Arm's POV

It's been months since Pol and I are dating. A lot of things happen. We're just like the regular couples out there. Take care of each other. Being sweet to each other. Arguing and then make up. But most of the times, Pol is the one who will take care of me, shows alot of affections, sweetness and he's the one who will come to make up with me if we argued.

Pol will always come and gives flowers to me. Last time it was his birthday but he he is the one who gave me red roses as gift. I don't really like flowers and told him about it but he always ignore and kept giving them to me. As time passed by, I get used to it.

He once took me to meet his parents. I was nervous and refused at first but he tried to calm me and said that his parents are open minded. I agreed and surprisingly his parents welcome me with a warm hugs. They asked me about my background. My family and why I didn't go to university. I was touched when they said they're willing to pay for my fees if I want to continue my study. But I refused.

Did I mentioned that they're hella rich? They're one of the richest family in Thailand and owns one of the biggest company in here too. It makes me quite nervous and felt I don't deserves Pol. I come from a poor family meanwhile Pol  is a heir of his family business. But as usual Pol comfort me that he doesn't care how or poor I am. All he care is his feelings for me and he know I'm a good person.

But, it didn't last long. Everything's suddenly change when I came back to my hometown. My little brother called that my mother was in a bad condition and I have to get back there quickly. I told Pol about it. He came back with me. Skipped all his classes and basketball training.

We made it on time but my mother couldn't made it anymore. Yeah, she died. I was so sad but i tried not to cry as I have to be strong for my brother. The funeral ceremony was settled with the help of Pol parents. Pol suddenly get an urgent call and said he have to go back to Bangkok immediately. I couldn't come along. I still have to take care of some things and of course I couldn't left my brother alone in the time like this.

Pol went back. Almost three weeks I stayed there, Pol never contacted me. Not even a single messages. I never called him too but I messaged him once.

'Pol. Where are you?'

'Pol. Are you alright?'

'Busy? Message me back if you're free.'

'Have you eaten?'

'Don't forget to eat na.'

'Good night na.'

A month passed and he never messaged or reply to me even once. I was confused. I tried to call his friends but no one saw him. My last chance is Pete, his bestfriend.

"Have you saw Pol? Or heard anything from him?"

"I'm sorry, Arm. He never contacted me. The lecture said he drop university."

I come back to Bangkok and start working again. Time passed and he never come to see me. I always waited for him but he never appeared. I asked Porchay about him but he didn't know either.

I almost give. I don't know who to contact anymore. I tried to call his number but couldn't be reached. Not until one day during my off day, Tay and I hang out at the mall. There, I saw him going out with a girl at the mall. No. I ran into them. I was shocked but he looks calm. I tried to be positive.

"I'm sorry, Arm. Let's break up. I'm getting married. This is my fiance."

"Congratulations."

I didn't wait any longer. I leave immediately. I didn't know what Tay said to Pol. But I saw Tay punch him in the face. I also heard Tay said something.

"Don't you dare come back to my friend! Or else I will kill you with my own hands!"

In two months. I lost the people I love. I lost my mother and I lose the person I really love. Why is this happens? What did I do to deserves this? I cried. Tay tried to calm me and asked me to let it go. But moving on isn't easy.

Two days later, Pol called me but I didn't picked up. He then message me.

'Im really sorry Arm. I wish you to have a good life. Please forget me. Meet a new better person than me. I wish all the good for you. I love you na, tee rak."

I cried again. Why did you said you love me when you're the one who left me first? What's the point?!

I blocked him and delete his number. Removed him from my Line. Blocked all his social media.

I really hate him this time. Why? Why he do this to me?

I took some days off from working. I called the boss and inform Porchay about me taking off days. Fortunately he understood.

Tay also didn't bother me and stay at Time's room. I didn't get of my bed for three days now. I didn't really eat or bother to take shower. The room was also a mess. When Tay come home he scolded me.

"Are you out of your mind? Do you think by being like this that asshole Pol will come back to you?!"

I didn't reply. I heard a heavy sigh from his mouth. He come and sit on my side.

"Arm. Can you not act like this? Please don't make me worried. Your brother called me last night and said you haven't contacted him for days now. You made everyone worried about you."

I change my position from laying to sit. I looked at Tay.

"Do you think I will be okay?"

Tay give me a light smile.

"You have me. You still have you brother. As long as I still alive, I will always by your side. I love you."

I didn't realize, my tears fall again. Tay pull me into his arms and hugs me tightly.

"It's okay. You will be fine."

Why is it so hurt? I thought love will always beautiful. I thought it will last forever.

Pol. Why are you doing this to me? I love you. Why can't you do the same?

Days passed and I started working again. I tried not to think about him and make myself busy with my work. Sometimes on lunch break I will keep working. Porchay always told me not to overworked but I ignored.

"Phi Arm. You will get sick if you keep doing this. Go take a break."

"I'm okay."

Porchay keep babling but I just ignored him. If I stop I will definitely thinking about Pol. I don't want to remind of him again.

One day my body couldn't take it anymore. I didn't realize I passed out and got send to the hospital. I woke up on the hospital bed with Tay sitting on the side.

"You're overworked your body. The doctor said it's because of stress too."

I didn't replied but instead ask for glass of water.

"You still can't forget him?"

I stay silent.

"How long, Arm? If you keep doing like this, something bad will happen to you."

I didn't replied.

"Arm."

"Tay. Can you leave me to rest for a while?"

I lay down and pretend to sleep. I heard Tay let out a sigh.

I'm sorry Tay. I don't know why I act stupid like this. I'm really sorry.