danger
@dangerblade

danger
i sent clothes to your room, ma'am.
i know they'll fit you because i know
you and your body parts. 😉

danger
after that, punta ka sa rooftop sa
condominium ko. and i'm ready,
may driver ka na rin, ma'am. 😉

riot
ano na namang pakana ito?

danger
just follow my instructions, ma'am.

riot
bakit may driver pa? ba't 'di na lang
ikaw, ano?

danger
basta!

riot
you're making me miss you badly.

danger
that's how it's supposed to be, ma'am.
at kahit ngayong kausap kita, mas
iniisip kong kayakap kita.

danger
only for a few months, riot. we can
do this. just put your trust in me.

riot
i love you more than i should love
a person.

danger
i love you more than you can ever
imagine.

danger
sundan mo na lang instructions ko.
we only have a few days left.

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"Anong pakana ito?" I scoffed as I look at the neatly folded clothes inside the box. Umaasa akong dress ang nasa loob ng box na 'to, just like in the movies and books.

"Bakit bear na onesie ang laman nito?" Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko pero isa lang ang masasabi ko; sobrang umaapaw 'yung kasiyahan ko ngayon. Pakiramdam ko, maiiyak ako sa tuwa.

Hindi ako nagrereklamo na onesie ang nilagay ni Danger kaysa sa dress. Wala akong pake doon. He's making an effort in making everything worth it and that's more than enough for me.

Magmumukha akong tanga dito pero wala akong pake.

I kept on laughing at myself while checking myself out in front of the mirror. Sobra akong natutuwa sa binigay ni Danger at mas natutuwa ako kapag iniisip kong may sorpresa pa siyang hinanda para sa'kin.

My overflowing emotions can't be expressed through simple I love you's and I miss you's.

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danger
@dangerblade

danger
how were the clothes i sent?

riot
you're an idiot.

danger
you love this idiot.

riot
touché.

riot
you seriously didn't have to do this.

danger
pero gusto ko.

danger
it's the simplest and little moments
that i want you to remember by, riot.

danger
are you done? nasa kotse ka na ba?

riot
palabas pa lang.

riot
realtalk: sobrang natutuwa ako
ngayon, hindi ko alam paano sabihin.
i just want to kiss you on the lips
right now.

danger
we have time for that later. 😉

riot
i am happy by the way you make me
happy. i adore the way you adore me.
and i love the way you love me.

danger
nakasasabik. nakahihilo. nakamamatay.

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"Magandang gabi, Miss Riot! Malamang ay alam niyo na ang dahilan kung bakit ako nandito at bakit ko kayo pinagsisilbihan." Tinago ko ang ngiti dahil sa sinabi ng matandang driver na hawak ang hawakan ng pinto.

Pinasadahan ko ng tingin ang onesie kong suot at tinignan ang driver. "Bagay po sa'kin, 'diba?"

Marahan na tumawa ang matanda at unti-unting ngumiti. "Bagay na bagay." Napangiti ako. Binuksan niya ang pintuan at sumakay na ako sa kotse. Nang isara niya ang pintuan, hindi mabura sa isipan ko ang mga salitang binulong niya.

"Pati kilos at pananalita tulad kay Danger."

Pati ang pagbaba ko sa kotse ay pinag-isipan ko pa nang mabuti. Sa mismong entrance ng condominium huminto at nakokonsensya ako na pumasok na onesie lang ang suot.

Though I'm very familiar with the staffs inside the condominium, I'm still contemplating whether I should casually walk pass them or shyly greet them.

In the end, I chose the first option.

"Riot?" Hinarap ko ang boses na tumawag sa'kin. Galing ito sa kaklase ko sa isang subject at may natatawa't nagtatakang ekspresyon sa mukha niya.

Nginitian ko lang siya at kinawayan pero natatawa lang siyang umiling sa reaksyon ko.

"Hindi ka naman dito nakatira, 'diba? Bakit ka nandito?" tanong niya.

"Ano... May importante lang na gagawin." Kumaway ako ng isang beses muli bago tumakbo papunta sa elevator.

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danger
@dangerblade

danger
you here?

riot
elev.

danger
nice. i'm getting excited.

danger
kiss me when you see me.

riot
i bet that's the first thing i will do.

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When I first got out of the elevator, the first thing I did was scan through what my eyes can see. The rooftop is pretty wide and I haven't seen even Danger's shadow.

Naisipan kong tumingin sa likod ng elevator and damn, nawalan ako ng sasabihin.

It was pretty simple. An open tent with lights around it. Inside the tent were pillows, blankets and plushies. At the side, there was a small table with lots of foodㅡunhealthy foods.

"I did a weather check and it said tonight was going to be a very fine night. Why not make it finer for the both of us?"

I bit my lower lip at the sound of Danger's voice. He wrapped his arms around my waist and put his chin on my shoulder. Hinarap ko siya at tinignan ang malalalim niyang mata.

Hindi ko kaagad napansin ang suot niya. Nakasuot siya ng isang onesie din tulad ko pero imbes na bear ang kanya, isang dilaw na puppy ang suot niya na sinamahan pa ng isang tali na nakatali sa taas ng buhok niya ngayon.

I naturally shook my head because of the emotions he can give me without him knowing. Just one look and I can feel the emotions stirring inside of me over and over again.

"I can't lose you, ever." I softly whispered. "You won't." he answered before kissing I kissed him on the lips.

The night ended sooner than I expected. We did nothing but talk about everything we can possibly think of. Just talking, no distractions.

From that moment on, I was less than scared than yesterday. I feel like I was really committing myself to something much deeper than a relationship and I don't know what that is.

Tonight passed by like a blur but what it left wasn't just a blur, it was a markㅡa mark of what we still can be if we let ourselves be.

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ｊ： hello hehe. warning: long note ahead. tbvh, namiss kong magsulat ng dire-diretso updates. last 2016, when i was still starting as a writer, i used to write five chapters per week. pero may daya, kasi pure epistolary naman 'yun. however, ang pinakanamimiss ko is 'yung passion ko about writing. i am passionate but not as passionate as i was before. i used to fight myself whether i should continue my passion for writing or for medicine, but i chose the latter one. ( kahit kahinaan ko science, hehe. ) then i've decided not to stop writing since writing gradually became a part of my system. i got used to writing for at least an hour for one short yet decent update. mahirap pakawalan at hanggang ngayon, nahihirapan pa rin ako. i made writing my hobby and it was also my favorite pastime. i feel joy by creating numerous characters and giving then variations from one another. i enjoy creating their names and thinking what it is like to live and love like them. in short, i enjoy the fantasy of being with them. i write because i imagine the things the way i want my live to be and as much as possible, i try to make them realistic. kasi sabi ko, i want to write and give an impression to my readers, na hindi lang ako basta writer, may purpose din ako ganun. gusto ko kahit papaano, may lessons din silang makuha sa'kin.

tatapusin ko na 'yung note kasi medyo na-out of track ako hahaha. para siyang eulogy sa buong writing passion ko eh kahit hindi pa naman ako namamaalam. matagal-tagal pa naman 'yung pagsasamahan natin.

putting the drama aside, medyo nabitin ako sa sinulat ko at gusto ko talaga malaman lahat ng opinion niyo. come at me whether you're a silent reader or not. just talk to me, i'm willing to improve as a writer. :ㅡ) i also want to thank you for goving me 3k reads. i love you!