Could not flip through another page of Mi Na's diary since Yoongi could not contain his emotion, he quickly asked Mi Na parents to excuse him to leave with it. As soon as he got home, he went into the room where she used to stay. This was the first time that he stepped in there. He locked himself in, laid on her bed, and reminisced the time she was still here. He felt contrite about his cold treatment toward her, felt apologetic for not reciprocated her effection, and felt sorry for realizing his feeling too late.

Yoongi hugged Mi Na's pillow tightly, burried his face in it, hoping her scent would still linger. He missed her. Yes, he was extremely missing her. He cried. He wished he could turn back time. He would give her everything he could, because she deserved it. Mi Na was so wonderful, so beautiful, and wholeheartedly loved him, yet he gave her nothing in return, but heartache, sorrow, and tears.
"I'm sorry, Mi na!" -- Yoongi whispered - "A bastard like me doesnt deserve you, but I was lucky enough to have you. I was an idiot for not treasuring you. If I could have another chance with you, I swear I will make you the happiest girl in the world. I wish we could meet again next life so I could use my whole life repaying your love for me in this life." Yoongi sobbed as he whispered her name over and over.

After a few days without being able to contact Yoongi, Jungkook dragged all his hyungs to go check on him. They cracked the door code and searched the house until they found him locked inside Mi Na's room. They broke the door to find him bundled up on her bed. The smell of alcohol and sweat reeked so badly that they had to hold their breath while dragging him out of there. Jin rushed everyone to take him to the hospital, because his condition did not look too good. Jin worried that he might experience acute pancreatitis again.

Fortunate for Yoongi, his buddies found him before things got serious. He only experienced malnourishment from abstaining from food for too many days. He only needed to be hospitalized for few days for TPN treatments. All his buddies took turn to console him as well as counsel him to take care of himself and to not do anything crazy or stupid.

"Even if you do the unthinkable now, Mi Na would not return, yet she will not rest in peace knowing you are living like this." - said Nam Joon.

"You need to live happily for her. She always wanted the best for you, so you need to show her that you are living your best." - Jin followed.

"Exactly, Yoongki kah! She is not around but she is living in here," - Jhope pointed his finger at Yoongi"s heart - "so she wants it to beat happily, understand?"

"Hyung, please don't be like this. I'm worried about you, everyone is worried about you. Please regain your strength and continue moving on, heh?" - Jimin chimed in.

"Hyung, you can share your pain with us. We will be with you to get through this tough time. Please don't disappear in some dark corner and lick your wound alone. You have us so please let us share this with you." - Taehyung spoke with tears.

"Hyung, please don't shun us from helping you throug this hard time." - Jungkook cried - "Hyung-su-nim consoled in me once that she wanted to give you the best of everything and she did not need aything in return, seeing you happy and healthy satisfied her. Please be strong and fullfil her wish, ok?"

Seeing all his brothers in tears and full of worries, Yoongi made a decision to put his life back together. He wanted Mi Na to witness him trying to live up to her expectation, happy and healthy, and he wanted ease the minds of those whom are close to him.