I want to die so badly

I can't handle it anymore

I'm so tired of the lack of friends

I'm so tired of the lack of support

I'm so tired of no one helping me when I'm upset

I'm so tired of being miserable every day

I'm so tired of being alone

I'm so tired of now being happy

I'm so tired of begging for something to happen to me everyday

I'm so tired of wanting to cry everyday

I'm so tired of being yelled at

I'm so tired of people not caring

I'm so tired of all the questions

I'm so tired of all the stress

I'm so tired of school

I'm so tired of my family not having money

I'm so tired of being fake

I'm so tired of everything

I'm so close to giving up

I'm so done with it

I can't handle anything anymore

I'm getting sadder and sadder and falling deeper and deeper every day that I wake up

I can't even trust myself anymore

I don't even know if trusting myself can even be an option anymore

I don't know who will actually care for me and who are just doing it to make me shut up

I don't know who I can call my friends

I don't know who to listen to

I don't know how to be truly happy

I don't know how to stop being sad

I don't know how to tell people when I'm upset

I don't know it I can even stop putting on a fake smile everyday of my life.

I want I die

I really want to die

Someone just please help me before I go insane.