ok so the time zone difference his huge between us. it's literally 8:00 PM here and im guessing it's the morning over there. sorry it's late again, i'm busy as fuck. oh we won our volleyball game anyway so thank you. the archie to my jughead. which is ironic because her name is archi, so let's give it up for archi yo se1enagomez u are rage.

      i remember the day i met you. you were my seven hundredth follower if my calculations are correct and that was the day my best friend died. what a series of events. like honestly you were like "i'm ur seven hundredth follower. congratulate me!" in my mind i'm like "i'm tryna move on from my best friend dying of a seizure and this hoe is over here on her high horse asking me to fucking congratulate her for pressing the follow button?" in my mind i'm like, "what even?" but i decided to not be rude and be nice so i dropped a message on your board because i'm nice. honestly though, if i hadn't had a sense of restraint due to my boyfriend helping me, i would've ripped off your hair.

      so my first impression of this girl was, "bleh probably one of those fake people that just come and go" so we started talking and in all honesty i did not like you at all for the first few days but then i grew onto you. it's like me and sage's relationship. man i hated that rat but then we became ride or die hoes. same with you, every time we talked i wanted to rip my head off or start piecing my kidneys back together. but then, like magic i started to grow to love you and i'm like is this normal? i literally didn't know what i was feeling anymore but honestly i was so confused. i literally hated myself for loving you. i was like "how am i starting to love this selfish hoe?" but in all honesty we are selfish and you didn't deserve it. man looking back i was suck a whore. i honestly hated myself for hating such a nice person.

like what did i do to meet such an amazing person like you? you are so sweet to everyone who comes across you. you make everyone feel special m there's this light to you which i adore so much honestly. i was shaking my head saying idontwannabeyouanymore because i was thinking, why can't i be like this but i was saying i dont wanna be you. what did remmi do to cross paths with you? you make remmi feel good about herself every day honestly. remmi actually looks forward to hopping onto wattpad despite the amount of hate messages i get in my pm box everyday, sometimes my message board if they're feeling like ruining my life. you helped me overcome the hatred. because i have to be honest.

in june i actually dipped because i was getting hate messages in my inbox. also i left because i didn't want to be treated differently or looked at differently for having all these different conditions. in august i also caused myself to be put into that state because of hate messages. but somehow this person over here has helped me move on past everything. she's part of the reason i still look forward to wattpad. there's something about you that makes people feel better about themselves. if it wasn't for you and hannah's dare i probably wouldn't have told anyone i was pregnant because i felt strange. i also got called a slut for it a few weeks ago but it's ok. wattpad is a better community with you and a lot of other people.

archi is a real friend. she's a special friend that comes around. when you encounter her, be lucky to cross paths with her because if you don't you'll regret it because you need her. she's been very supportive of me in everything and i don't even know what i did to deserve all of this. i'm just a regular eighteen year old girl who's trying to navigate through everything. then this strange as fuck fifteen year old lowkey selena stan waltzes into my life making it a new reality. this book is dedicated to everyone who has impacted my life in a positive way and all of these people have started a raging fire inside of me that's forever growing. thank you archi for everything.

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lmao, i know i'm late but i
can explain. first of all i'm
not even supposed to be on.

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i'm currently milly rocking in
new york with ben trying to
visit each other. honestly i'm
done being miles away. only
till next year june and we'll be
a family, not separated for once.

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honestly i was supposed to not
be on wattpad because i want
to spend time with him but that
didn't work because i can't stay
away. but it's ok, only till june.

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anyway, how was y'all's day? mine
was lit. i went to the mall today
with mia who accompanied me on
the flight, ben of course whose
bank account suffered, his friend
kian who was basically the fourth
wheel, and of the rest of the squad.

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tomorrow we're supposed to go
for this event and i got a cute outfit
so i'm ready to slay this shit.

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hint ; she's basically amazing at
writing & gives the best advice

tsk tsk people's. see ya whenever

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