The mind was off after Laksh guided me back to the bedroom and ordered me to sit down. I tried to control myself but I was about to burst in loud laughter. I saw a man in a XL pyjama and was here strict to me. 

"Hey Ragini take the water, drink it please and stop staring at me." He was rolling his eyes and I bursted out in laughter 
"I am so sorry Laksh, gosh..."
I kept laughing while I spilled the water on the ground. 
"Oh no!" 
I continued laughing while Laksh rolled his eyes and went to the bathroom. 

He came back with tissue paper to wipe away the water. He looked up at me and grinned at me. "Do I look so good in that pyjama?!" 
I nodded and looked in these hazelnut brown eyes and lord I could float in these eyes. His eyes were the keys to his world. 
I touched my head and felt the headache. 
I drank to much. 
I had some flashes of last night. 
The rain. 
Laksh. 

"Laksh, what did I tell you last night." 
He looked up to me and I could feel that the atmosphere inside the room was changing. He got up. "Let me just change my clothes Ragini. Give me few minutes." 

All the while I was thinking what I could have told him. 
Did I tell him everything? I could remember that I was outside. I had my wine in the hand. But what did I tell him. 

"Laksh... He is back..."

I had flashes where I remembered few things. I tried to concentrate more and my face twisted from thinking. I had small fragments of our conversation in my mind. I kept thinking while I just heard the same sentences.

"I cannot loose you as well Laksh. I cannot bear another loose."

He came out of the bathroom and looked at me with a concerned face. "Laksh, what did I tell you last night. Just I need to be sure that I ... uhm." 
"You told me everything."

I stopped playing with my fingers and looked up to the man wo was back in normal clothes looking at me with a face that I could not describe. I was looking at the man who was looking at me without showing any of his emotions. What should I think of it all. What was he thinking of me? What exactly did I tell him? What does everything mean?  I felt the heat inside me and I knew that I got nervous infront him. He felt the nervousness of me. He still didn't say anything. He was waiting for my words. 

"Laksh... What did I tell you? I mean I don't know..." I touched my head and was trying to complete the sentence.
"Ragini. You told me about your past."
I got up and and was trying to be calm but I couldn't. He felt that.
"Relax." 
"How can I?! I told you everything? Tell me what exactly!"

He touched his face as well and tried to compose himself. 
"Okay ehm... Your parents and your small brother were killed infront of your eyes. You are seeking revenge for that killer." 
"Shit!" 
"Relax Ragini. I am with you. I will be right behind you in every single move of yours."
I was laughing in nervousness and couldn't believe from myself that I told him everything. I told him about my past that I never shared before to anyone. Not even Geetha who is with me for over 3 years. 
"Ragini you can trust me I am with you in this fight." 
"How could I believe you?"
"Weren't you trusting me till today? I mean you insisted that I should sleep here with your damn XL Pyjama?"
"Wow..."
You did well Ragini not bad.

I avoided listening to my inner voice and concentrated on the current situation in front me. Laksh went to the window and looked outside while I was just kept looking at him. I was waiting for his voice or some action but there was anything. I got up and went to him standing right behind him looking outside the window where the city was already in a rush. Loud voices, quick moves and the sun shining on this day with a clear view without any cloud. I was standing close to him and was just taking slowly the breath. In and out. Slowly and steadly. I closed my eyes and was ready to speak with clear mind and not with the help of the alcohol. I trusted him and I wanted him to show that. He knew about the past. He knew something about me aswell. 

I touched his shoulder and felt the heaviness on my head that I just placed my head on his strong shoulder. He twitched lightly and kept the position. His head turned the left side where I placed my head. I knew my heart was opening slowly towards him and my brain was screaming not to do it. What should i do? My heart was winning the game and I couldn't help but follow my heart. I felt that my heart was doing the right thing. I trusted my heart. 

I had small butterflies in my stomach flying around and giving me new feelings. It felt so good and so right. I felt right that he was with me right now. He was my medicine. He was my answers to all my questions. He was the key to my light. 

"I am sorry." I opened my eyes and just felt the vibration of his voice and it felt so good. A soft rythm that made me calm. 
"For what."
"Just for everything."
His voice was calm and strong yet so caring. I smiled softly and nodded ligthly. 
"But for what everything?"
"You know... The pain, your loss, like everything. I cannot imagine it. Just if that happened to me... I cannot imagine it. It just feels so dark." 
His voice was low and shaky but tried to be all steady. 
I let out a soft laughter and nodded. 
"I cannot believe it that I am in the middle of it. Quite surreal but hey here I am." 
"Such a boss lady you are. So strong."
"Yet so broken..."

He turned around and hold my chin softly and draw my chin bones. 
"I will help you to bring back all the pieces. I cannot bring your family back but I will make sure that you will never be alone. I will make sure that you will have a family."
He made a pause and smiled lightly while closing the eyes. He opened the eyes and looked at me. His eyes were sparkling like bright star. 

"The very first time I saw you was quite strange... as if I always knew you. Magical, curious, different from everybody else, calm but fierce as well. A complete package." He was smiling widely and was just nodding in thoughts. 
"You are different and I felt it at the very first beginning. Everytime I saw you and had to talk I knew I had a boss lady infront of me." He looked directly into my eyes and hold my hand. "The more and more I felt connected to you and you know what you actually got me."
He looked at me and had a genuine smile. I felt that something was coming...

Hey people! 
After a few weeks of waiting we actually reached the 25 stars. Thank you!
So with that I will continue with the target. 
The target is the same 25 stars
I hope to see you soon and take care of yourself, your familiy and people around you. 
Much love