Right where you left me by Taylor Swift

I swear you could hear a hair pin drop, right when I felt the moment stop. Glass shattered on the white cloth, everybody moved on. I stayed there, dust collected on my pinned-up hair.

When we return back to the house I know what that means. I know what I have to do.

"Jamie, can I talk to you?" I ask calmly. He looks around at the group in confusion, they just shrug.

"Yeah." He says sceptically. I lead him into the empty library upstairs. I walk in slowly, breathing in the smell of old books and fresh parchment.

He looks worried, as if he has a hunch something is up. I take a deep breath. I need a deep breath to get through this.

"I'm leaving for college tonight." I explain slowly. "I know we agreed we would fly together in a week, the day before school starts and you would help me settle in. But I'm leaving early so i have time to adapt."

He nods in understanding, "Yeah i guess. We can fly tommorow and then I'll stay with you for a week to help get settled in." He agrees.

I take another breath. "Jamie.. I'm leaving. Alone."

His eyes squint slightly in confusion. "And I'm not planning to come back."

He falters. "What?" His voice disappears.

"You're going travelling anyway. I don't want to hold you back." I tell him.

"You're not holding me back Paris." He frowns.

"Look, let me put this in a way you'll understand. You know how In chess, the queens only job is to protect the king. I'm protecting you."

He looks a little angry. "Protect me from what? You?" He laughs.

"Look I spoke with Thea a while back and she got me thinking-"

He interrupts me, "Don't listen to her. She doesn't like me, of course she would tell you to break up with me."

I swallow, continuing anyway. "I'm starting a fresh. I don't want to be 'Avery's sister' or 'Jameson's girlfriend' I just want to be me. I'm making a new life for myself, doing what I love. And if I don't break up with you now I'll never be able to because I love you so much." I take his hand in mine.

"Please don't do this. I can lose everything but please. God! Not you." He begs, tears streaming down his cheeks. I hold back the tears, one of us needs to be strong.

"That's the problem. I shouldn't be number one on your priorities list. You need to be number one." I reply.

We've broken up once before. But this time it feels real. I won't see him every day. I won't wake up and see him next to me. We're actually finished.

(a/n. I swear by the minions just started playing when writing this paragraph. Just thought that would lighten the mood.)

I take in one last shaky breath and turn around. And I walk away. Even when I hear his sobs and him crying out my name, trying to get me to turn back and tell him it was just a cruel joke.

When I get out of the room I can still hear him crying. It takes everything in me to keep walking. It's over. I carefully wipe a tear from the corner of my eye so it doesn't look as if I've been crying.

I walk into the large room where everyone stands talking, Libby and Nash are there too.

"I know Paris." She tells me. She knows we aren't sisters. "And I want to make sure you know that blood or not, you're always going to be my little sister." She hugs me and I squeeze her extra tight.

When we pull apart she looks at me sceptically, "Are you okay?" She asks, gesturing to my red eyes.

"Yeah.. Jamie and I broke up." I tell them calmly as if I'm unbothered.

Libby gasps, "Oh Pear I'm so sorry." She frowns.

Max walks over to me and gives me a hug. "I'm okay. I was the one who broke up with him." I swallow the lump in my throat.

I turn around when I hear footsteps. He avoids eye contact with me. Smiling as he walks in as if I didn't watch him sob and beg me to stay just five minutes ago. His eyes are watery and bloodshot but otherwise he looks stronger than ever.

He walks passed everyone until he is in front of Avery. "Kiss me."

I watch in confusion. "Excuse me?" She laughs. "You're hot. I'm hot. Kiss me." He challenges. I scoff, charming as always.

Avery shrugs and then pulls their lips together. He passionately kisses her lips in front of everyone.

Everyone is watching me. Seeing what I'm going to do. He separates from her and looks at me.

I smile. I don't want the last thing he sees me do be cry or shout. So i smile. He didn't expect it.

"I need to use the bathroom." I excuse myself from the room, my voice shaking. And then I run out as quickly as I can.

I lean against the cold stone wall and slide down, finally letting go of the tears brimming up in my eyes.

I get that he's vulnerable right now and heartbroken, trying to make me jealous so that I stay. But the thing that upsets me most is Avery kissing him without hesitation.

Max and Xander follow me out. When they see me they jog towards me. "I'm so sorry Pear." Max kneels in front of me, on the other side Xander does the same.

I hold myself as I cry. It seems like that's all I do these days.

"He's just trying to make you see what you're missing. In a really stupid and selfish way. But he loves you." Xander tells me, taking one of my hands and squeezing it.

"I know. I don't blame him. But it hurt." I wipe the tears on my cheeks.

I hear footsteps and when I look up I see Grayson. He extends his hand out to help me up, I take it gratefully.

"Can I kiss you?" He asks.

I scrunch my face up. "What?" I laugh. "We go in there. We kiss. You show him how it feels and everyone leaves happy." He offers.

"I don't want him to feel the way he made me feel." I frown. "Thanks anyway though."

"Paris, I never craved attention until I tasted yours." He admits quietly. Xander and Max are talking between themselves, giving us privacy.

"Grayson.." I warn him. "Paris." He replies sternly.

"Come on then." I agree with a sigh. Leading him back inside the room. I see Jameson and Nash arguing and Libby lecturing Avery.

Jameson looks over at us. I kiss Grayson, just a soft and gentle kiss. Jameson tries to step forward towards Grayson but Nash pushes him back with one hand, "You deserved that." Nash smirks.

That night before everyone goes to sleep, I make sure to savour our time. Of course they don't understand that I'm leaving and I don't plan to tell them until I'm gone.

"Yeah well not everyone is lucky enough to inherit 40 billion dollars from a stranger." I reply to Avery's story about me with a smile. A couple people 'ooh' and she scoffs jokingly. "You're just jealous."

I smile. Maybe I shouldn't go. I have to.

"Shit, it's getting late. You've had a long day, we should probably get to bed." Avery says. Despite her and Jameson kissing I show no grudges, we all sit together by the pool as crickets chirp. A perfect last night.

I take a deep breath. "Yeah, i guess." My voice comes out hoarse, "You okay Pear?" Libby asks kindly. I laugh, "Yeah."

I bite my cheek. I make sure to say goodnight to everyone carefully tonight.

When I see Avery I smile, i pull her in for a hug. "I love you. And I don't blame you. Just be happy, even if that means being with him." I tell her.

She smiles, not quite sure why I'm telling her this now.

I hug Libby, "Thank you." I tell her. "For what?" She chuckles. "For everything." And I squeeze her.

"Night guys." I smile as I walk inside. I don't know when I'll be back here again.

(a/n. This chapter pained me to write because I love Jamie. I already know I'll be fighting y'all in these comments as a Jameson girlie. I will be taking no slander for my king. He was emotionally vulnerable. Blame Avery! #Jamesondefenderforlife. Anyway, hope you liked the second last chapter. Also I hate how dramatic this chapter was because she says she's never coming back but we all know she has to for the plot so??... we'll see.)