Just a fore warning I'm not going to hurt myself because no one would forgive me.

I'm just tried and broken and- tired so so tired, I don't know what to do, I feel useless,  like a burden, empty and I so want to grabnone of the knives but- I can... it's to much to move, my legs are weak, arms are heavy and don't bring in that last line. Maybe it's just my demons talking, maybe not... honestly I feel like there's onlynone thing keeping me going, and honestly its the one I write to I'm this.

Anyways writing this has givin' me time to think, and I do feel a bit better. But it will always be there.

MavDistortion love you always