I didn't know where Jacob had gone to when he left. So I didn't know when he'd be back. But I had plenty of time to think. The first thing I thought was, everything I wanted in a guy. And I had to admit Jacob ticked every box. He was cute, and sexy and those muscles...and he was super sweet. He was nice, a good guy everything I ever wanted in a guy.

       Then I thought, weren't we kind of dating anyways? At least if we made it official I could kiss him. And touch those abs...another reason to date him. I couldn't find a reason not to date him.

       So I did the only thing I could think of. I called him and told him the truth, that I missed him. So he excitedly told me he was going to come home.

         But I couldn't deny one fact. I didn't wanna get hurt. That's why when he finally came home and went to pull me into a kiss I pulled back. Confusion crossed his face. "What's wrong?" He asked. "I thought this was why you called?" He furrowed his brow. "I called because how can I make a decision without talking to you and asking you questions. I don't wanna get hurt...it's just Kyle..." I said. Realization crossed his face. "I would never hurt you like that, he just had a gun and I was scared for you! I've never just went out to kill people. Only a few bad vampires..." He rushed out.

         "What? No I didn't mean because of you being a werewolf. I meant that I thought Kyle was a good guy, and I was blindsided by him. I didn't see anything." I said. "Oh, look I can't promise you that I won't hurt you. I mean I'm a guy, were idiots and we don't even have to try! I could say something that hurts you and not even know it hurt you." He said.

       "I mean, that I understand. I just...I'm scared." I said. "I completely understand that. I had science or wolfology or whatever pick out the right girl for me and she still didn't want me in the end. And who knows maybe it was because we had spent so long as family it was like dating her brother. I'm scared to try again. Scared you'll leave me like she did. But I have felt nothing but pain and hurt and then I met you and I didn't feel any of those things anymore. I felt something else...this need...to be with you." He said fire blazing in his eyes. I wanted to kiss him in that moment so bad. But I couldn't yet.

       "What if you imprint on somebody else after I give you everything? It would kill me." I said. "I know that, and I know first hand how bad that can be with Sam and Leah and honestly I can't promise you it won't happen because usually imprinting works out. But I can tell you that it is so freeing to be able to pick who you fall for. And I will do my best not to hurt you." He said.

       I don't know why, but I believed him. I nodded my head. "Okay." He grinned. "Just okay?" He asked. "Yea..." I laughed. "Why? should it be more?" I asked. "Oh right, we didn't kiss yet after that it's gonna be...POW." He said making a firework motion with his hand. "You're so sure of yourself." I said he shook his head. "I really shouldn't be, she was so young and I was waiting so I didn't kiss other girls..." He said bashfully.

       I grinned. "Then maybe kiss me like you need me." I said. The fire once again returned to his eyes. He lifted me up and I crashed my lips to his. I wrapped my arms around his neck and my legs around his waist. He gripped my thighs.

                        He pulled back out of breath. "Woah that was amazing, you're incredible." He said. "So are you." I said. "I mean you know, for a guy who doesn't kiss often." I chuckled. "Hey there is always room for improvement if we practice." He said setting me down. "You really think you need practice?" I asked in disbelief. "No, I just wanna keep kissing you." He said laughing. "I like it when you do that." I said. "Do what?" He asked confused. "Smile, laugh. It suits you." I said matter of factly. I took a seat on the couch. "You make me happy. It's a weird thing." He shrugged.

       "Being happy is...weird?" I asked. "Well, yea...I mean it's new. I haven't been happy for a while and honestly the first day I showed up here I almost chickened out and left." I gasped. "What? Why?" I asked. "You, you are so freaking gorgeous and you don't even know it. I just knew I was going to fall for you that day you came out in that ridiculously sexy diner uniform." I laughed embarrassed. "Why?!" "Because I saw how uncomfortable you were, and I don't know what it is but I have this need to save everybody?" He waved his hand in the air. "And I needed saving?" I asked. "Don't we all?" He asked.

       "I don't know, did you need saving?" I asked. "Oh for sure. And you saved me, you're still saving me." He said wrapping me up into his warm embrace. I was okay with that. He nuzzled into my shoulder. "So I guess you gotta tell your mom about us?" He asked. "Yep, that'll be fun. She won't be surprised though." I said. He laughed. "Oh so THAT'S what that conversation you and you mom were having. I knew she was giving you a look and you looked so mortified." He laughed harder. I shoved his arm. "Shut up. It was weird. We were just friends then." I said laughing.

       "I don't think you and I were ever just friends." He said thinking back. Maybe he was right. "Where did you go while you were gone?" I asked. "Spent some time in the woods. I ran back home to see my dad as well." I nodded. "How did that go?" "Ah, it was okay. He seems to know me better than myself sometimes. I feel bad knowing all the crap I put him through." "With your crushes you mean?" I asked. "Yea, I was really tore up the day my first love said she was getting married. I mean she was human. She was marrying a vampire." He said.

       "Wait, is she still a human?" I asked. "No, that's a long story. She was human when they got married. A few weeks later she found out she was expecting. And when she delivered the baby she died. That's when he turned her." I gasped. "Oh my gosh! That's so scary." I said. "Yea." "Wait wait, how long ago did this happen? It sounds...recent." I said.

       He chuckled. "Yea, since her baby was half human half vampire I guess she had a super fast pregnancy. And she, the child grew super quickly. It was almost hard to adjust to. Like at first she was a child and like a sister. And then she was much older and it was "oh you're supposed to be in love with her now." Why? Because my wolfology told me to??" He sputtered. "Yea that's crazy, I mean I agree it makes it easier but you're not really choosing." I said. "Right and I think what if my first love had chosen me? She would have never had a daughter for me to imprint on. Then what? We would have just been together and be happy?" He asked.

       "Would you have been happy? I mean her other boyfriend would have been hurt and he's a vampire." "Are you implying I couldn't have taken him? Because trust me, I could have." He frowned. I chuckled. "That's not what I meant, I meant he would be...hurting. Just like you. I don't know." I frowned. "No I understand. I wouldn't wish that on anybody. Even him." He groaned.

       "Okay okay fine. Get over here." He said pulling me to him. "I don't wanna talk about the past anymore. It doesn't matter. All that matters is the here and now." He said. "Well I'm okay with that." I said. The sun had started to set. "I should cook dinner." I said. "Mm really? Because I think starting with dessert sounds...good." He said raising an eyebrow. "Oh really?" I asked leaning down to kiss him. He ran his hands up my sides.

       I pulled back out of breath. "You know I was starting to think that girls didn't like what I had to offer. First girl her boyfriend was stick thin. And the second girl, her boyfriend wasn't to buff either." He shrugged.

       I slid my hands under his shirt. "No, just no. Do you know the first time I met you. I added muscles to the list of things I wanted in a guy." I said laughing. I was finally touching his abs and it was magic. I knew adding muscles was a good thing. He chuckled. "Really?" He asked. "Yea, it makes me feel safe." I said. "Then good." His stomach growled. "Okay, you are hungry. Let me go cook." I said getting up. 

      I threw some stuff into a pot and made soup. Then I made grilled cheese to go with it. "That smells delicious." He said coming over. He pulled out two cups and poured some tea into them setting them on the table. I filled the bowls with soup and put the grilled cheese on some plates. Once we finished eating it was late. "I should shower  and head to sleep. Work will be here early in the morning." I said.

       "Speaking of sleep...." He said. "Yea?" I asked. "Are you going to stay in there? Am I going to stay in here?" He asked. "Uhm...I don't know." I said waving my hand in the air. I disappeared into the bathroom.

       He had cleaned up the kitchen while I showered once I was dressed I poked my head out of my room. "I just...don't wanna rush this." I said. "I rushed it with Kyle we moved in after a few months of dating. Don't you think you're supposed to take it slow? Ya know date. You stay at your house me at mine." I said. "Well we skipped a step. You make it hard living with you though you know." He said.

        "I do? Why?" I asked. He laughed. "Because you're cheap." He said. "That's rude!" I said glaring at him. "No, I didn't mean it as a bad thing. You just don't buy new pajamas and those are see through and they are a little small in places. Bigger in others and they fall off of places. It's just not right." He chuckled.

       "See that proved my point. You should stay over there." I said. "Oh I'd definitely be all over you. Good point." He said nodding. He walked over and gave me a long and slow kiss goodnight. "Well if your sure." He said. "I...I'm...sure." I said. "You don't sound so sure." He said. "Yea that's because you're not wearing a shirt." I said. "Hey I thought you liked all this." He said. "Oh, I do." I said. "See ya in the morning." I said.