Amanda's POV

Dream

I again walked down the endless hall way. All he people I've killed were lined up  against each side of the wall. All the people I lost were behind me and all the people I care about were infront of me.

'Amanda' my mother's voice called out I tried to reach her but I couldn't.

'Amanda!' This time it was my father's his voice was deep soothing.

'Amanda ' aunt Natalie called they started to fade away.

'No don't leave me please.....I need you" I ran towards them but they disappered before I got there. I turned to he people infront of me.

'Sam?' She's didn't anwer she just looked at me in disgust.

'Marcus? Edward' No one answered.

'Please....say something. Say I'm ugly say I'm not worth it but please just don't shut me out. I'm sorry okay I'm sorry I'm.......sorry' I dropped to my knees seeing as they disappeared as well.

This time it was Tyler and Ava who appeared. They both looked hurt and disappointed.

'You lied to me!" I flinched at his harsh tone.

'I'm sorry' I whispered.

'I trust you and you trun out to be the one thing that everyone hates and fears. The thing that kills innocent children with no remorse. No one can love you you a monster' it hurt so much coming form him.

'I'm sorry. I wish I could take it back but I can't' I then turned to Ava.

'Do you still love me' she shook her head but said the one thing that made my heart shatter it felt like my heart was being riped out.

"Your the true monster and I hate you" tear fogged my vision. I had no one to turn to....I was alone and this feeling was scary. All went black until the silhouette of a person could be seen.

It starred laughing and began walking in my direction. I backed away in fear.

"Oh Amanda did you really think I wouldn't find you. Did you think I would let you move on to happiness I know your still broken and deep down you know I'm right. Yet still here you are facing the world head on trying to be tough like your mother...like your father" it was Liam.

"Leave me" I whispered curling into a ball.

"No I can't you see I need you broken. I need to take everything away from you. I need to crush you" I didn't listen to him I just can't think of a good reason to move on.

"Tell me Amanda what happened while you were in that hell hole. How many lashes did you get? How many scars are left on your skin? How many times have you been raped by your so called family? How many times have you had nightmares? How many time-" I cut him off.

"Shut up!" He only laughed.

"No I'm need to know. How many times did this happen? How many times did you pay for even making the slightest sound? How many times were you beaten for not doing something right?"

"Shut up!" He didn't listen.

"Your the Satan's Spawn but do they really know the real you. The broken you. The you that can't sleep at night fearing she will have another nightmare" he was right.

"You dont deserve to live" I shook my head.

"Everyone deserves to live " I stated softly.

"Everyone except you" it all went black all I heard were the screams of he people I cared about begging for help but I couldn't. Samantha. Marcus. Carlos. Cassandra. Cameron. Edward. Nicholas.......Tyler all asking for help but I can't.

"Monster!"

I jolted out of bed sweating like crazy. Looking around trying to calm my rapid heart beat. I noticed I was in a different room. All the event of yesterday came crashing down like a brick wall.

I miss waking up to Tyler. I miss seeing his bady blue eyes. I miss him calling me bady doll. I miss him.

I got out of bed and walked over to the adjoining bathroom to look in the full legal mirror. My hair was a birds nest and my eyes were droppy.

"Good morning Miss Reaper" I quickly turned around to see Jackson standing here wearing an assassin's uniform.

"Deaths whisperer" he nodded. I knew he would come back it was about time he came back.

"You seem tired did you have a bad dream. Or did you have a fight with Mr Alpha" I growled at him.

"Just leave " I stated still sleepy.

"Oh I will. I just have to tell you something. Manda Panda." My eyes widened.

"You wouldn't dare " he laughed.

"I would" and with that he disappeared.

I took a quick shower and got dressed then brushed my teeth. I was going to work but I had to go to the pack house first.I walked out the door but stopped seeing two muscular males standing outside my door.

"Why are you here?" I asked annoyed.

"Alpha has ordered us to stay by your side. We must not let you out of our sight" is he serious. Well then no work I'll just call in late. I have to teach these two a lesson.

"Okay then let's go quickly I need to train the pack" they looked confused but nodded. I took up my handbag taking out my keys then walked out the door.

As I approached my Lamborghini I could hear them whispering amongst them selves. Like 'Is that hers'. 'She's stealing the alpha's car'.

I rolled my eyes opening of the door then signaled them to join which the did. Once I started the car we were of the the Blue moon pack. I was over the speed limit but who cared. The car dashed through the forget like a red blur. Once the pack house was in veiw I slowed down then stopped at the gate.

"Name and reason for entering" I rolled my eyes.

"Amanda Black your trainer" the guards nodded then let my through. I parked the car near the pack house then came out and waited on my guards who were all wobbly.

"Is that even legal?" One asked.

"Where did you get your license " I shrugged.

"I bought it" I said sarcastically.

I then walked through the door but stopped at gaged at the sight infront of me. My best friend making out with my brother. Oh my god!

"My poor eyes " I used a hand to cover my eyes as the blushed madly.

"Amanda...um...you weren't supposed to see that. You...um....why aren't you at work" I started at my best friend in shock.

"I came here to train I called in late. But I wish I went straight to work" they blushed even more if possible.

"I can explain" I stopped them.

"Your mates just next time stay in the bedroom" they nodded then stood up.

"Wait you said your training now" I nodded taking of my blazer. Then stretched my muscles.

"I'll get ready" I followed Sam upstairs where sent lent me one of her sweatpants to go with my tanktop. She wore a sports bra with sports shorts and nikes like me.

We both rushed outside and called the entire pack to come train. My 'bodyguards' were there as well.

"Okay! I'm Amanda  your trainer sent by the council to help train you seeing you have a serious problem with rouges. Seeing I wasn't here before I need to know what I'm working with. Now who's first?" My bodyguards looked on edge.

"Me" I looked to see Jacob, Joshua's brother stepping forward.

"Okay but are you sure?" I asked. He smirked and nodded.

"I'll go easy on you" I laughed.

"No I'll go easy on you" he looked confused but shook it off.

I waited for him to charge which he did. He tried tackling me but I ducked then used my foot to kick him in the shin. He stood up straight and grolwed.  Charging at me again this time he went for my neck but I knew better. I twisted my hand behind my back while dogging the attack so I could catch his fist.

"Your trying too hard and your too predictable. But I'm in a hurry. Stop holding back and let the beast out" I said smirking.

He growled and charged at me shifting in the process. I simply stepped out the way and grabbed his tail pulling him back. I then elbowed him in the back and kneed him in the stomach. I dropped him and dusted my self off. It was getting really late.

"I'll be back tomorrow" was all I said before walking inside. I then put on my pantsuit. It was grey with a white undershirt. After fixing ,my hair and putting on my shoes I walked out with my bag in hand.

I went over to the car and the bodyguards followed. This is going to be a long day.