My first day in
Medical
Anatomy
with
the cannula,
someone asks me
if I'm a smoker.
I remind him
of AAT deficiencies
and he says,
"Oh. I just
didn't know if
admin is always
on your case because
they keep
catching you
smoking."
I want to tell him
I'm trying
to enjoy life,
not end it
for the feeling of
smoke curling down
my throat
and that maybe
he should
consider the same.
But I don't
even know if
it was him
and not
the other guy
at our table
that comes in with
red eyes
half the time.
Because if
it's the other guy,
that mic drop
would turn into
a drop
down the
social ladder.
But I don't really
care.
In six months,
I'll be out of
Bayview, never
looking back,
and he will still
have to come to
this prison
every day.
So instead I
briefly mention
AAT deficiencies
and proceed to
ignore him.
I do feel bad
for even thinking
a rude thought,
and what I did
was probably rude
but I
will not be
made fun of
for something
I can't help.
That's just
not fair
and I'm not
in the mood.