CHAPTER FOUR:
HANGOVER

I was sitting on my bed with my guitar, playing random notes just to calm myself down, when all of a sudden someone knocked on my bedroom door. With a heavy sigh I got up and opened the door with distaste. I was still grieving and I didn't exactly want to see anyone or anything.

“What do you want?” I barked at Mark in annoyance.

His shoulder sagged and I could notice that he just felt defeated.
“It's been two days already, please, come and eat something,” he pleaded.

I shook my head furiously and closed the door, “I'm not hungry. Now, go away!” I yelled. “Leave me alone!”

I slid down the door and landed on my butt. I brought my knees to my chest and took a deep breath as the warm tears slid down my cheeks. I didn't want this, I never asked for this. He rejected me. How could he ever do that? I feel like the other half of my heart was torn apart and was thrown in a dustbin or something. How could he just do it so easily?

It has been two days. Two days since my mate rejected me. Does he have any idea how it hurts? Does he even know how to love your mate? Does he feel the same like me now? No, he probably doesn't. As Mark told me, he probably is with one of his sluts, enjoying life like there is no tomorrow.

'Why didn't you accept the rejection, Alexandrite? I know it would be painful, but at least we would be able to run away or something. We could have survived. I know you need your mate right now, but he doesn't like us. Can't you see that? This is the second time I got hurt... I hate this feeling, Alex.' I cried to my wolf.

'I know that you hate seeing me like this, and trust me, I can't bear it to see you like this either, but its really hard to accept the rejection of your mate.' She whimpered a bit.

I didn't communicate further. I just stayed there, staring at the wall, filling the empty room with nothing but sobs.

“Faith, baby, open the door,” I heard the familiar voice say.

I pursed my lips, trying to prevent any sound. “No..
I don't want to talk to anyone...” I cried, a hiccup escaping my mouth every now and then.

“Please? For the sake of me?” his voice was soft and contained nothing but concern.

I groaned and stood up. I then unlocked the door and opened it, so he could walk inside. I ignored his gaze as I locked the door behind me and immediately stalked to the bed. Skylar followed me and sat in front of me, Indian style.

“What do you want, Sky?” I asked through gritted teeth, still ignoring his gaze, but he pushed up my chin with his index finger, forcing me to look him in the eye.

I noticed an emotion flash through his eyes, but he did a good job hiding it. “Look, I know its hard for you right now. I absolutely have no idea what you are feeling right now, but I'm sure you feel like shit and you also look like it,” he joked and I glared at him, but he continued anyways. “Look, I know the past hurt you a lot, and I know that you're still going trough a lot now. But you have to try to move on.”

I felt those words like a knife to the heart. “Its not that easy as it seems, Sky! You know that I got rejected by my mate, right? You know how much that hurts, right? It feels like someone ripped my heart in two pieces! Its hurting...” I cried. I rested my head on his chest as soon as he grabbed my head to hug me. “Why did he do this to me? You know how much it hurts?”

“I can't say I do, but I can imagine what it feels like,” he stroked my hair soothingly. “Please, at least try to move on...”

“Faith, can you please open the door?” I suddenly heard Mark's heavy voice from outside the room.

I didn't want to open the door. I didn't want Mark to see me hurting like this, but Skylar got up and opened the door for Mark anyways. Once the door opened, Mark ran towards me with his werewolf speed and kneeled down in front of me as I cried. He tilted my chin to make me look at him and that's when I lost it. I jumped on him, hugged his neck and sobbed on his shoulder.

“I heard everything through Skylar,” he said in a soft voice.

I didn't care if he heard that Alec rejected us. Its important that he's here, with me and that's all that mattered to me right now.

“He rejected me, Mark. He rejected me.” I cried.

“Hey, hey, hey. Please don't cry. Please?” he hugged me tighter.

“Its rea—”

Before I could finish my sentence, I felt a sudden stinging pain in my stomach. I yelped in pain and dropped to the floor, clutching onto my stomach, constantly groaning in pain. What is happening to me?

“What happened, Faith?” Mark started freaking out.

“Mark, Sky... The pain... My stomach...” I panted. “Please make it go away!”

“What happened to her!?” I heard Mark shout before I blacked out.

*_*_*

I opened my eyes, blinking a few times since my vision was all blurry. I looked around and realized that I was in my own room. I sat up, but everything started to spin and I got a stinging pain in my head. What happened?

“Thank god you're okay! I was worried sick!” Mark's loud voice startled me.

He dashed over to me and kissed me all over my face.

“What happened?” I questioned and his expression went from worried to disgusted.

What?

“Please tell me what happened,” I begged.

“I'm sorry Faith, but Alec mated with someone else,” he said in a soft tone. As soon as he said that, I felt my heart drop into my stomach.

I got up from the bed, not even paying attention to anything Mark had to say.

“I need a run. Bye. I'll be back by dinner, and if I don't, don't worry. I'll be back tomorrow morning.” I walked away before he could say anything.

I ran into the forest and hid behind a tree to take off my clothes. Once they were off, I tied them around my ankle and shifted into my beautiful white wolf, which is pretty rare. I wonder why my fur is like that, but I love it anyways.

I looked around, to see if the border was near. Luckily, I had enough space to run, maybe for like two hours. I started to run as fast as my cute little paws could bring me. Alexandrite, you really need to calm the hell down, I thought as I ran and ran and ran.

I stopped by a beautiful waterfall with a cave behind. I walked into the cave in my wolf form and looked around. The cave was cozy, I must say and there wasn't any danger around either, so I sat down as I watched the water fall into the lake, making little bubbles in the water.

I lay down and rested my head on my paws, looking at the smoothing falling water. I don't know when I fell asleep, but I was sure as hell that I got a nightmare from the past.

I jerked myself up and ran out of the cave. I walked behind a tree and shifted. I wore my clothes and made my way to Sophia's house. I banged on the door, till a sleepy Sophia opened the door, looking at me pretty shocked.

“Are you home alone?” I asked.

She nodded, “Yeah.”

I nodded and walked into the house. I opened a door and it looks like it was her cousins room, which is freaking big. Is this girl a billionaire or something?

I walked in the room. Since her cousin's a guy, I'm pretty sure he has some alcohol in here!

I searched the whole room, but found nothing. “What are you doing?” Sophia asked.

I ignored her and walked into another room, which looked like hers exactly, because she has one big poster of herself hanging on the freaking wall! I searched her whole room, but nothing.

Hey, I didn't look in the cupboard.

“What the hell are you searching for!? You made my room look like some hyper toddler just got candy and danced all night long in here.”

I still ignored her and continued searching for some alcohol. I really need it right now. I threw all her clothes on the floor and spotted something shiny. My eyes grew wider when I saw a bottle of vodka hidden in her cupboard. I grabbed the bottle and turned to her.

“You drink?” I smirked at her.

She rubbed the back of her head nervously and chuckled uncomfortably, “Yeah.. I pretty much stress a lot.”

“Well, I'm going to finish it. I really need it though. I got rejected.” I sighed.

“Hey, I don't think you should drink. You're underaged. And I don't think your brother will like it.” she argued.

I didn’t listen to her and drank the alcohol directly from the bottle. I coughed a little, but took more gulps as the liquor burned my throat.

“Um, your brother is going to kill you!” Sophia yelled.

“I'm not going home today.” I said with a straight face.

“What!? Where are you going to stay then!?” she yelled even harder.

“Calm down woman!” I yelled back. “I found a place, and even if I die, I don't give a single fuck.”

By the way I was yelling, you could say that I was really drunk already. I never yelled at anyone like that.

“No! You're wrong!” she took the bottle of vodka from my hand —which was almost empty— and threw it in the dustbin.

She dragged me into this huge kitchen and made me sit down at the dining table. Once I was seated comfortably, she walked around the counter to the kettle and made me some strong coffee, to sober me up a little bit.

“Why did your mate reject you?” she asked all of a sudden.

When she asked me that question, my head automatically snapped in her direction. She saw that I was uncomfortable with her asking me that question, but before she could say anything, I cut her off.

“I don't know. Why would he do that? He doesn't even know me...” I sobbed.

Suddenly, I felt sober again.

“I don't know. Who is your mate?” she questioned further.

“The Alpha of the Blood Moon pack. Alec freaking Ryder,” I scoffed.

She gasped in surprise, “Well, I did expect that for his mate, but I would never have wished that it was you.” she placed a hand on my upper arm.

“What do you mean you expected that for his mate?” I squinted my eyes.

Her eyes grew wide, “Because he's a man-whore!” her voice raised. On one side, I wanted to slap her across the face, but on the other side, I had to listen to her, because she wasn't wrong.

“Oh, and I didn't attend the party when my brother became the Beta of the pack. I didn't dare to see him again. What a good sister I am,” I said sarcastically.

“Don't feel bad. Come on, I have a spare room, you can stay here tonight,” she offered.

“Thank you so much...”

*_*_*

I opened my eyes, but quickly closed it when the sun light hit me right in the face. I rolled over to the other side of the king-sized bed and carefully opened my eyes, trying not to get blind again.

I got out of the bed and opened the bedroom door. I walked into the kitchen of Sophia's house, where she was cooking breakfast.

“Good morning,” she smiled.

“Morning. You have any aspirin? My head hurts like a bitch,” I scoffed.

“Yeah sure,” she walked to the table in front of her and grabbed an aspirin for me. She poured a little bit water for me in a cup and I quickly drank the medicine.

I then took a shower, brushed my teeth, and ate some breakfast. I gave Sophia a quick goodbye and lots more 'thank you's' before running off into the woods. I stripped behind a tree, shifted into my wolf form, and ran as fast as I could.

I ran to the waterfall and went into the cave, just sat there, thinking about my life before setting off again. I was just running by and I saw a few rogues across the border, just sitting there, watching us. I was confused at first, but then remembered Mark telling me about them.

I decided not to do anything and instead, I ran home. I shifted back behind a tree and knocked on the door three times before Mark opened. As soon as he opened the door, he pulled me into a bone crushing hug, making me hug back instantly.

“Sorry, but we have to go to the pack house.” he said it all in one breath.

My jaw clenched. “Why?”

“Because its Stacy's birthday and she ordered me to bring you along,” he shot me an apologetic look.

I sighed and stepped inside. “Okay, then I shall sacrifice my heart for you,” and with that, I walked back into the room, not waiting for him to respond.

I took another shower, cause I was sweating heavily from all the running. I lay down on my bed as I thought of my mate over and over again. I wish all of that didn't happen to me in the past.

I wish I could be happy with my mate. Then suddenly the thought crossed my mind.

What if he knew my past and he rejected me because of that?

No, it can't be that. Only Mark and Sky know about my past. No one else. I really hope it isn't that.

I looked at the scars on my pulse. I wish it didn't happen. I wish my life wasn't ruined like that. I wish I could convince my mate that I'm not how he thinks I am.

I'm not pathetic. It just happened without me even knowing it. I wish Mark and I were there, where we really are supposed to be.