Some more Jamilams for the soul^^^

by bunny-yams (tumblr)
____________________________________

~Thomas POV~

I was there for all of it.

I was there as he slowly forgot everyone. I was there when he forgot John, Herc, the Schuyler sisters, James, even Washington. In a few months, they were all gone. I was the last one.

We brought Alex to the doctor after we found out that he'd forgotten about Laf. The doctor said he had no explanation except for memory loss. He had no idea what caused it or why.

I watched him as he slowly became more reserved and quiet. He didnt come out of the house. He was scared that he would see someone that he had forgotten.

Our friends used to come over to visit us but soon they realized that the Alex they knew was gone. This was just a shell of what once was.

A stranger.

_____________________

I dropped of the groceries in our kitchen and put them away. When I was done, I heard Alex shout from the loving room.

"Hey Tommy! You done yet?"

"Yeah, I just finished." I said, making my way towards him.

I sat on the couch and brought him close. We cuddled like that for a few hours.

Nowadays, because of his memory loss, it was just me and him. Him and me. It had been like this for about a month now.

It was nice, but I still missed the days when we could hang out with everyone else.

Lexi was a ticking time bomb. I knew that it was only a matter of time before he forgot me. It pained me to say it but deep down, no matter how hard I tried to deny it, i knew it would eventually happen. There was no use trying to prevent the inevitable. All I could do was spend all my time with Alex and wait. Wait until I could let him go.

"Tommy" I heard Lexi whisper. I almost jumped. I stopped combing his hair with my hands and gave a small hum. I thought he was asleep.

"I was thinking. What are you gonna do when I forget you?" He questioned and turned to look up at me.

"Hun, what do you mean?" I gave hima questioning look. "You are not going to forget me!"

"Thats a lie and we both know it." he responded calmly and softly.

I sighed and held him closer. "I dont know. I guess that I'll just have to let you go. Let you live your own life. A new life.When you forget, you'll be a completly different person than who you are now. You'll completely forget about all the hardships from your life now. You'll be- free." I paused before the last sentence. I wanted to deny it but I knew it was true. During high school, I had bullied him. Hard. Almost to the point of suicide.

I knew that everytime he looked at me, he remembered those days. How he had come to love me, I dont know.

I also knew that once he forgot about me, he would forget the bullying too. He wouldnt remember the pain from the taunts. He would be free from all of that.

"How do you know that?" He looked at me in a cute and questioning stare.

I shrugged.

"I dont know. I just- " I stopped. "I just do"

"Promise me that if i ever forget you, you will let me go. Let me live my own life away from all of you guys. I dont want to stick around and remind you-"

He was cut short when I put my hands on his cheeks and shmushed them together.

(im pretty sure thats not a word but oh well u guys know what i mean)

"I promise."

He sighed and pulled a blanket over both of us.

"I love you," he whispered then gave me a sad smile.

"I love you," I replied and kissed the top of his head.

We fell asleep right there on the couch, entangled in each others enbrace.

Little did I know.

___________________

My heart is breaking apart just by writing this.

welp...

~❤