CHAPTER 20 : FEELINGS

Y/n's pov

I looked at the guy draped in apron who was so much focused at cooking ramen in my kitchen. I shook my head and continued doing what I was doing. I sighed in relaxation as I packed the last box and sealed it with the tape. Seriously , this was so hectic. I looked at my surroundings which were somewhat empty now , only the furniture and few things were left as it is. I put the box with the other boxes which were kept in a corner. I glanced around my apartment once again to see if I have left something, then I went to check my bedroom for the last time .

" It's all set I guess" I muttered to myself as I came out with my bags and placed them beside the boxes I've packed before.

" Everything done? " Eunwoo asked me as he carried the two bowls of ramen on a tray to the living room and put them down on the coffee table in front of us.

" Yes , it's all done. But I'm gonna miss this place" I admitted before slurping the ramen .

" Me too. This is our last ramen here I guess. Let's enjoy it " he stated and I nodded.

" To be honest , you're making it sound like I'm going somewhere for good. I'm just moving back with my dad for God's sake please!" I commented at his words earlier and he chuckled.

" But still , I liked spending time with you here" he said stuffing his mouth with the ramen . I couldn't agree more though, I too liked having his company here. But , I decided to move back with dad as he was all alone in that mansion now.

" You can come over there anytime , you know" I grinned at him .

" Woww , look at you inviting me to come over anytime , without any hesitation. You know what, I'm a guy as well " he said , suddenly decreasing the distance between our faces. My eyes widened at his sudden bold statement and I flustered even more realising how close our faces were from each other. I could feel the sudden thump in my chest , oh god not this again. My heart was pounding dangerously inside my chest and I just prayed that he wouldn't hear it. I could feel the heat rising throughout my whole body and I almost forgot to breathe as I felt his strong stare on me.
But I didn't dared to look up in his eyes.

" Eunwoo" I whispered slowly backing away a little finally. I wasn't used to this kind of closeness. It felt so weird and good at the same time. Wait what , good!? I mentally facepalmed at my thoughts. To be honest , I didn't wanted to back away but my body reacted faster than my mind.

Finally realising what just happened, he coughed a little and looked here and there awkwardly " I didn't - "

" Ahh I'll do the dishes , then we have to leave. " I carried the bowls to the kitchen to avoid the sudden awkwardness.

I finally felt I could breathe again as soon as I left his side. Just what the hell happened there!? My god , this awkwardness is killing me. Did he even realised what he just did ? If I sat there like that for one more second , my heart would've exploded by now. I placed my hand at my chest to feel my heart still thumping.

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Eunwoo's pov

The whole time my mind was lingered on the memory of what happened back in her apartment. If she wouldn't have backed away at that moment I might have kissed her!! Jesus , I seriously need to control myself while being around her. It was so awkward that both us didn't even dared to say a word throughout the whole ride. We just exchanged good byes after I dropped her at home.

Why did I have to do that!? I actually didn't even realised when I moved closer to her. I groaned due to frustration.

It's really hard for me now to control these feelings. She's the only person I'm thinking about all the day. Everytime she's with me I want to hold her in my arms . There's this giddy feeling whenever she smiles at me , it feels so euphoric. I didn't even realised exactly when I started liking her . Yes , I like her , I like her very much but I don't know if I'll be able to tell her. I'm scared what if she doesn't feels the same for me . I already know she just thinks of me as a friend , I'm scared that my confession might ruin what we have now. Moreover, I think she needs time for herself as well. It's been only a few days since everything got over.

If it wasn't for Seoyeon I still wouldn't have realised my feelings for her. I was confused because of everything I was feeling at that time was foreign to me. I have never felt this for anyone before. How was I even supposed to know !? But I'm more than sure now about what I exactly feel for her , what she means to me.

I suddenly remembered that day -

FLASHBACK

" Why are you smiling like that huh?" A voice spoke and I was so much startled that I was about to fell off the couch.

" Aishhh , can't you come like a normal human Seoyeon-ah!? Why do you have to appear in front of me like a ghost! " I stated annoyingly.

" That's not like you Dongminie , you're behaving like I've caught you doing something you' weren't supposed to do" she raised her brow but I ignored whatever she said and grabbed my phone again.

" wow , now you're even ignoring me huh. I bet it's Y/n whom you were talking to smiling like that , weren't you?" She questioned and I was caught off guard because I was actually taking to her. How did she even know that!?

" H-how do you know t-that?" I asked being all flustered.

"You're just too obvious" she shrugged propping down on the couch . " And seeing your flustered face , I'm more than sure now that ..." she stopped in between and started chuckling.

" that what? What are you talking about?" I gritted my teeth.

" That....you . like . her " she said dramatically and then grinned ear to ear. But her statement made me froze at my place for a moment. I looked at her with wide eyes and her words kept replaying in my head continuously

" What..w-what are you talking about? No , I don't l-like her " I managed to say while stuttering due to the sudden nervousness taking over me.

" Oh please. You're talking about her everytime , smiling like an idiot while texting her . You become anxious if you don't see her . Your actions clearly say you like her but you don't want to admit it . " she stated.

" I d-don't know " I said .

" Doesn't your heart flutter when you see her ? Doesn't you feel like your heart is going to explode whenever she's near you? Don't you feel something when everytime she smiles at you? " she asked me while I looked at her blankly still processing her words. Whatever she was saying was true , I couldn't deny it .

" It only happens when you like a person pabo." She added and smacked my head.

" Then maybe.... I like her ?" I said hesitantly with a blank look on my face. I was confused.

" I like y/n" Suddenly the words slipped from my tongue rather loudly this time and I looked at Seoyeon who gave me a bright smile.

" What am i supposed to do?" I whispered in a small voice looking towards her but more like questioning myself.

" Confess to her , what else" She said simply.

" No. I can't right now. I need to be sure about my feelings. Moreover , she's going through a lot right now " I said immediately.

"Then wait for the right time" she patted my shoulder smiling at me and I nodded still lost in my own world.

I couldn't sleep that night , my mind was occupied with the thoughts of her . That feeling was so new and exciting for me at the same time. My heart was beating crazily and I couldn't stop smiling, the memories of us together were replaying in my mind. I remembered the day when I found her crying on rooftop. Maybe , it was then when it all began.

" I like you , Kim y/n " I smiled to myself keeping my hand on my chest.

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A/N:)

I just wanted to make it clear , that Eunwoo have already realised his feelings for y/n way before. He just didn't wanted to tell her anything because of the shit going on with her life. But now that everything is over , he's helpless as he can't control his feelings anymore.

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