anyone....

That'll make you happy...

Right...?