" What can I do? Where can I go? Who can I find? " Rosalia mumbles when laying on the white bed. 

With a closer look, her eyes are swollen and filled with red capillaries. Traces of tears can be found on her pure face.

She looks to the outside through the large window. She can see some branches of trees since her room is in the third floor. She gets up and opens the window. 

It is already in autumn. Chilly wind rattles some dead leaves that still clung to the branches of the trees. Then, the leaves cannot withstand and are blown to the ground. 

Rosalia gazes at the dead leaves dancing on the ground. She smiles levelly. " Maybe my life will just like the fate of those leaves... " She murmurs when looking up to see the sky which is covered with gray cloud.

She still remembers, when she was a little girl, her mom and dad always brought her to the the amusement park to enjoy a joyful weekend. Dad would take her to play the roller coaster, which was too frightening for mom. Mom would buy a large ice-cream and wait for them. Sometimes, mom would buy her a pretty doll. She loved it so much and hugged it when sleeping.

Rosalia opens the door of the room and walks to the corridor. Instead of lifts, she chooses to climb up the stairs.

She still remembers the first day when she entered the high school. She bumped into a beautiful girl, Isabelle. She helped Rosalia to get up. Then, they started to chat and became best friends. Isabelle always helped Rosalia when she was bullied by the others. And they always went shopping together during weekends.

Rosalia comes panting up the stairs. After 10 minutes, she finally walks to the 20th floor, which is the rooftop of the hospital. After opening the heavy door and walking outside, a strong sudden wind blows. Rosalia walks with a stagger when gripping her thin jacket.

The memory of her first kiss is flashed back in her mind. In that warm spring, the weather was so suitable for picnic. She and her first boyfriend, Alex, sat on the grass and looked at the blue sky which was no cloud. Suddenly, Alex wrapped his arms around the small body of her. He smiled brightly when he put his palm on her pink cheek. Before she could respond, his lip softly blushed her lip. It was a sweet kiss at first. She soon kissed him back so that their lips could press against each other fully. They were enjoying that passionate kiss. Their warm breath tickled each other's cheeks and hearts. 

Rosalia slowly walks to the edge. She looks down. She can see the small spots of people strolling. She flinches a little bit after watching this scary scene. After calming down herself, she takes a step and climbs across the iron railing. She sits on it and looks down again. She finds that sweat is formed in her both hands. 

Her long gold curly hair is flowing in the wind. She tucks a strand of her gold hair behind her ear. Then, she stares at the buildings in front of her and the cloudy sky. Small water droplets drop on her nose tip. It's drizzling.

" Bye! " She mumbles in a soft and weak voice.

Her hands, which are holding the iron railing tightly, start relaxing. The grip is loosened. Her upper body slowly moves forwards. She slowly closes her eyes after looking at this world once last time. She tries to force a smile since she wants to leave this world with a peaceful smile. Where will she go after jumping out from the rooftop? She does not know. She only knows that, she will leave this sorrowful and cold world.

Without her expectation, she feels a grip on her shoulder. A arm wraps around her waist suddenly. She is pulled back to the rooftop and is put on the ground.

She turns around and stares at the young man who saves her with a pair of widened eyes.

" Who are you? Why do you save me? Please let me die! " She shouts with agitation.

" Do you really think that death can solve every problems? Although I don't know what your problem is, I will never let you just go and die! " The man scolds at her with fury.

" No one cares me! Why should I continue to live in this world? Death is the best choice for me! " She roars when tears are formed at the corners of her eyes.

" Who said that! If I don't care you, why should I save you from death?! " The man says when striding to her. He lifts up her body in bridal style in a sudden. 

" I will bring you back to your room. Anyway, my name is Frederick Sterling. I am a volunteer here for the social works. You can talk to me if you want. " He says soothingly.

Rosalia feels something warm in her heart. She gazes at him and starts to investigate his appearance with a close look. He has middle-length brown straight hair. He has a pair of charming eyes. However, she seems to notice some sorrow and loneliness in his bright eyes. His skin looks so soft and smooth. In a whole, he is a handsome guy.

He holds her in his warm arms and walks down the stairs. After reaching her room, he puts her on the bed softly. 

" I have to go now. If you want to find me, you can ask the nurse. " He says before turning around and leaving the room.

" Wait! I am Rosalia. Nice to meet you. However, I don't know whether I should say thank you to you. " She says when staring at him.

Frederick smiles at her. He pats on her head, and then he leaves.

Rosalia lays back and curls her body on the bed. She can still feel the warmth from the Frederick's arms on her back. She cannot control herself and gives a warm smile.