At that moment...

   I felt drunk...

Now I feel like puking.No, I literally mean it when I say puking. I feel the bile in my throat coming up as I lunge to the bathroom.

I can hear some distinct shouts which includes my name. I kick the bathroom door and you guessed it, I puked.

In any other situation, when she pats my back I would have loved it. But, this was not one of them, This would be the worst. I can't even see my insides, how can SHE.but she was there, mumbling incoherent things by my side comforting me.

After, I finished puking. I rinse my mouth with water way too many times. I look behind and she was not there, probably couldn't handle it. Then again, she shows me wrong once more by walking through the same door I just kicked recently with a towel and bottle in her hand.

I mumble a quick thank you as I gulp down the water, splash my face in the sink and rub my face with the towel. She gave me a few mints and I popped them in, I quietly led the way out of the restroom and to the terrace with the beautiful view.It was silent for a while until she decided to break it.

"It's been a long time Ryan".she says reminiscing the past.

I find myself wanting to cry just by saying those words to her. "Yeah, it has been a while since we have seen each other since you abruptly left me and the others dumbfounded when you ran away".

"You know, I didn't mean to do that.it was just all too much for me, with you"

"With us".I interject

"With us, and my family, the accident, I just wanted to end it all".She speaks as if she is guilty.

"Ashley, this doesn't make sense. That doesn't mean you can run away from your problems, run away from me. I could have helped you, I could have taken it all off your shoulders". I speak my true feelings.

"I didn't want to be a burden"

"You never were a burden to me, you were..something so precious that I would give my life for you"

"The only thing I felt was total betrayal when they said that you weren't to be located. But I searched everywhere for you, thinking that you were hiding due to fear".I can see her trying not to cry, biting her lip.

"But, the past is in the past. I can't do anything about it".I let out a bitter chuckle.

"If I could, I would change it all Ryan, I would".She is smiling even though she is devastated inside.

"I know." There is nothing that prevents me from stating that if given the choice, she would go with it.

"I was hoping maybe we could start from scratch".

"Thank god, I thought you'd never ask".We both chuckle.

"I would like that, yes".

She clasps my arms and she says, "Consider this a formal invitation to enjoy our evening.". She holds her gaze on my eyes until I drag her from the terrace. And we skip down the stairs to the hall.

Now the night might have not been perfect, but I found someone that I lost, something that I have lost hope over.

This could probably be the best thing that could happen in the whole year. I am determined to have a life, to get committed, to not be the miserable youngman working 24/7 without getting laid. I want to come home to my girlfriend. I want to do all these every day.

I feel like this could be a new start...

AUTHORS NOTE:

 Poor  Ryan, daydreaming about having a relationship with Ashley. only if he knew.

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