*yo i like the beginning of this chapter but the ending sucks. my friend had to help me figure out how to wrap it up. anyway. we get some shiro backstory this chapter.

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August 31

Shiro walked out of the main doors of the building where his police training took place. He was talking to one of the other cadets. A girl with long blonde hair up in a ponytail, wearing black leggings and a fitted blue crop top. Shiro then spotted a familiar car in the parking lot.

"I'll talk to you later, okay?"

The girl nodded, "I'll text you." She leaned up and kissed his cheek.

"Uh. Okay..." Shiro quickly walked down the steps to the parking lot, walking up to the car.

Adam rolled down the window as Shiro approached, "Who was that?"

"No one important. What are you doing here?"

Adam shrugged, "I just wanted to surprise you. Get in."

Shiro smiled, "Okay." He walked around to the other side of the car and got in the passenger seat.

Adam was always showing up unannounced to take Shiro on little dates. Platonic dates. They weren't there yet. Shiro loved it when Adam did it nonetheless.

Adam pulled out of the parking lot, "Is that girl in your class?"

Shiro nodded, "Yeah. Her name is Lydia. She's always trying to get me to hang out. I keep telling her no. But I do text her. Well, she texts me and I reply."

Adam glanced at him, he wanted to look him in the eye but he had to focus on the road, "You don't have to be nice to everyone, Shiro. If she makes you uncomfortable then don't talk to her anymore."

Shiro frowned, "I didn't say that she makes me uncomfortable."

"You looked pretty uncomfortable when she kissed you on the steps. Are you going to deny it?"

Shiro hesitated, "Okay, maybe she makes me a little uncomfortable."

Adam sighed, "Distancing yourself from someone isn't rude. Don't worry about hurting her feelings. You're too nice."

Shiro sighed, "She's just being friendly. That's all."

"She's flirting with you and you're clearly not interested. Just let her down easy so you can both move on. If she's a good friend then she will respect that and you two can remain friends. Just friends."

Shiro smirked at him, "I may be too nice but at least I don't get jealous."

"Jealous?!" Adam's cheeks went pink, "I am not jealous. I'm just trying to get you to stick up for yourself for once."

"Mhm, sure."

Adam glared at Shiro for a moment before looking at the road, "What do I have to be jealous of. It's not like we're boyfriends or anything like that."

"But we both want to be..." Shiro looked down.

Adam glanced at Shiro before looking back at the road, "Have you come out to your dad yet?"

Shiro shook his head, "The only ones who know are my friends and you."

"I don't count as a friend?"

Shiro smiled, "You're more than that and you know it... We're not boyfriends yet. But we're exclusive. We go on dates, we don't talk to other people. All we're missing is the label and the intimacy."

Adam smiled, "And I'm okay with that. As long as I have you then I don't need a label. We don't have to change anything until you're ready." He reached over and held Shiro's hand, keeping his other on the wheel. Hand holding and hugs were pretty much as far as they went when it came to physical affection. Even in private.

Shiro intertwined their fingers. He hesitated before speaking, "Would it be crazy for me to say I love you?"

Adam tensed for a moment, they hadn't even started dating so they definitely hadn't gotten to the L word yet. But he relaxed and smiled softly, "No, it's not crazy. Because I love you too."

Shiro hesitated again, "I'm going to come out to my dad tonight. Telling him is the only thing holding me back."

Adam pulled into an empty parking lot. He knew this was becoming an extremely important conversation and wanted to be able to look Shiro in the eye. He let Shiro's hand go so he could put the car in park then turned to face Shiro, "Are you sure you're ready for that?"

Shiro nodded, looking down, "Yes, I know he'd be accepting of me."

"Then why have you waited so long to tell him?"

Shiro shrugged, "He just always talked about how he wished he could have a bigger family. More than just me and him. He and mom had planned on having more kids, but then she died. Don't get the wrong idea, we're happy and he loves me more than life. But he always wanted more people to love. If I had children then I could give him that. Yes, I'm bi, so I potentially could. But I lean more towards guys and will honestly end up marrying a guy..."

Adam nodded, "I get it... But you could adopt. Or you could get a surrogate mother, so the baby is still yours. There are ways you can give him grandchildren. Honestly, I think your father would be okay just having you to love because you being happy is worth having a small family."

Shiro nodded, "I just need to tell him. I feel like I'm lying to him..."

"Then do it, tell him. Just make sure you really are ready. Once it's out then there's no taking it back."

Shiro looked back up, "What about you? What happened when you told your parents you're gay?"

Adam looked down, "I don't think you want to hear that story..."

Shiro frowned, "They didn't accept you?"

Adam nodded, still looking down, "They wanted nothing to do with me. I was sixteen so I got emancipated. I've been living alone ever since. I lost all my friends when I came out too. I guess they weren't real friends anyway if they turned their backs on me so easily, I'm better off without them."

Shiro reached over to hold Adam's hand again, "Nobody should have to be alone.. I'm sorry you had to go through that.."

Adam looked at him with a smile, "I'm not alone anymore."

Shiro smiled back, "Is that so?"

Adam nodded, "I have you."

Shiro blushed a bit and looked down, still smiling, "Once I come out to my dad there will be nothing holding me back... Nothing holding us back..."

"That's true. Meaning once you come out to your dad, I'll be able to do something I've been wanting to do for a while now..."

Shiro looked back up, "What would that be?"

"Talk to me after you come out to your dad and I'll show you." Adam chuckled.

Shiro chuckled too, "Okay, I'll let you surprise me like you always do."

"Speaking of surprises," Adam turned to start the car, "We're going to have a little fun today."

Shiro smiled happily, "Are you going to tell me where we're going or am I just going to have to wait until we get there?"

"You have to wait. Why would you expect anything different?"

6:49 pm

Shiro walked back into his condo and to the living room where his dad was sitting down watching TV, "Hey, dad."

Kaito smiled at him, "Takashi, come sit with me."

Shiro nodded, sitting next to his dad on the couch with a smile, "Adam took me out again today."

"Where did you boys go this time?"

"He took me to the Science Center to check out their space exhibit, he knows I'm into that stuff. We both are, actually. I just didn't know that until today. After that, we went to eat at Mellow Mushroom."

Kaito smiled, "That boy seems nice... How old is he again?"

"Just twenty, he's not that much older than me. Only one year."

"I never said I had a problem with his age, I was just asking," Kaito reached over and held Shiro's hand, "You two do spend quite a lot of time together, though."

Shiro looked down, "Yeah, that's because.. We... Um.."

"You're boyfriends?"

Shiro looked back up at Kaito with wide eyes, "What?! No!"

Kaito chuckled, "You like boys, Shiro. I can tell. I pay attention, it's my job."

Shiro looked back down, smiling slightly, "I'm not gay. I'm bisexual. And Adam isn't my boyfriend, but I want him to be.."

Kaito leaned over and kissed the top of Shiro's head, "I know, love. I know."

"Why did you never say anything?"

"Because I wanted your coming out to be on your own terms. I'm so glad you've finally told me."

Shiro looked up again, still smiling, "He wants to be my boyfriend too, dad. I really like him. And he really likes me."

"What's holding you back?"

"You," Shiro paused, "That was bad phrasing. It's not you specifically. I just didn't want to get involved with a boy before I came out to you. But Adam and I already go on dates and other stuff boyfriends do. So I guess I already have gotten involved."

Kaito smiled, "I knew there was a reason you spend so much time with that boy."

Shiro leaned over and hugged him, "I love you, dad. I love you so much."

Kaito hugged him back, putting one hand on the back of Shiro's head, "I love you more than anything in the world. You were your mother's last gift to me before she left us, the best gift I have ever received.

Shiro pulled away, "Tell me more about her?"

Kaito nodded, leaning back on the couch. Shiro leaned back too, leaning his head on Kaito's shoulder. Kaito wrapped his arm around Shiro gently. Even the strongest people need to feel the love of their father from time to time.

"Your mother was the strongest woman I've ever known. It took me so long to win her heart. She was independent, just like you. I see so much of her in you. She laughed the same way you do, you have her eyes. My Rina, she just lit up every room she walked into. Everyone lusted after her, she was so beautiful. I was the lucky one she chose. I was oh so lucky."

"Would she be okay with me liking boys?"

Kaito chuckled, "She would've made you come out the moment she caught on to it. She was so headstrong and needed to have control over everything in her life. But she would've given you the biggest hug and told you how much she loves you. The first and last words she said to you were 'I love you more than life itself'. And she proved that to be true."

9:21 pm

shirogone: i did it. i told my dad

adambomb: that's amazing!! how did it go

shirogone: great! he said he already knew but didn't say anything because he wanted me to come out on my own terms

adambomb: i'm beyond happy for you shiro. like seriously so happy

shirogone: we only talked about it for a bit. then we got on the subject of my mom. he said she would accept me too

adambomb: what happened to your mom? you never told me

shirogone: well.. it's a long story

adambomb: i don't mind. if you want to tell me that is

shirogone: she died in childbirth. well shortly after i was born. she lived just long enough to hold me for the first time. for the last time. her heart stopped while she was holding me. I almost died too. it was induced labor due to complications. i don't know the details about that part. i just know the doctors told my parents that if she went through with the pregnancy then there was a chance neither of us would survive, that it was best to have a late term abortion. but mom refused to give up on me. she went through with it. then something happened a few months later and they had to force labor. they had to get me out of her. she ended up dying anyway. and since i was born so prematurely, i barely made it. but the doctors who looked after me while i was in the NICU were great. i was nursed to a healthy weight with ease. though i used to get a lot of infections because my immune system wasn't fully formed, but it got stronger over time and i'm better now. i have anemia still but we're able to treat it. i take supplements. i haven't had to get a blood transfusion in years.

adambomb: oh my god shiro i'm so sorry. that's horrible

shirogone: don't worry about it. i still have my dad, he's all i need. he tells me stories about her. and i got lucky when it comes to my health. anemia is nothing compared to what most premature babies get. i'm lucky i even lived. i'm lucky

adambomb: how are you able to stay so strong and positive all the time?

shirogone: practice i guess

adambomb: i love you

shirogone: i love you too

adambomb: i'm taking you somewhere tomorrow. if you have plans, cancel them

shirogone: lol okay. shady but okay. i'll text you when i wake up. i'm about to pass out

adambomb: sleep well shiro. you deserve it

September 1

Shiro was sat on his porch the next afternoon waiting for Adam to arrive. He had been out there for ten minutes before Adam's car pulled up. Shiro stood up with a smile and walked to the car, getting in happily, "Where are you taking me?"

"I'm not even sure, honestly," Adam chuckled, "I thought I would have figured it out by now but I haven't come up with anything. But I didn't want to postpone so here I am."

Shiro laughed, "Well, we have to figure something out or we'll end up parked in my driveway all night."

Adam shrugged, "As long as I'm with you," he reached over to hold Shiro's hand, "That's all that matters."

Shiro blushed a bit, looking at their hands, "You're really cheesy, you know that right?"

"Perhaps I am. But you like it."

Shiro looked up at him with a smile, "Let's do something crazy."

"Crazy isn't really our style," Adam chuckled, "We're cops."

"You're a cop, I'm a cadet. But you do have a point," Shiro thought for a moment, "Let's settle for something we wouldn't usually do."

"Any ideas?"

Shiro shook his head, "No, not really."

"Well, maybe ask one of your friends for a suggestion? You have some pretty interesting friends."

"That's definitely code for 'your friends are weird as fuck' but you're totally right," Shiro chuckled a pulled out his phone and opened up the group chat.

shirogone: quick suggest a really random slightly weird activity

leggylance: go to a drag show

shirogone: this is a date

kmskeith: so you two are officially calling them dates now?

leggylance: drag show

ayellura: shiro at a drag show? that would be hilarious

hunkinthetrunk: he did say weird and random

leggylance: drag :) show :)

katiehatesyou: lance is obsessed with rupaul. ignore him

Shiro looked up at Adam, "Lance suggested we go to a drag show."

Adam laughed, "That's certainly something we wouldn't usually do," Adam thought for a moment, "Let's do it. It'll be fun."

Shiro smiled and looked back at his phone.

shirogone: we're going to a drag show

leggylance: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Shiro rolled his eyes as he left the group chat and opened Google, "Lance is a fucking mess."

"You just realizing this? I barely know him and I already know that."

"You haven't seen him after drinking coffee yet, he's ten times worse," Shiro leaned over to show Adam his phone, "There's this place that does drag shows every Saturday night."

Adam looked at the address, "It's not too far, let's go," he put the car in reverse and backed out of Shiro's driveway.

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Adam and Shiro spent about an hour and a half at the club before leaving. They walked out of the building hand in hand.

"Well, that was fun," Shiro chuckled.

"I think that one guy was checking you out though."

"Is someone a little jealous?" Shiro smirked.

Adam's cheeks went pink, "You know I am, you don't have to point it out."

"You're cute when you're jealous," They had reached Adam's care in the parking lot. Shiro stopped to stand in front of Adam before wrapping his arms around him, "You're the only one I have my eyes on."

Adam smiled at him, "Yesterday you said that once you came out to your dad there would be nothing holding us back..."

"And now I've come out to my dad."

"So now there's nothing holding us back."

"Nothing at all."

Adam put a hand on the back of Shiro's neck, "Does that mean I can finally kiss you?"

Shiro nodded, "I want that more than anything else."

Adam closed the gap between them, kissing Shiro softly. Shiro kissed back. Both had been wanting this for so long. It felt perfect.

"Get it sisters!" One drunken guy yelled, having just stumbled out of the club. He had on a full face of exaggerated makeup and a crooked wig but wasn't in full drag.

Shiro pulled away to look at him, laughing a bit, "Fix your wig. You're gonna lose it."

The guy adjusted his wig, "Thanks, cutie," he blew a kiss before the girl he was with pulled him away to their car.

Shiro chuckled before he felt Adam pulling him closer, he looked at him, "Jealous~"

Adam looked away, embarrassed, "Shut up."

"You should be jealous when someone calls your boyfriend cute."

Adam looked back at him, "So it's official now?"

Shiro nodded, "Officially boyfriends.

"Boyfriends," Adam kissed him again.

They had never been happier than they were at that moment.

*shoutout to @farklelucas on tumblr for insisting i have them go to a drag show. i didn't feel like writing it all out so here. that and i'm falling behind and need to have this in time for friday. adashi will be getting more attention, look forward to that. i'm loving getting to build adam's personality. i'm sorry if he seems inconsistent. i'm still figuring him out. there's barely any source material to go off of. he seems like the protective type that can keep his cool in a tense situation. that's the only read i can get off of him*