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they hassle me;

i see pictures and magazines

and I say to myself:

"why can't I be like them please?"

i'm never pleasing, i'm never enough

this is something i always have to confront.

they always tell me:

"your too tall",

"why are you so skinny, eat it all."

but in these comments, i fall.

i fall and fall,

and i fall all the time;

because your comments made me feel like i was hated,

and wasn't doing alright.

before i used to be the opposite;

i couldn't fit my hands around my waist;

and i didn't have a gap between my legs.

i kept my stomach empty till I was hungry;

and now that i've changed,

i'm still a mess?

am i not good enough for you?

am i not beautiful enough for you?

whether the answer is a no or a yes,

i, no longer care.

i want to be happy, don't i deserve it?

i mean, happiness simply beats the pressure to be perfect.

a/n: dedicated to all those out there who never feel enough, who are constantly being threatened by their body.
-you are beautiful, and you deserve to be happy.