"She want that old thing back. Things ain't the same, think we both seen that. Love is war, end up on the floor. But baby you only lose when you don't swing back." - J. Cole

DEJUAN

"Where you going? We just got to Jamaica and you already leaving to fuck off with some other hoe." Mia says, glaring at me while she breast feeds Juanye'. "Will you shut the fuck up? We ain't together, dumb ass, get that out your head. I don't want you. Only reason you still stay with me and the only reason you even in Jamaica with me right now is to take care of the kids." I say, continuing to get dressed.

"DeJuan, really? I apologized for the abortion, okay? I wasn't thinking when I did it and I promise I regret it every day." she says. "Yeah, you should've thought about that before now." I say, putting my shoes on. I watch tears roll down her face. "Atleast tell me where you going." she mumbles. I sigh. "The car my lil brother was in got shot up and I need to make sure he good. No, you can't come with me cause I was already stressed the fuck out when we got here and this made it worse and I really don't need you nagging in my ear right now." I say.

She gasps. "Which brother?" she asks. "Reshawd, Mia." I answer. She lays Juanye' down then stands. "Uh uh, I know you mad and all but I love Reshawd, I'm coming too. Let me get the kids dressed." she says, opening up the MCM suit case with Summer and Juanye's stuff in it. I blow. "What the fuck I just say, Mia? Damnit, are you deaf?" I yell at her. "I don't give a fuck what you said, I'm grown, you don't fucking run me, damn! I'm tired of you always demanding shit, the hell is wrong with your ass? You always do this! You don't own me!" she screams. "Yes I do own you, what the fuck you think this is? I ain't saying it no more, Mia, you gone make me beat the fuck out you! I ain't hit you in forever but you really finna make me beat yo fucking face in right now!" I yell at her. "See, that's the problem! Why do you always gotta get abusive?" she screams. "Abusive? You ain't seen abusive yet! I haven't even hit you in forever, Mia, so don't pull that bullshit! I tried to change my gotdamn ways for yo dumb ass! Now stay here and leave me the hell alone, I ain't in the mood for yo bullshit, aggravating bitch!" I snap, snatching my rental car keys off the dresser.

She breaks down crying along with Summer and Juanye' while I walk out. I sigh then turn around. I pick Juanye' up in one arm and Summer in the other. Summer balls up in my chest, covering her face from me while Juanye' stares at me, sniffling. I grab his pacifier off the bed then put it in his mouth. "Sunshine, my bad." I say to Summer then kiss her forehead. I hate making my kids cry. That's why I be trying to avoid Mia. We always get into a huge ass fight and make the kids cry. "No screaming, daddy. No." she says, shaking her head. "I'm sorry, I love you." I say. "Do do." she says, pointing at the TV. "You wanna watch Dora?" I ask. She smiles and nods her head. I walk to the TV then turn it on. "Hell is this?" I mumble to myself, looking at all the Jamaican stuff that's on. I go on Demand and search for Dora. I turn it on for her then lay her in the center of the bed. I kiss her forehead. "Daddy love you, aight? You gone hold it down?" I ask her, holding my hand out. She giggles. "Love you." she says, then slaps hands with me.

I chuckle then lay Juanye' down next to her. "Love you, lil man." I say, even though he only three months and don't know what I just said. I kiss his forehead.

I look at Mia. She looks away from me, covering her face while she cries. I sigh then walk over to her. "Come here right quick." I say. "I can't do this." she mumbles, shaking her head and crying. I grab her hand then pull her into the walk in closet. "You gotta understand this, Mia. I got a whole lot going on. First it's my business, I'm trying to expand and all that and it's stressing me out. I'm trying to stay out of trouble for my kids and you know I got the strongest urge to get back in the streets and all that shit, fighting temptation is hard for me. Then I got my real momma blowing my phone up talking shit, trying to come back in my life and she stressing me the hell out with all that. Then my momma just lost her baby cause my pops acting stupid, on top of that, I got a fucking brother or sister on the way with a random hoe I never met. Plus, you aborted my child and didn't tell me shit, bruh, you know how I feel about abortions, mane. I just keep thinking about what that baby could've grew up to be. Plus, Ronnie momma with the shit right now too but that's a different story. On top of that, the car my lil brother and his girlfriend or whoever she is just got shot up while they was in it and I'm trying to make sure he good. Everbody pulling me in different directions and I'm stressed, Mia. I'm sorry for threatening you and calling you out your name, I never should've did that shit. It was lame as fuck on my part so I apologize." I say.

She looks down. "It's gone be the same shit tomorrow. I can't do it. I wanna move out of this mansion with you and your family until we go back to America. I just can't handle it. I love you and your family, believe me, but the craziness is ridiculous and I'm hurt." she says. "Aight, whatever, Mia. Tomorrow imma take you to look for a place not far from here and all that if yiu you don't change yo mind. It's rules though. I get the key and you bring me my kids if you having a nigga over or having some company, ion want strangers around my kids, I don't play that shit. Understand?" I ask. She smiles and nods her head.

I open my arms. She hugs me tight then starts crying in my chest. "Why you crying?" I ask, holding her tighter. "Because I haven't been away from you ever since you got out of jail when we were eighteen and when you were in jail, I wrote you letters every week. I can't believe we fell so far off and ended up how we are." she sobs. She do got a point. "It's hard for me to accept it too, mane, I ain't even gone lie." I admit.

"I'm so sorry for everything, DJ, I swear. I don't know what's wrong with me." she says. I look down at her face then wipe the tears from under her eyes. "Don't blame yourself, blame me too. Both of us fucked up. My bad." I say. She nods her head. "Wanna start over?" I ask. She smiles. "Thought you didn't want me?" she asks. "I say a lot of shit when I'm mad. I don't want the you that you became recently, but I do want the old you." I say. "Same here." she says, laughing and crying at the same time.

I chuckle then step back. "You too old for light up shoes, bitch." I say, remembering exactly what I said when I met her when we were kids. She puts her hand on her hips. "And you too ugly to talk about anybody." she says. Both of us bust out laughing. We met in a weird ass way. I remember fighting for her when I didn't even know her too.

I smack my lips. "Who ugly? You look like a milkdud anyways." I say. "Whatever, your dıck is a milkdud." she says.

I laugh. "How the hell do we remember all that?" I ask. She shrugs her shoulders then hugs me. "I don't know. We gone get it right, DJ, watch." she says. "No more side niggas, no more side hoes, no more lies, and no more pointless arguments, aight? If you got secrets, let's put em out right now so they don't come bite us in the ass later on." I say.

She nods her head. "Well, when we stayed in the safe house, I caught feelings for Jaylen. I just loved how caring and sweet he was, especially towards Kennedie when they were together. He treated her like a queen, literally and I wanted him because you didn't do that for me. I cuddled up with him one night when you didn't come home last year. We didn't have sex, he said that he wasn't into me like that and we left it at that, I swear." she says. Surprisingly, I'm not mad.

"Anything else?" I ask. She nods her head. "The whole reason I aborted the baby was because that day I threw up everywhere, you shook your head and became distant like you knew I was pregnant and regretted it. I figured you would've made me get rid of it so I just went and did it on my own. I didn't wanna tell you that when you asked cause I knew you would've called me stupid." she says.

"Why you didn't just ask how I felt about the baby?" I ask. "Cause you would've been mad at me." she says, wiping her eyes. "No I wouldn't. I can't get mad at you for getting pregnant if I'm the one with the dıck and the sperm. That would be stupid." I say.

"I'm sorry." she mumbles. "I forgive you, aight? Let's just leave that in the past. You have anything else to get off your chest?" I ask. She nods her head. "A long time ago before we even got together and had kids, me and Eric got drunk and he gave me head." she says. I laugh. "I knew that already." I say. Her eyes widen. "How?" she asks. "It was obvious. Forget it, it's old." I say.

"That's all my secrets, your turn." she says. "Okay. Well, I did have sex with London all those nights I stayed out and lied like I was working. I got another girl pregnant not too long ago but she lost it and I'm glad. I used to cheat on you a lot but eventually stopped. Then I accidentally dropped Juanye' two days after he was born. That's my secrets." I admit.

She gasps then slaps my chest. "What the hell, you said you didn't know why he was crying that day he was on the floor and I asked!" she snaps. I laugh. "My bad, dang, he threw up on me, it scared the shit out of me. I didn't mean to." I say, grabbing her arms. She rolls her eyes. "Give me a kiss." she says. I lean down then kiss her lips. "I got one more secret I forgot though. You probably gone hate me for it." I say. "What is it?" she asks. "Deeeeeeeez nuts! Ha, got em!" I yell, laughing my ass off.

She laughs. "I can't stand you, on my life." she says, punching me in my arm. I laugh then kiss her all over her face. "I love you, ugly." I say. "I love you too, hideous." she says.

I chuckle then grab her ass and pull her on my hard dıck. She gasps then looks down at it. I smirk. "You know what time it is, Mia." I say.

She gasps then tries to run out the closet. I laugh then pull her back, closing the door. I lightly throw her into the wall. "Keep the screaming down, lil Bros and sisters sleep, pops and mom still here, and the kids in there." I say, pulling my boxers down. "You so nasty, how we gone do this in your parents house?" she asks. I grab her waist then slide into her from the back. She gasps and starts moaning. "Like this." I answer, going in from behind. About time we had this talk.

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