"Wonder if we let this love grow, I won't have it in me just to let go."

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Maybe it was because of me falling first that I thought you sometimes showed signs too, that I had managed to pick up. Remember the day I got a bad grade despite working hard but you were there to console me since I couldn't afford and was afraid to embarrass myself in middle of the class by crying? You even offered me your jacket so that I could hide my face, respecting my privacy.

It was always those small things that made my heart jump with joy, giving me hope. You stayed with me at nights when I was leaving until my ride came or the time when I was humming away a song and seconds later, I heard you singing it under your breath with me in sync, both of us breaking into bright smiles right after. Such moments with you somehow felt so comfortable, as if luring me into letting all of my guards down like one would, when they feel safe.

I would always remind you your work like a mother whenever you got distracted gaming, knowing that I wouldn't be able to see you sad when you don't score to your expectations. It felt like you genuinely appreciated this, since just after one time you'd go back to your work, agreeing you were indeed wasting your time and I was rather right in reminding you.

Only if I could just go back and stop my younger self there, for now she was being given false hopes that would soon come crushing down afterwards, almost breaking her from within.

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