Since that day, Big always asked me to go out with him and I will always refused. But he didn't gave up. He kept asking until one day I agreed to go out with him. It's because I'm too lazy to give him excuses anymore.

Almost three months Big and I known each other, he suddenly asked me to be his boyfriend and told me that he really like me. Of course I didn't accept him right away.

"Can you give me some times to think?"

"Take your time. I'll wait."

I am still not ready to be in a relationship yet. Yes. Months passed but I'm still couldn't open my heart for someone else. Big is a good guy. For the pass three months I know him, he isn't the type of person that likes to force someone or doing bad things. He's a sweet guy. Funny.

The problem is me.

One day he took me out for dinner. All is good not until he suddenly gave me a bouquet of red roses. My mood suddenly down. I don't know why the roses really got me angry. I hate seeing them. Maybe because Pol used to give them alot to me. I yelled at Big and threw the roses Infront of him.

"If you really don't want me to be your boyfriend, it's okay! But can you please don't embarrass me Infront of the public?", Big said. I can see how hurt he was.

I didn't said anything and leave him there. Since that day, he never called or texted me anymore. I was waiting for one but it never happened. I have a thought to text him first but I don't have the guts.

Did he really angry with me? Gosh! I shouldn't mad at him at the first place.

I was resting at the sofa in the living room. Tay come and talked to me.

"Arm. I met Big yesterday."

My heart suddenly beating fast when I heard his name. Why I am suddenly nervous?

"So?"

I show no interest but my heart really want to hear about him. Tay was getting ready because Time wanted to take him out.

"I may be coming home late or not coming  at all. I'll inform you if I'm staying at Time's room tonight."

I just nodded. Tay head out as he said Time already waiting for him downstairs.

Suddenly my phone buzzed.

'Hye Arm. Tay told me everything. I know why you don't like roses. I understand. I'm sorry na.'

'It's okay. It's my fault anyway.'

'Are you free right now? Can I see you? At your place would do.'

I agreed. Big told me he will be arrive in 10 minutes. I wait for him downstairs. After few minutes of waiting I saw his car coming and stop right Infront of me. He come out from the car with a warm smile on his face.

"How are you?", the first thing he asked.

"I'm okay."

"Good."

Silent. It's been a long time since we haven't met and it feels awkward.

"I'm sorry..." We're both said the same thing together. Both of us looked at each other.

Chuckled.

"Arm."

"Huh?"

"I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too. I know I shouldn't be mad at you. It's not your fault anyway. You clearly didn't know anything."

Big nodded. He smiled at me. This guy. Doesn't he have any problems in his life? Always smiling.

"Arm. I know you still can't forget Pol. It's the reason why you still couldn't accept me, right?"

I take a deep breath and nodded.

"I understand. But I will wait na. I really like you. Actually, there's something I need for you to help me. I know this is so sudden but I really need your help."

I frowned. "What is it?"

"Can you come back with me to my hometown this weekend? We'll be staying there just for two days."

"Huh?"

"Actually, my parents want me to take my girlfriend to see them. They said if I didn't bring one, they'll find one for me and get engaged. I told them I already have one. That's why I want you to help me."

"Are you crazy? I'm a man. How do you expect your parents to accept me? I mean.. even we're just faking it."

"No worries. My parents are open minded."

"Are you sure?"

"My big brother just got married to a man last year."

My mouth were almost wide open. For real?

"So.. will you come with me?"

I think for a while. I look at Big face. He really hope that I will agree. Gosh. Fine!

I nodded.

"Really? Thank you!", He said and suddenly hug me.

I was shocked but just laughed with his behaviour.

"We might will share the room but I promise I will not do anything.", He said after letting go the hug.

"Okay."

The said day come. In the car, Big told me what to say to his parents. I was nervous. What if I said wrong to his parents? We will be exposed for sure. Big is kinda aware that I'm worried. He hold my hand and said everything's will be okay.

We arrive at Big's house. His parents already waiting for us at the front door. His mom immediately rush to me and hugs me. I glanced at Big who's busy unload our luggage from the car.

"Sawatdee krub mae, phor.", I wai at his parents.

"Wadee. You're good looking and cute just like in the picture."

Picture? What picture? I looked at Big. He was about to laughed when he heard his mom saying. I lift my eyebrows to him. He grinned and show me the picture that his mom talked about. My eyes widen. He really keep my picture in his bedroom.

"Since when did you took this picture of me?"

"Erm.. when you were angry and upset the long time ago. When we were just know each other."

"You..! I look ugly."

Big take the picture from my hand. He smiled.

"You look cute na."

I rolled my eyes.

"Shut up!"

He laughed. "This is my favourite picture of yours. Only me who have this one. Not even you."

I shook my head. "Whatever! Im going to take shower now."

"Alright. Let's go."

"To where?"

"Shower?"

"Crazy! I said me. Not us."

Big laughed even hard. "Kidding. Go now. I'll go outside to see what my mom and dad are doing."

Big step out from the room. After taking shower I stepped out from the bathroom with only a towel covering my lower body. I starts to chose some clothes from my luggage to wear.

I still haven't wear my clothes when suddenly Big came in. I was shocked at first but didn't care much after that.

"Sorry. I didn't know you're done taking shower."

"It's okay." I said. I was quite nervous when Big's eyes keep looking at my half naked body.

"Sorry. I forgot my phone.", Big said and immediately take his phone on the table besides the bed before quickly leave the room.

I touched my chest. Damn it. I thought it was going to explode.

Calm down, Arm. Calm down. 

Suddenly I heard a message notification from my phone. It's from Big.

'Nice body. Can I hug you while we sleep tonight?"

'Crazy! I'll kick you in the face.'

'HAHAHA'

I didn't realize that I was smiling while replying to his message. I know he was  just teasing me. He promised me that he will not do anything to me.

Later at night, after dinner I was resting in Big's room. I wanted to help Big's mom cleaning the dining table after dinner but she didn't allow me. She said that I must feel tired all the way from Bangkok to here.

The door was knocked from outside. When I told to come in the door opened and Big came in. He was just wearing a sleeveless shirt and a short.

"Haven't sleep yet?", Big asked.

I shook my head. Big lay besides me on the bed. He looked at me and smiled. He slowly put his hand on my head and slowly caressed my head.

"You must be tired."

"A little."

He smiled again. "Thank you for today na."

I just looked at him. Our eyes locked. His sharp gaze which looked at me deep into my eyes had my heart racing. Big's hand start to fall on my face. His thumb slowly touching my lips. What will he do?

"Now sleep. We're going to my aunt's house tomorrow. My cousin is getting married.", He said. He pulled the comforter up to his waist and lay down with his back facing me.

I was stunned. I thought he will do something more. Gosh! was I expecting too much? I realize my fool thoughts and cover my own face with embarrassment.

Shia, Arm!

Two days passed and we're back in Bangkok. I go to work as usual and start living my life as before. Big didn't come to see me as often as he used to because he's busy with his exam preparation. But sometimes he will call or text me to ask if I'm doing alright. Most of the days, Big will always send food to me by ordering it online. I told him not to do do that but he didn't listen. Actually I feel touched when he did all those things to keep me reminds of him.

I couldn't deny that I started to have feelings for him.

"Excuse me. How much is this book cost?"

I was arranging the books at the shelves when suddenly someone is asking about the book cost. I turn to see the person is standing few steps away from me while leaning on the book shelf.

"Big!"

"Hello teerak.", He smiled and walked closer to me.

"Why are you here?", I asked. I was stunned when suddenly he pulled me in his embrace.

"I miss you."

Me too.

"Didn't you said you're busy?", I said and slowly pushed him to let me go from his hug.

"I have some free time. Come to see you because I miss you."

I couldn't help but to smile. Big caressed my head.

"Did you take care of yourself well? You look thin. Did you lose weight? Didn't you eat well?"

I rolled my eyes. "How could I lose weight when you constantly send delicious food to me everyday? It's you! Did you take care of yourself well?"

Big pouted. "I'm not."

"Why? What's wrong?"

"I'm not feeling well because I couldn't see your face for almost a week. Kiss me here and I will be fine.", He said and smiled teasingly while pointing at his cheek.

"Silly! No."

Big grinned. "Is your work shift almost over? Let's have dinner when you're done."

"I will be done in 30 minutes. Can you wait?"

"I've been waiting for you since months ago. Another 30 minutes won't kill me."

"Crazy!"

"I'll wait you in the car okay."

"Er."

After my work shift was over, Big took me to a restaurant for dinner. He told me that he will be busy for exam week and might not be able to see me for the time being. I wished him good luck for his examination week. After dinner he send me home.

"Good night na.", He said. I smiled and nodded.

"Don't drive too fast."

"I know."

But even after a few seconds I was still in his car. Not giving any signs of leaving. Big frowned looking at me.

"Something's wrong?", He asked.

I looked at him. As usual he will always smiling. Know something is bothering me.

"Just say it. I will listen."

I took a deep breath before start talking. "Big. I know you've been waiting for my answer for so long now and I don't want you to wait anymore."

Big smiles slowly fading away. His eyebrows almost knotted. "What do you mean? You're not telling me to stop waiting for you to accept me, don't you?"

"I just don't want you to keep waiting anymore. I don't want to feel guilty by letting you stuck in this unclear relationship."

"Arm. I don't care! I'm not stopping."

"Listen, Big.", I hold his hands.

"What I'm going to say is... let's date."

Big stunned. His eyes widen when he heard what I just said.

"Why? You don't want? Alright.", I pretend to open the car door and suddenly Big pulled me into his hugs.

"I didn't heard it wrong right? You really want to be my boyfriend right? Right?", Big said. I could hear his trembling voice near my ear. I smiled.

"I said it clear."

Big tighten his hugs. Slowly I put my arms around him too. His warm hugs makes my heart beats faster than usual.

"Thank you na. I know you will accept me."

"I love you."

"I love you too."

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I'll update as much as I can since I might be busy with classes after this. Might not be able to update often tho but I will try to update every week. Thank you for your support. Rak thuk khon mak mak na❤️