BONUS CHAPTER ONE
reveries
[anya rose mendes]
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"mommy? daddy?" avery walks up to the door of our bedroom in the suite, carrying her little teddy bear shawn got her in france.

"hey sweetie," shawn says, putting down his leather bound notebook next to him on the bed, as i sit up, looking at avery. "what's up?"

"can i sleep here? noah keeps snoring and i can't sleep," she frowns, her bottom lip quivering.

"hey princess, don't cry," she walks over to shawns side, climbing up onto the bed, as tears slide down her cheeks, and her bottom lip wobbles. shawn pulls her into a hug, making my heart swell with joy, as i watch my daughter and husband. "it's okay hunny, you can sleep here, it's all okay."

"is it okay with mommy?" she whispers to shawn, making me smile.

"it's always okay with me, baby," i say to her, as she crawls out of shawns arms, and straight into mine. "but make sure you get some sleep, we're gonna go on the big wheel tomorrow, and to the aquarium."

"we are?" shawn asks with a laugh, confused at the plans we made.

"your son wants to go to the london eye, and your daughter wants to go to the aquarium," i explain, smiling at him, as avery nestles up to my side, getting under the duvet.

"momma?" another little voice says from the door.

"no!" avery cries, sobbing into my side.

"woah, avery, don't be like that to your brother," i scold, as she lifts her head from my side, weeping gently. "hey, noah, baby, what's wrong?" i say, looking up from avery.

"momma i woke up, i can't sleep," he rubs his eyes, making me smile gently, before patting the space next to shawn. "avewy i'm sowwy." avery sniffles, ignoring noah completely, before turning her back to him, and nudging her head further into my side. noah notices, and his bottom lip begins to quiver, before he lets out a long cry, erupting into sobs himself.

oh god.

"alright avery, come on," shawn finally says, lifting her out of my arms. "we're gonna stay in the other room, okay?"

"no! i want mommy!" she cries, clawing against his shirt. shawn sighs, putting her back down on the bed.

"noah, come on," shawn says, picking him up.

"no! i want momma!" he yells, making me sigh.

"i get mommy!" avery fights back, crawling over to me, before lying her head down on my side.

"guys, you've had me for the past month, what about daddy?" i ask, making shawn chuckle to himself. "and you two, please stop fighting. you got on so well when we were at home, what happened?"

the two of them look away guiltily, their sniffles being silenced. i look up at shawn, who holds a cocky smirk on his face, making me roll my eyes playfully.

"i'm sorry, noah," avery says quietly, hugging her little brother. "you can sleep right next to me!"

"yay!" noah chirps, the two kids giggling, as they squish themselves between shawn and i. i look at shawn, who smiles, rolling his eyes after.

"i love you momma, i love you dada," noah says, tucking his head into my side, as avery cuddles onto shawn, going back to her typical 'i love my dad' mode.

"i love you more!" avery pitches in, making me smile widely.

"and we love you the most," shawn finalises, kissing avery's forehead gently. "goodnight everyone."

"goodnight dada!" the kids chirp, before shutting their eyes, and trying to fall asleep.

"night hun," shawn whispers, looking straight at me. i smile gently, leaning over the kids, and pressing a kiss against his cheek.

"night shawn."
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"dada my feet hurt," avery complains, as we walk around the london eye, heading to the aquarium, as shawn chuckles, crouching down next to her.

"well princess, your throne awaits," he says, tapping his shoulders. she giggles, as shawn lifts her up, placing her onto his shoulders securely, holding onto her legs.

"avewy looks so high up!" noah giggles, as i carry him in my arms. "momma you're short."

"your dads a giant, noah," i laugh, as shawn scoffs, rolling his eyes at me.

"really? but how comes he doesn't live in a beanstalk?" he asks curiously, making me laugh again.

"don't be silly noah, daddy isn't a giant," avery says, her arms around shawns neck. "he's a rockstar!"

"daddy can we go to the studio?" noah asks, as we stroll into the aquarium, the cool air hitting us immediately.

"when we're back home buddy, i promise," shawn says to him, placing avery down on the ground, as i follow by letting noah stand up.

that's one thing about the kids, avery takes after me, preferring the academics over the arts, and noah definitely takes after shawn, enjoying music over everything.

"mommy can we go to the book store when daddy and noah are at the studio?" avery asks me, walking next to me instead, whilst we head to get our tickets.

"of course sweetie, you've finished so many books recently, i'm so proud of you," she grins at me, grabbing onto my hand, dragging me to where shawn and noah are, where shawn is paying for the tickets.

"ms emily says i have a reading age of ten!" she chirps, as i take our tickets from shawn, continuing to walk with avery, who really is the embodiment of me when i was a child.

"my little intelligent girl," i say, lifting her up, as she squeals, giggling loudly. "i love you, baby."

"i love you more mommy!" she says, her canadian accent pushing through. i smile, putting her down, as her and noah run off to the jellyfish, watching them move around with wide eyes.

"finally, some time for us," shawn jokes, wrapping one of his arms around my waist. i roll my eyes playfully at him, resting my head on his shoulder. "you tired, darling?"

"a little," i shrug, looking up at him. "i think the travelling from yesterday is hitting me today more than anything. i had adrenaline to numb that."

"well, you are carrying baby number three," he says, kissing my cheek gently. "anya, i'm so freaking happy. thank you, so much."

"shawn please- noah, don't do that!" i say, rushing over to my children, who are trying to climb into the stingray tank, instead of touching the stingray.

"dada! touch it, it's slimy!" noah giggles to shawn, pointing at a stingray. shawn eagerly shoves his hand into the water, touching the back of one of the rays, pulling his hand out immediately.

"that's so slimy!" shawn agrees, making the two children laugh loudly. "come on kids, let's go scare mommy with the sharks!"

"they're in a tank, they won't scare me," i scoff, following shawn and the kids, who are running about to find some sharks.

"babe, dubai said differently. it swam behind you and you jumped," shawn chuckles, holding onto my hand, and dragging me to the tank where avery and noah have their noses pressed against.

"that was two years ago, shawn, a lot can change," i answer, making him laugh.

"whatever you say, hunny, whatever you say."
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"thank you so much for looking after the kids, karen," i say, as avery holds onto my hand tightly.

"no problem, sweetie, you kids need a night off," she chuckles, looking at shawn and i.

"mum, we aren't kids anymore," he chuckles, securing his arm around my waist. "come on, we have our own kids."

"which is still absolutely crazy, i remember you two when you were 18, and only friends, and when shawn was helplessly-"

"okay mum," shawn cuts her off, making us all chuckle. "don't go back to those times, the friend zone was horrible."

"what's the friend zone?" avery asks us confused, looking up at shawn and i.

"it's when you have a crush on someone but they think of you as a friend," i explain to her, as she nods understandingly, but still quite confused. "anyway, guys," i say, crouching down to avery and noah's heights. "are you gonna be good for grandma?"

"yeah momma," they both say, nodding their heads.

"and you'll make sure that you both go to sleep when grandma says?" shawn says, crouching down next to me.

"yeah dada," they say again, making me smile. "when will you be back?"

"later sweetie, you're staying in grandmas room tonight, and we'll meet you at breakfast in the morning," shawn says, kissing avery's forehead. "you'll be okay."

"okay, i love you," she mumbles, shuffling into shawns arms.

"i love you too, princess, be good, and look after your brother," he tells her, kissing her head once more. "why don't you go show grandpa your new colours?" he suggests, as avery suddenly looks more excited, taking her little backpack inside the hotel room, running inside.

"bye momma, bye dada," noah says, quickly hugging shawn and i, before following avery inside, making shawn and i chuckle softly.

"relax tonight, you guys need it," karen says, hugging me, and then shawn. "see you tomorrow morning."

"bye mum," shawn says, holding onto my hand, as i quickly say a goodbye to karen, before shawn and i head to the lobby.

as soon as we leave the hotel, we're greeted by fans who came from around the world just to see his final stadium show of this tour, which is absolutely incredible if you ask me.

"i'll be a few seconds," shawn tells me, kissing my cheek gently. i nod, standing near the entrance of the hotel, waiting for shawn to finish up with the fans.

"hey anya," a girl says to me, walking over to me.

"oh, hi!" i say, greeting her with a hug, since she first offered her arms to me.

"how are you? how are the kids?"

"they're great, and i'm good too, thank you," i smile. "what about you?"

"good! yeah, i know this is a little awkward, but i saw you, and you looked kind of lonely, so hey," she laughs, making me chuckle. "anyway, you and shawn probably want to get going, so i'm gonna go, but hope you enjoy your evening!"

"thank you so much, you too," i say to her, giving her a hug once more, as she quickly leaves. shawn slowly walks up to me as soon as the girl leaves, placing his hands on my waist.

"shall we go, my love?" he asks, sending me a smile. i nod, sending him back a grin, and pressing a kiss to the side of his lips.

"where are we going?"

"that, my darling, is a surprise," he tells me, holding onto my hand, and leading me to a taxi.

"shawn you know i hate surprises," i complain, making him chuckle gently, as he opens up the door for me, letting me get into the car.

"you'll love this one, i promise," he says, bringing my hand up to his lips, and kissing it softly.

"i miss noah and avery," i say randomly, looking out of the window as we drive along the streets of london.

"so do i, hunny," shawn says, squeezing my hand gently, our joint hands resting over my lap.

"did avery and noah tell you about the names they have for the baby?" i ask, a small laugh leaving my lips.

"no? what have they got planned?" he responds, a smile on his lips.

"they said rose for a girl, and either peter or raul for a boy," i say gently. "they want the baby to be named after us."

"i love them so much," shawn says, squeezing my hand softly. "we should do that, you know."

"yeah, we should," i nod. "shawn?"

"yeah hun?" he asks me, a lazy smile on his lips.

"i know what i want to get avery for her birthday," i say softly, looking up at him. "i wanna take her to malibu."

"to malibu? hunny we've been there so many times with her," he says, squeezing my hand. "why malibu?"

"you remember our first breakup? when we had that first fight, and after we bought your suit for the wedding, we went to that writing shop?" he nods, his face holding a slight emotion of guilt. "remember when you bought me that notebook? the leather one, the one with my initials on it?"

"your diary?"

"i want to get avery her first writing set, one with an ink pen and everything," i say to him gently. "i got my first one when i turned five, and i want to get one for her for her fifth birthday."

"okay," he says, nodding. "we'll go to malibu for her birthday."

"but i don't know because it's your birthday too and-"

"shh," he says quietly, as the car comes to a stop. "it's only her birthday that matters now, and it has done for the past four years. as long as i see a smile on her face, i'll be more than happy," i lean up, pressing my lips to his briefly, before he pulls away. "now come on, our reservation awaits."

he leads me out of the car, revealing an oh so familiar street, and an oh so familiar entrance.

"shawn," i say, a grin appearing over my face, as i look up, seeing the shard. "our first date?"

"i know we can't have that 5 grand bottle of champagne, but i still think we can have a good time and recreate our first date?"

"i love you," i say, cupping his cheeks, and kissing him once more.

"and i love you."
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