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***Gavin's POV***

"Let's just go to a Justice of the Peace." I tell Alexei as we take a shower. I told him last night; I need to be married to him. I want him to be my husband.

"Baby, I don't want that because I know you do not want that." Alexei gives me a look as if he sees something inside of me. He needs to get his eyes checked; it is not there. I don't need a wedding. I need him.

"For once, you are wrong." I kiss his shoulder on my way to washing his upper body.

"I don't think so. Not being cocky. You're rushing." Alexei tracks my hands as he washes my hair.

"Of course, I am. I want to be married. I made that very clear." I look up at him as if he is ridiculous. He is.

"We can have a wedding quickly." Alexei informs me.

"I don't think we can. I know me. I will go extra and it will grow out of hand. I don't want to do that. I just want to get you in front of a clergy; say I do and kiss you." I argue with him.

"There is a compromise to be made. Find it. For me. Please." Alexei rinses my hair as he pulls my lips to his. I groan knowing his manipulation will work. He always wins.

"I hate how much I love you." I pout. I yank his hair as I try to consume him. I love how much his kiss turns me inside out.

"Full of lies today I see." Alexei states. He pulls me into his arms, turning off the water and stepping out of the shower while I kiss his neck.

"Not lying. Fibbing." I clarify. Fibs don't hold as much weight. Everyone knows the scale.

"Mmmhmm." Alexei wraps a towel around me and places me on the counter.

"We have so much going on. If we keep waiting until everything calms down, we won't ever get married." I answer back honestly. I can't see a day coming where life hands us peace. I don't have the patience to pretend it will.

"I didn't ask you to." Alexei gives me his serious eyes. I love them. I love for them to close. I don't want to look at those things.

"Don't look at me like that. Lust or love. That's the only things I accept." I chastise him.

"Greedy." Alexei smiles. I see love. That's better.

"Give me something I can work with. I do better with rules." I remind him. He knows I am not a decided person. Not with him. I used up all my decisions getting through college. Now that Daddy will take care of me, I'm lazy.

"Six months." Daddy offers.

"Fuck that." I shake my head. I need something sooner.

"Rude." Daddy comes to stand beside me. I pull him in front of me. He needs to see how much this means to me.

"Sorry." I apologize. I don't want to piss him off.

"Three months." Alexei gives me a new option.

"Give me a date. What is something that is special to you?" I ask. I put my forehead against his chest. I don't want to go to the hospital. I want to spend all day lying with him, absorbing his heartbeats into my thoughts.

"Every single day since you kissed me that first time." Alexei smiles at me.

"Do better." I groan. He is as helpful as a fucking broken condom.

"The day I told you I love you." Daddy reminds me.

"Which time?" I smirk. I know now that he said it several times before I knew.

"In English." Alexei clarifies.

"Do you trust me?" I ask suddenly.

"You know that answer." Daddy rolls his eyes.

"Explicitly. Like enough that I would tell you a time and a place. You just show up and do as you're told." I explain.

"I do, Gavin. I will. Name the time and the place." Alexei grabs my chin and stares at me with that look that makes my heart threaten to shatter.

"I will have that for you by the end of the evening. We need to get dressed. I must go visit Joshua." I remind him.

"Tonight, we are coming home." Alexei warns me.

"Understood." I agree. I can't spend every night at that hospital. I can't neglect the man that takes care of me for the one who abandoned me. I won't do that again.

"I love you, Kitten." Alexei softly kisses my lips.

"I love you. Not Nik. You." I promise as I pull away.

"You must like when I lose control." Alexei growls.

"Fucking love it." I nod my head. He picks me up, squeezing me into his chest.

We go to our closet to get dressed for the day. I pull out my grey sweatpants. I want Alexei wound tight. I want him to tear these pants from my screaming body. I need him to destroy me. I am obsessed with him. My kink is Daddy.

"Don't put on underwear." Alexei croons out as he kneels in front of me. His lips attach to my stomach. I slide my hands into his hair, enjoying the kisses to my flesh.

"Go south." I groan out. Fuck the hospital, he can worship me for a while.

"We need to go." Alexei informs me. His hands slide around to my ass. He rolls my cheeks in his strong palms.

"We need church." I state as I slide my leg over his shoulder. I let my hard cock poke at his chin.

"The only worship I do is you." Alexei warns me.

"Then worship me, Daddy." I praise him. I slide my cock in between his lips, playfully rutting my hips so he must chase my steel.

"Take communion." I offer. I know I am going to hell. I am so okay with it.

Alexei growls as he sucks me into his mouth. I let my eyes close, enjoying the way he pays so much attention to what I need. I slowly pump my hips into his face.

"Daddy. My favorite human is you." I slide both hands around his face, holding him like the precious gift he is.

Daddy sucks, running his tongue up and down my dick. I squeeze my cheeks while my skin peaks with goosebumps. He is ineffable. I can't describe the way he breaks me.

Alexei takes me in and out of his mouth repeatedly. I can feel my body succumbing to the pleasure. I chase the high that comes with his reverence. My daddy is zestful as he brings me to my knees.

"I love you." I whisper. Words feel so weightless. Our love is fucking kismet. I want him to understand the value of his presence in my life.

"Без тебя я не могу существовать." I breathe as my body collapses over his form. My bones tremble as I hold onto him like the very life he is to me. Alexei is my reason for breathing.

"My heart. I cannot exist without you either." Alexei promises. He pulls me into his lap, lavishing me in his kisses.

"You are very emotional, Kitten. I enjoy it very much." Alexei states. He stares down over me with eyes shining. I absolutely adore the love he shows to me.

"I'm not sure if it is everything we keep going through or probably just a mixture of a bunch of stuff. I just know that it's overwhelming to keep it all inside. I just want to tell you. I want you to understand." I shrug. I have so many feelings that I have tried to keep contained. I feel as though I have accidentally broken the jar. I don't know if I can stop.

"I don't want you to hold them in. Anything you feel, I want to know. I don't care if you are angry, disappointed, obsessed or consumed. I want to understand everything about you, my heart. Please, let it all out. I can handle you." Alexei promises. He slips a shirt over my head while I happily allow him to take care of me.

"I want to suck your dick." I smile cheekily at him.

"You will. Tonight. I want to watch your ass all day in those pants. That way, when I get ahold of you, I am fucking famished." Daddy warns me.

"I will feed you." I promise. I pull his lips down to mine. He makes me so damn happy. His love is my nutrients. I must take it from him so that I can thrive.

"Get dressed. I will be holding you to that." Alexei warns me. His warning is fuel to my desire. I cannot wait to provide for my future husband.

"Come on, future husband." I thread my fingers with his as I pull him with me.

"Keep talking like that. I love it." Alexei confirms. I do too. However, I cannot wait to drop the future part. I want him to be connected to me in every way possible.

The ride to the hospital is not long. I spend my time staring at my everything. I'm not sure he understands how deeply my love for him runs. It's more than consuming, Our love devours me completely.

We get up to Joshua's floor quietly. I hold onto Alexei proudly. When I see Nik, I pull Alexei down for a kiss. Like the asshole I am, I make sure that the planet on my finger is shining brightly in Nik's line of sight. That guy has no chance with me. In another life, I still think I would find my Alexei. I'm certain I would search him out through every lifetime. I have been given Alexei, there is nothing or anyone who could hold a candle to the flames he creates in me. Our love is cosmic. Nothing else could compare.

"Thank you!" Alexei whispers as he pulls away from my lips.

"For?" I ask with a smirk. I wrap my arms around his waist, staring up at him like the god he is to me.

"I know what you did." Alexei winks at me. I swear my knees wobble. I am weak for Alexei Carson.

"Just putting my claim on you. Wouldn't want anyone to think you were available." I giggle as I slip my hand into his so we can get to the hospital room.

"No, we wouldn't want that." Alexei chuckles. I love it when he laughs. It is one of my favorite sounds.

"Ready?" I ask. Alexei nods while sliding his hand over the doorknob to Joshua's room. I sigh, knowing I will have to share my attention with my sleeping father for a bit.

Joshua better be damn lucky I am willing to split my attention at all for even a moment. No one deserves that. I am offering a damn gift.

"Still out." The nurse states as she turns around to greet us.

"No change?" I ask sadly.

"None that matter. Neither good nor bad. At least he is off the machines. That's a good thing." The nurse promises.

I feel like we are far passed wishful thinking. I don't know if Joshua will recover. How much time does he need to sleep? Fuck, it's not like he was raising kids and was worn out.

"I will watch him." I groan as I step forward. I shoo the nurse away.

"Must be nice to have someone take care of your ass, huh? Wake up. It's not funny. You laid down on the job for the last eight years. I think your vacation is over." I sit down in the chair beside him, grumbling because he won't wake up.

"We are choosing venom today, I see." Alexei laughs as he bends down over me to kiss my cheek. Daddy runs his hands through my hair.

"Being nice didn't work. Hitting him had no effect. Honestly, I'm thinking of smothering him with a pillow. Maybe a near death experience will bring him out of this shit." I snarl while I kick the bottom of Joshua's bed.

"My heart, do not get put in jail. There must be a compromise." Alexei says it seriously but his smile seconds my opinion. It must not be a bad idea.

"You hear that, Dad? I am contemplating over here. Would be a good time to stop me." I joke. Alexei covers my mouth with his hand. I bite him.

"Be nice, Kitten." Alexei warns as he slides his other hand around my throat.

"Squeeze. Show me what it feels like for death to knock." I huskily groan out. Fuck, he is going to make me hard.

Like the good boy he is, Alexei breathes deeply, sighing as his fingers close around my throat. I release a moan. Jesus, this man is fucking perfect. My cock hardens instantly. I am ready to go home.

"Harder." I choke out. He is already being rough. I want it brutal.

"Stop talking. I will drag you to the bathroom." The edge in Daddy's voice is what I love. Thank you, God. This demon is mine.

I sink my teeth into Alexei's hand, running my tongue over his palm as his fingers take my breath. I don't know why I don't stop. I know we can't do this. I want it though. I want Daddy to abuse me. Fuck. What is wrong with me?

Alexei picks me up by his hand that is choking me. My eyes water. His nostrils are flaring. He knows what I need. He drags me up his body and covers my lips with his as he consumes my breath. I scrape my cock over his abs. I am so damn horny, again.

"Be good, Baby." Alexei whispers as he slides me down his body.

"Yes, Sir. Daddy." I whimper. I will do whatever he says.

"Gavin?" A voice interrupts my concentration.

"Huh?" I ask. I look around, not knowing where the sound is coming from.

"He's awake." Alexei chuckles. He lifts his chin behind me. Heat flames my skin. How much did he hear?

"I thought you called me." Joshua admits as his scratchy voice filters through his tight lips.

"Earlier, Joshua." I clarify. He is not Daddy. Not anymore.

"Oh. You said yes, sir." Joshua argues with me.

"I was agreeing to Alexei." I laugh out.

"Not here to judge." Joshua cracks a smile.

"Good thing. I wouldn't care if you did." I shrug. I lean down and give Joshua a hug.

"Definitely got my attitude." Joshua admits.

"Thanks for that." Alexei grumbles. He loves it.

"Took you long enough to wake up. I almost put you out of my misery." I confess as I stand over my father.

"Thanks for giving me a chance." Joshua coughs out while attempting to speak more.

"I will get you some water." I offer. That is the least I can do.

I walk over to the table where his jug and empty cup sit. I pour him some before popping the straw into it. I take it to him, helping him to drink while Alexei holds his head up.

"That's better." Joshua smiles.

"Well, wanna catch up. We can go to the mall, out to dinner or maybe a baseball game." I joke.

"Yeah, let me grab my wallet." Joshua rolls his eyes.

"Baby, I'm going to go down to the cafeteria. I will let the nurses know he woke up. I will also inform our friends. You two talk." Alexei informs me as he kisses my head.

"You don't have to go." I shake my head. I don't want him to leave. I want him with me.

"I know. I will be back shortly. You have not had breakfast. I want to take care of that." Alexei smiles at me. I nod my head in acceptance. I know what he is doing.

"Thank you." I offer. I pull him towards me, kissing him before releasing him.

"Always, my heart." Alexei whispers before turning to leave.

"That man loves you." Joshua observes aloud.

"I love him more than anything." I confirm as well.

"That's all I could ask for." Joshua is smiling when I turn to look at him.

"We have been here every day. I wanted to talk." I start. I have a lot to say. We should probably get that going already.

"Well, I can't run." Joshua lets out a laugh.

"Look I don't want to sit here and hash out eight years' worth of pain. I want to give you an opportunity to be a father, if you want one. If not, that is up to you. I'm just offering." I decide to bounce over most of everything. I don't want to rehash it. I am in a great place with Alexei. I don't want to reopen wounds that might set me back.

"Gavin, I don't deserve that." Joshua shakes his head.

"No one asked who deserved what. Do you think I deserve that god of a man that is gathering me breakfast?" I ask with a roll of my eyes.

"I actually do. I hope you do as well. If you don't, then we need seriously discuss your self-esteem." Joshua chastises me.

"I guess that answers my question." I giggle.

"I love your laugh. It hasn't changed." Joshua sighs. He stares at me with a softness in his eyes.

"Mom says you two talk." I inform him.

"We do. A lot, if I am being honest. I cherish the good days." He admits easily.

"Me too. I wish she had more." That would be a fucking blessing. Too bad I used all my miracles waking his ass up.

"I would give anything if she could. Anything, Gavin." Joshua promises.

"Almost anything." I shrug. "I wouldn't trade Alexei for anything. Anything at all." I rebuttal. Sorry, not fucking sorry.

"As you shouldn't." Joshua states compassionately.

"Do you feel that way about her?" I ask curiously.

"Almost. There is one other person I wouldn't trade." Joshua speaks carefully.

"Two? Wow, someone is God's favorite." I joke. I smile.

"It's you, smart ass." Joshua glares at me.

"Oh." I breathe out. I wasn't expecting that.

"Did you get your stuff?" He asks me.

"Yeah. I don't want most of it." I shrug. "I don't want the money."

"You don't get a choice." Joshua informs me.

"Why is that?" I ask. I turn to look at him seriously.

"Your grandparents left it for you. I'm not dishonoring them by taking it. That belongs to you." He argues with me.

"I thought it was blood money, from you." I admit sheepishly.

"I wouldn't be stupid enough to believe you could be bought, Gavin. I wouldn't disrespect you that way." Joshua issues. I like that. It makes me feel glad that he respects me that much.

"Fine. I will keep it." I give in. What else am I supposed to do?

"You got a hell of a rock on that finger, kid." Joshua notices my engagement ring.

"Daddy, gave it to me." I smile while showing him my personal planet.

"Can you tell me his name? I prefer not to call him Daddy." Joshua chuckles out.

"Yeah, don't do that." I gag and giggle after. "His name is Alexei Carson. Mom didn't tell you?"

"I didn't ask. I didn't think it was my right to know." Joshua looks at me sadly.

"Ask me anything, Joshua." I offer. He is allowed to know.

"Any other boyfriends?" Joshua asks with a smirk.

"Not so much. I was a short-term dater. Alexei is different." I explain.

"I know. I woke up to him choking my son. You liked it." Joshua lets out a loud laugh.

"Yeah, if you want to be around me, get used to it. I am not quiet about my love." I shrug. I have no fucks to give.

"I wouldn't want you to be. I will get used to it." Joshua rolls his eyes again. I see where I get that shit.

"So, you plan on being around?" I ask with a smirk.

"I do." Joshua nods his head.

"Good. Then, how about we eat some breakfast and find out how long you have to be in this place." I decide. I can smell Alexei. He is standing somewhere close.

"DADDY!" I yell loudly.

"Smelled breakfast?" Alexei asks as he walks further into the room.

"Smelled forever." I smile as I reach for him.