I know that you probably won't see this, but I just want to say this and hopefully you'll see it....

But please don't go, please, I beg of you, please....

You have no idea how much you matter to me, how much you make me happy when we talk. You don't know how much I care for you and how much I worry for you.

Talking to you, it feels like all of my problems go away, like I have nothing to worry about in my life. Talking to you, a real smile is on my face and every message I get happy and smile. Talking to you, I feel comfortable and I feel as if I can tell you anything and you'll listen. Talking to you, I feel loved.

You don't know that whenever you tell me a problem of yours, I can feel your pain. You don't know how many nights I stayed up talking to you to make sure that you're okay. You don't know how much I sit and wait for a message from you to hear that you're okay. You don't know how much I worry when I see the decreasing number going lower and lower on your account as I worry for what it means, how much I worry that you're going to leave me alone.

When we called the other day, that was the first that I actually laughed a real laugh and smiled a real smile in a while. Without you, it seems as if my whole world is in black and white and when we talk it's all suddenly in color and I can see, I can be myself. When you tell me that you're going to kill yourself, no matter what time it is, I will stay up and try to talk you out of it and I worry that you won't do it. When you suffer, I try to make you happy as much as I can, forgetting about my own needs sometimes, just to make you happy.

In short, you matter so much to
Me that I can't put it in words. Every roleplay, every conversation, everything, I love talking to you. You matter so much to me and I worry for you everyday. You matter so so much to me, so please don't leave...

Please don't kill yourself, I don't know what I'd do without you.

Please don't leave...

I love you....