"Dec 3x, xx

On Christmas day, when the world was still celebrating the birth of Jesus, I am slowly planning my "future" with Yoongi. I have decided to encroach in his personal space. I started to clean up the house and stocked up the pantry as well as the fridge with more groceries. I do not know how long I could be with him, but I want to make sure every minute I am here, I will ensure he is well taken care. If it is not for love, at least it is the repayment for his heroic act.

I have introduced a little color into this gloomy abode, hopefully Yoongi would not find it's offensive. I cleaned up his room and organized his closet. Yes, I was that brave or more like on a "suicidal" mission to complete that "project". At that point, I did not care whether he would get upset, because, if he does, I would get some reaction from him instead of the silence treatment. Surprisingly, Yoongi did not show any anger toward me for invading his personal space. Even more strangely, he comes home more often and even eats the food I cook. I am really happy that he slowly accepts my gestures, even though he still barely says anything to me and still shuts his bedroom door in front of me."

Yoongi smirked, "this silly girl!" Little did she knew that he was touched by the way she took care of him. None of the women he dated would take care of him like she did, in silence, without asking for anthing in return, not even expected his affection. She was quietly in her own way slowly invaded his personal space and walked into his heart. Yoongi was not used to that kind of treatment; hence, he did not how to react but tried hard to not show any emotions around Mina. He loved her cooking, it was amazing. Thanked to her, he didn't have to eat take-outs or instant noodles anymore, and did not have to swing by Jin's place to beg for homemade food. Yoongi regretted so much right now that he took her goodness for granted. He missed her so much right at this moment. He really wished that he could hug Mina and tell her that he really appreciated everything she did for him and she has captured his heart. Tears slowly rolled down from Yoongi's eyes as he kept reading.

"Feb 1x, xx

I haven't written much lately, because, every day is very repetitive for me, wake up to make breakfast for Yoongi when he decides to come home to sleep, clean up the house, do the laundry, grocery shopping, make meals for him, water the plants, watch TV while waiting for Yoongi. Eun-jung keeps telling me that I am depleting my youth and wasting my future on a man that does not deserve it. She could never understand that, to me, Yoongi is my everything. For him, I willingly turned down the scholarship to graduate school in LA and put my career, my education aside. Stupid? Yes, I am an idiot who is willing to sacrifice anything for his love.

Valentine's is only couple days away. I anxiously wait for our first valentine's day together. I again prepared another present for Yoongi, another knit hat, but I actually made it myself. I have secretly knitted a little pink heart pattern behind the fold of the gray hat to declare my love for him, wonder if he ever finds out."

"Feb 14, xx

It is Valentine's Day and Yoongi is nowhere to be found. I wanted to dial his number and question him of his whereabouts, but I couldn't. I am so pathetic, am i? What kind of wife that does not have the right to question her husband's location and throw a tandrum when her husband forgets about V-day.

The food I made was getting cold and the candles were all burnt out, just like my hope for tonight. I stared at the door praying that he would walk thru it. I cannot cry anymore, i am tired and my eyes are swollen from all the tears. Retreated back to my lonely bedroom, i quietly wished him a happy Valentine's Day. Even if he doesn't spend it with me, I still wish him the best, because to love someone is to see that person happy."

Yoongi's heart ached so much as he read every line Mina wrote. He cursed himself for being such a bastard toward her love. That Valentine's Day, he locked himself in the Genius Lab to complete more songs. He did not think much about days like these, because all of his exes, including Tina, were in the entertainment world, so they were usually busy on holidays. He realized that Mina suspected him of adultery during their whole marriage, but she kept silence and endured the pain on her own, instead of confronting him for the truth or answer. Yoongi admitted that he was not a good husband, but never once cheated on Mina. He cut off all communication with Tina after agreed to the marriage. "Mina, only if I could assure you that I have ever once cheated on you," he whispered.