His metal mask shone in the sunlight, he prayed that this would not be his last day. He had been through so much the last twenty four hours he didn't know if he could change the mistakes he had made, how could he, he had destroyed the only thing his mother had left and at the time he felt like no one could stop him, like he had all the power in the world but now he lay defeated in the snow by a woman, how could he have let her do this, he was stronger than her or so he thought.

She had left him there alone on the blood stained snow and he tried to call out for help but no one answered, why should they for he has lost the trust of even his closest soldiers who were probably close to death or far from but he didn't care, his best soldier even turned on him, or maybe he had turned on what he had created. The darkness he had started attempting to finish his grandfather's work but he had failed, he had tried to bring himself to becoming like his grandfather but he just couldn't do it.

The people that tried to help him get out of the darkness and into the light he had betrayed them as well killed them with his own sword. He was left all alone with no one he could have loved and no one to love him in return.

  He heard a loud engine roaring overhead, he sighed 

maybe he could still have hope, maybe he could change and waste away his life on this torn apart planet. He heard muffled talking coming from the distance he craned his head to see three blurry objects coming towards him. He winced when a hand grabbed his arm, the owner of the hand began to cry, he squeezed his eyes shut, knowing who the cry came from

"oh Ben" she cried out

" don't leave me please you're all I have left" she put her face on his chest and starting weeping.

he felt a pang in his chest and his throat tightened, tears threatening from his own eyes

Her tears drenched his clothes and he couldnt do anything to comfort her, it would be too late for comforting he thought, 

 He heard another voice in the distance mumble out a call to his mother

" we should leave now general he's gone".

He had heard that voice before but he didn't think it could be, could it?

 A large arm tucked underneath his body, the familiar embrace of his father's best friend picking him up like he was a child. It let out a growl deep from its gut and carried him up the stairs of the ship that had flown over pass not too long ago.

" don't worry Ben you'll be fine I promise" it was the scavenger girl,

he stiffened at the sound of his name, kylo ren had killed him, he was weak ,non existent, yet kylo ren was dead as well. so i am destined to be no one he thought

he didn't understand why she would come back to get him after he had almost killed her, he didn't plan on truly killing her, but seemed to have a plan to kill him. She cleaned up his wounds and a few hours later he had awoken.

" general he is awake."The scavenger said sternly. 

" of course thank you Rey" the scavenger girl had walked back into the cabin to drive the ship while the general went to see her son.

"Ben are you ok?"

He hadn't answered back but instead he struggled to take off his helmet revealing a pale face with long black hair, he looked up at her longingly and said

" I am better now that I'm with you."

A.N.
 this is how I imagined the ending of tfa would be if hux didn't come for him, if you enjoyed please don't forget to leave a comment what you thought and please leave a vote ;)
Thanks for reading mah dudes
~ B<3