I continue
applying for
financial aid
and receive
a little
from public
scholarship foundation
that Mom
rushes me
to accept
before they
give it to
someone else.
Anxiety creeps
into my
every day life
because
I don't know
how I feel
about college.

I don't know
which is
bigger;
the random
useless stuff
colleges in
the state
send me
on a weekly basis,
or the stress
I feel when
I get them.