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the next few days were outright unpalatable for taehyung. the male couldn't concentrate on work nor could he get rid of the events of that night from his head. he should not be so stressed because of that jungkook, but he couldn't help but think about him again and again.

just what he did do for jungkook to act that way? was what he did over the line? but jungkook didn't seem like someone who will be scared of even death, let alone risks. the way his eyes always blazed with excitement whenever he got on his bike cleared that much, so were taehyung's intuition wrong all along?

even if he is wrong and what he did was downright wicked, he shouldn't be feeling like this, like so shitty and guilty. how could taehyung forget what that lad did to him? jungkook fucking sexually assaulted him and made a fool out of him. there shouldn't be any place of sympathy for jungkook, it's just not right.

but here he is, sitting on his work table, massaging his forehead with his long fingers as if it would decrease his stress in any way.

"i haven't talked with namjoon since that night. . . i wonder. . . if he hates me now" the raven head sighed, not knowing how to clean this mess. "it's not my fault fuck. . . why do i feel so bad then?" he muttered to himself, getting flashbacks of jungkook's crying face, the way tears shimmered in his big doe brown eyes, the way his lips trembled as he uttered those confusing words again and again, the way he tried to get away from the raven head- he looked so miserable as if he needed someone to hold him that instant or he will shatter into pieces.

maybe it was jeon jungkook's breakdown that made taehyung feel this way, or maybe he really wanted to hold the lad in his arms and say that he is sorry. to wipe his pretty tears and kiss his forehead- an abrupt stop came to taehyung's thoughts as he widened his eyes and shook his head nonchalantly. what am i thinking. . . fuck that's crazy kim taehyung! get a hold!

after calming down he wondered so many things, "how is he doing right now? is he okay? did i make him traumatized?" taehyung sensed this heavy feeling engulfing his heart, a heart he doesn't care for. but right now, this feeling in his heart made him anxious, of many things. especially of that rotten pea haired lad.

drowned in his own thoughts, taehyung took a second to realize someone was knocking on the door. fixing his collar, clearing his throat and pushing the thoughts aside he told a 'come in'.

taehyung's secretary walked in with files in his hands. placing the files on the table he informed the raven head about his schedules.

"alright, you may go"

"okay sir"

"wait" taehyung paused, glancing at the schedule in his hand. "i have a meeting with joon corp?"

"yes sir. at 4 pm"

taehyung tensed and licked his lips. so namjoon will be here. . . he thought before nodding to the secretary, after he left taehyung plopped against the chair's back, twirling it around with the paper in his hand.

"i need to talk to him"

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taehyung didn't know approaching his childhood friend would be this awkward and toilsome. usually, it would be namjoon who will talk to him first, get him out of his shell, take him to bars and parties, and make him feel at ease. and now when it's the raven head's turn to approach him, he is getting overly agitated.

was talking to him always this hard? taehyung thought as he glanced at namjoon who was showing the project they were discussing about. taehyung couldn't concentrate yet again but the cold look on his face made everyone think the otherwise, although namjoon knew very well taehyung was staring at him and thinking of ways to apologize, but didn't show any interest towards the male.

and once the meeting was done, namjoon decided to leave, not even greeting the raven head before doing so. although taehyung didn't let him as he stood before his way, namjoon pierced his fox like eyes on the raven head which made him nervous and intimated, who wouldn't be? namjoon's glare could kill after all.

"what is it, kim taehyung?" the way the purple haired male uttered his full name made taehyung sad, was he really this mad at him?

"can we talk?"

"yes, you can. go ahead"

"not here. . . uhm in my cabin?"

"taehyung, look" namjoon sighed before stepping closer to the raven head. "i'm not in a mood to talk with you, unless you have anything important to say" namjoon was clear with his words, he always has been and taehyung knows that very well.

putting on a sincere smile taehyung retorted, "i'll not waste much of your time. just five minutes, please?"

the purple haired male looked away and nodded, "okay"

now sitting across each other, taehyung fiddled with his fingers, looking down while doing so.

"so what is it that you want to talk about?"

"i'm sorry"

"sorry? what are you sorry for to me?" namjoon sarcastically chuckled, sipping his tea afterwards.

"i. . . what i did that night. . . i shouldn't have done that. i'm sorry"

"and why are you saying sorry to me for that? do you think i deserve this apology?"

taehyung opened his mouth but closed it right after, licking his lips he thought for an answer. really why was he apologizing to namjoon? when jungkook deserves that apology. but kim taehyung couldn't just sacrifice his self respect and run to jungkook for forgiveness, can he?

"taehyung. . . what you did was repulsive. you know that?"

"but what is so repulsive about pulling a little move? don't bikers do it all the time?! why is it wrong only when i did it?!"

"right. there is no wrong with that. but don't you think, you should have stopped this little move of yours when jungkook started panicking? he fucking begged you to stop, didn't he?"

taehyung stopped breathing for a second, guilt rushing through his adrenaline as he looked away again. that's right. . . he was begging me. . . and he hates begging.

"do you know where he is right now taehyung?" the purple haired male's question brought taehyung to the seat's edge as he shook his head, not having any idea.

"in a hospital. going through therapies and medical check ups"

taehyung almost stood up from his seat as his eyes enlarged and lips parted. "he is in a what?"

"he got panic attacks several times after that incident. he lost his appetite, lost the ability to think straight and talk properly without stuttering in between, got insomnias and cry in his sleep, he got nightmares night after night. you know, what you did to him taehyung? have you any fucking idea?"

taehyung clenched his fists and stared at the purple haired male with concern. "but why? was it really too much for him? isn't he the king of deville? he can't handle that much?!" taehyung justified himself, he can't feel shittier than before when he didn't even know what he did so wrong.

"he can handle over and above that. but you, you triggered his past traumas taehyung. he was reminded of the darkest part of his life because of you. and i know you didn't know about anything, but when he cried, panicked and even begged- you should have stopped. you're not that cruel taehyung, i know you. so why did you go out of your character? why did you crush my trust in you?" namjoon let out sourly, clenching the teacup in his fingers.

taehyung wondered the same thing. he wasn't the one to lose his composure and do something so reckless that he is risking his and other's life too. he was someone people could rely on, someone who could be trusted. he always tried his best to be a good human, to exceed everyone's expectations in a good way so why did he go out of his character as namjoon said?

"he is my best friend and like my young brother taehyung. i watched him growing and i also saw him at his weakest point but he was finally getting better taehyung-ah, he was finally learning to let it go and you- you just ruined it all"

taehyung felt that heavy feeling getting heavier on his heart with each word that the purple haired male uttered. to the point, that it was physically hurting him now. taehyung can't go on like this, he needs to see jungkook.

"can i fix things now? can i hyung?" taehyung muttered with uncertainty.

namjoon stared at the raven head and sighed. "i don't know. i'm not jungkook. you do what you think is for the best. it's now in your hands"

the raven head knew what he needed to do but bringing himself to do it is much harder than it seems. especially when he hates jungkook and doesn't want to face him.

"and taehyung" the said male looked back at namjoon who gave a reliable smile.

"once jungkook forgives you, i'll treat you. by the way he's currently in seoul hospital" that meant namjoon will also forgive him if he is successful in making jungkook forgive him. sounds just about right as taehyung smiled slightly before nodding his head.

"i'll empty your wallet, hyung. be ready"

"best of luck" with that namjoon stood up, patted the raven head's shoulder and left.

taehyung sat there looking nowhere as thoughts plugged his mind once again before a determined look carved his face. "not because of jungkook, but for my own self. i have to do this"

"hey" a male smiles at him, ever so brightly.

taehyung didn't expect that when he reached the hospital.

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the next chapter is gonna be hella interesting ><

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