Hey Dudes & Dudettes

•We need to talk.

•Sheesh! It sounds like I'm breaking up with you guys.

•Well, I sort of, kinda am.

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Since this isn't gonna be easy to say, no matter how I say it or in what way I say it; I'm just gonna rip off the bandage and hope you guys won't hate me for it.

All three of my books: Love Thy Roommate, Resist Him If You Can & Belonging To An Alpha Male; are gonna be deleted within 72 hours.

HOLD IT RIGHT THERE!

Now, now.

Before you start shoving your hands through your devices to try and strangle me, just hear me out.

Just... okay?

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Let's start at the beginning, shall we?

The first half of this part is gonna be about me so if you're not interested just skip it, I won't be offended.

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When I first started college, like most of the normal teens, I didn't know shit about what I was gonna do with my life. Like - no clue whatsoever! Nada!

I was so confused that it resulted in me gradually asking my parents to just blindly choose something and tell me what to do because:
One - They won't guide me to the wrong path.
Two - My mind was so jumbled that I just needed someone to tell me what to do.

And they did.

And the degree they wanted me have was nowhere related to writing or graphic designing.

And because I didn't know what else to do at that time, I did what they told me.

And I have been doing it for the past three years.

Only to realize lately that I don't want to do that at all. And that sucked. Monkey butts!

That's why for some months I have been depressed. Okay, not depressed depressed because that's a serious condition but more of a person having really sad, morbid thoughts.

That's me!

And that's part of the reasons why the updates had been less frequent lately, 'cause how can someone write a humorous, funny story when their thoughts are anything but that? Sucks, I know.

And then the condition got so bad that some days I couldn't eat much and other days I kept shoving everything down my throat mindlessly, I couldn't sleep and I started to cry at awkward intervals. (FYI, I'm not pregnant. Just sayin'.)

Anyway, I'm Asian, people!

One thing you learn being an Asian child is you never disappoint your parents! Ever! Thou shall not inflict such horror upon your parents!

#Legit

And I got worse.

And then... even more.

Until one day my big brother just burst in my room and told me to get my head out of my butt and to man up and just tell the parents that I couldn't keep doing what they wanted me to do. And if they didn't like it, so be it; 'cause I'll always have him to back me up.

His words were sweet even though it contained a string of curses because... well, that's just how he talks.

And then I started crying again.

I swear to God, I've never seen him look so panicky and petrified as he came up to me and sat down next to me and awkwardly patted my hair.

Like I was a dog.

Eh! I still thought it was sweet.

So, the next day, I went up to my parents and just blurted out everything. Surprisingly, they weren't shocked. Much.

But they also told me to be practical because breaking into writing industry on your own was unfortunately very tough.

Still, they gave me the benefit of the doubt and told me to take a break and do what I wanted to do, test the waters and all that stuff and told me to come back to them after a while to tell me what I've decided. No biggie.

I cried again.

Still not pregnant, guys!

And that's the reason, I don't wanna think of writing as just an hobby anymore. Because no matter how hard it is to break into the writing industry, I wanna try.

And because of that I have made this decision - to write a story that actually has a chance to be published in the future. And to delete the ones that are bad.

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Anyhoo! About my stories, let's get this shit in the ascending order.

#1 Belonging To An Alpha Male

It has already been deleted and well, I won't expect you to give a crap because I hadn't really started writing it yet anyway. So, moving on!

#2 Love Thy Roommate

Frankly, I started this book when I was fourteen. Then I stopped for a while. And I joined Wattpad when I was around sixteen-seventeen and I picked it back up.

I lost interest in the book when I was still writing the ending chapters but since the readers wanted me to complete the book, I did.

A year later, I thought about deleting it because that book is filled with grammatical mistakes, spelling errors, loopholes and is cheesy af!

But a lot of you dudettes requested to keep it up, so I did. Even though, I still can't read that story without cringing at the glaringly-obvious mistakes.

And hence, I'm gonna delete it, because I really don't have time to edit it. But the book will always be in my drafts and one day, if possible, I'll rewrite the book and post it again. But for now, it's gone-zo!

Please don't tell me to make it ungone-zo!

#3 Resist Him If You Can

I've saved the best for the last because this is my personal favorite.

Anyhoo, I'm gonna get straight to the point: RHIYC is gonna be deleted.

But like I said - this book is my favorite.

And if I had a chance I would like it for it to actually be published in the future. *Knocks on wood* And for it to be published, I can't have this story look like it's written by an amateur teen. (That's moi!)

So, I'm gonna re-write it.

I'm gonna re-write the fuck outta it.

Because someone once told me that my book is great but if I make it better it would be amazing.

And I want my book to be amazing.

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So, the revised version will have the following changes:

• Names:

The character names will be changed a bit. They'll still be called Luc and Nina. But their full names will be altered. Probably because I love giving my male characters uncommon names, as many of you have noticed.

When I started writing this book, the name Lucien wasn't much common. Now? It's Lucian, Lucien, Luciano, Lucarooney, Looney-ballooney! It's everywhere! Hence - change.

PS: The new name is hotter that Lucien.

PPS: Also, some of you have commented on the previous chapters asking me how Lucien is pronounced. I'm late but anyway, here ya go!

Lucien can be pronounced in any number of ways:

Loosh-un or Loo-see-en or Loo-shin

It depends.

I always pronounced it the second way.

• Genre:

The revised version is gonna be way more mature than this book. It's a full length erotica, with added humor because well, it's written by me so...

I've already posted the Foreword and Prologue and I can truly say that the Prologue alone contains more mature scenes than I've written in this book overall. Me thinks..

• Luc:

The thing that really bothered me when I was re-reading this book was Lucien's character.

He was never supposed to be smirky, clique bad-boy-in-a-teen-novel type, boyish or sort of cheeky. Like he was in the beginning chapters.

He was supposed to be a man.

A ruggedly handsome brute of a man.

I had started editing RHIYC to make him that way but the editing took much more time than I expected and it was just easier to rewrite the whole thing.

Anyway, just imagine the sexiest Luc you've seen in RHIYC... well, he's gonna be a million times sexier in the new version. You have my word.

• Tate:

Unfortunately, Tate won't be a guy anymore.

As much as I would love to write a story about two sexy guys just going at it like animals (wink wink, nudge nudge), it won't be happening.

Probably because I can't stop giggling and blushing when I write about one male genitals; if I have to write about two... yeah, I'm gonna faint.

So I made him a girl, 'cause it was just easier.

He'll still be the same though, dorky and weird, so don't worry about that. I swear on Tate's grave that I'm gonna honor him.

Amen!

Anyhoo! That's all the changes I can think about for now.

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Okay! Time for shameless self promotion!

The new book is gonna be called Tease and as I've said before it is already posted on my profile. And you guys don't have to worry about the updates, because I want to complete this book as soon as I can; so I'll probably be updating once or twice a week.

This is gonna be the re-written, revised version, not just the edited one - it's gonna be completely different from this one.

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Time for serious talk!

From the bottom of my heart, you guys are the major part of the reason why I'm thinking about actually wanting to break into the writing industry and I'll be really, really honored if you keep supporting me and my decisions the way you did up till now.

Because I fudging love you guys. And I love the fact that I can make you smile through this story and your comments and messages does wondrous things to my ego.

If you can't breathe, don't worry... that's just my ego taking up all the space in your room. Hee.

Anyway, the worst part about making this decision was facing the fact that I may lose some of you guys because you won't agree with me or may not be able to understand me. And that's why I needed the explain exactly why I came up with this major decision.

And I needed you to understand.

I hope you understand.

And if you do, well... I'll see you dudes and dudettes in the revised book.

Thank you for everything.

- Love, Rush.

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