This feels like the type of thing you lose followers for posting

it would be really nice not to lose followers right now so um

if you're one of those people who's new around here

you can just not 

read this 

okay thanks

...i'm just gonna delete this later

anyhow i don't usually do goretober because i'm really squeamish but my friends do and i was thinking about the prompt for today which was more eyes/limbs 

well really i just wanted to 

read everyone's stuff and then post my september art from my school journals but i started getting these really bad headaches late in the day and then while I was doing that last drawing my hand started shaking badly and i remembered the prompt and i wanted to draw Her and i did

They're probably not real or functional eyes. I'd say this is a vent sona but it's really more of a spiritual representation of Rena with some more sona qualities? I don't know honestly I've always felt wrong about calling her my fursona because when I was really young that was basically all she was, she was just this overpowered shitty character I made as kind of a DM so that I could bring everyone else into the games I made while still always being better than them

but when I started writing novels she got shoved to the side because she was such a Mary Sue and it was impossible to write stories with her in them because she was just too powerful. Of course, the kinds of stories I wrote didn't change- a lot of them were still kind of loosely based on old characters and old games and old things. She was not only the Princess of Dreamland but really all it stood for in my mind, just old things and comfort food that was bound to end in bittersweetness and death.

Eventually, I began writing her into things, and I realized that she needed flaws so I pushed off everything I hated about myself and exaggerated it. A demigod casts bigger shadows. It was fitting. Every single time I figured some new characteristic or plot point out about her it was just relentlessly bashing down this Mary Sue until she wasn't just flawed, and she wasn't just me, she was just...

I guess it makes more sense if you read TGD or TCHF. There's something I call *the* chapter and you'll only know it when you hit it, but it made it impossible for me to really write about her anymore.

Then she fucking ruined DR:R. 

Fuck you.

Anyhow just to explain the design, all of those eyes can't see. The wounds around her neck, throat, and legs represent certain spoilers for The Cities Have Fallen and now she has all three of them.

The dark claws out of her back are a representation of her seraph wings.

Her crown has grown through her skull, basically. It's part of how she went blind.

The reason she has oil dripping out of her throat (which kind of looks like Creepy's ventsona now that I look at it... sorry sister) is because over the summer I acquired an irrational fear of choking to death.

If Aislyn was an angels instead of a seraph, her weak point would be her neck and the only way to kill her would be decapitation.