"I guess always isn't forever after all."
-Klaus Mikaelson

6.

My heart stops as I take notice of him. He looks older, I don't know how that's possible, it was only over a week last time I saw him. He has cuts and bruises adorning his face and he looks very weak. He hears me call for him and he looks to me, almost grateful but then he turns back to what he was doing. He's afraid of them, of course. I look to Bellamy, eyes pleading. He already knows what I want to do.

I get that the bomb is what will essentially save the human race but there's people here who are our people. My dad is here, I can't leave him. We barely had ay time together and I know a little part was because he didn't approve of Bellamy.

"This is the plan." He says and we all listen intently.

Once Miller had disconnected the machine we all grab the handles to carry it. Ice Nation watches us as we walk out of the room. I see my dad's face and he looks like he just lost all hope. As well as the little girl who is just standing there watching us leave, close to tears.

"Woah, watch it, Miller." Monty says, "set it down."

We set the machine down as part of the plan and Monty starts clicking a few things. I hear the Ice Nation guards question what we are doing amongst each other.

"Now!" Monty yells and we quickly spring into action. I punch the woman to my right, push her against the wall, knock her legs out from underneath her and then bang her head against my knee.

"Kill them all!" She screams as we all run back into the room and shut the big vault door as the explosion goes off. I turn around to see the leader charging straight towards us, me more specifically. I start to duck as soon as he brings his axe back and swings it at my head. Before I can do anything Bellamy pushes him against the table and Miller quickly steps in and helps Bellamy get him on the floor holding him down.

Miller and Bellamy continue punching him but Bryan makes them stop.

"No, this isn't your kill. This is Monty's kill." Bryan says. I look to him confused as does everyone else.

Monty steps forward, "what are you talking about?"

"This is the man that killed your father."

My blood boils looking at the man. I look to Monty to see what he's going to do. If he kills him, I wouldn't be surprised. Monty has changed a lot, but something tells me he won't do it.

"You don't have to do this." Bellamy tells him. Monty goes to pick up the axe and stands by them.

"Yeah, I do." He swings the sword but turns around and starts breaking the chains that was connected to all of the slaves. The people get loose and now I see why he did it, everyone starts attacking the leader. I knew Monty wouldn't do it, in a way, this is the best suitable punishment for the guy.

"Taylor." I turn around to see my dad rushing down the stairs.

"Dad!" I run to him and hug him tight. Tears spring to my eyes, I didn't know if he was dead or alive and although this is a bad circumstance to find him under, I'm glad he's still breathing.

"What happened?" I ask as Bellamy comes to stand next to me. He nods at my dad and my dad nods back.

"I was about to enter the medical until one day and I saw what Jackson and Jaha were doing to Abby. I couldn't do anything for her because she had already taken the chip by the time I got there but no one saw me witnessing the whole thing. So, I quickly gathered some stuff and snuck out through the weak spot in the fence through the back of camp. I was just sleeping in the woods for maybe three days when these guys came out of nowhere, knocked me out, and then we came here." He explains. I'm glad he got out in time, who knows how he would've ended up if he was chipped.

"It's gone, dad. The city of light is gone. Clarke destroyed it. We're okay." I felt like I was lying. In a way, I was. We were okay for now but with radiation coming and now having set off the only thing that could've helped us, we were slowly running out of viable options.

"Yeah, it's over. Let's go home."

As we get back to Arcadia Harper and Bellamy help everyone off the truck as I stand by with my dad.

"I know I just got back but when were you going to tell me?" My dad asks. I look up at him confused.

"Tell you what?"

"Your finger, Taylor. I noticed it as soon as I saw you." My ring. The ring Bellamy gave me. The ring that stands for my engagement to my fiance.

"I...I don't know..." I trail off not knowing exactly what to say.

"Sweetie, it's okay. I didn't like him at first but after that fight we had I started to see how much he loves you just by how he looks at you. I remember having that with your mother. She was the center of my universe, as were you of course. But I can see he feels deeply about you. He's also going to be a great father." He nods in Bellamys direction and I see Bellamy helping the little girl that gave us the note down from the truck. Once she's on the ground she hugs Bellamy and doesn't let go. He brings her closer to him and rubs her back. My heart melts at the scene.

"He will be, won't he." I smile.

"I love you and I just want you to be happy. Bellamy makes you happy." He pulls me into another hug and I close my eyes and rest my head against his chest.

The sweet moment only lasts for so long before the thought pops into my head.

I have to tell him.

"Dad, there's something I need to tell you." I pull away from the hug.

I had explained everything to him. Even the fact that the generator was suppose to save us and now from what Raven told me, only one hundred people can survive in alpha station. He was worried but after Clarkes speech he started to get to work. He obviously knew Clarke was lying when she said everyone could live inside the ship but he said he needed to help so I could get the chance to live.

I was walking back to mine and Bellamy's room to get my gun and other jacket. The one I was in was covered in blood and dirt, I just wanted it off.

As I was passing the food unit I hear Bellamy with Raven and Clarke. I was about to enter before I hear them talking and decide to just listen in considering I can imagine Clarke and Raven aren't too happy with our choice to bring back the people instead of the generator.

"We'll be living on one meal a day." Clarke says.

"Try one meal every other day, thanks to you. Think you can live off that?" Raven questions Bellamy.

"I won't have to because I won't be inside." My heart drops hearing that. What is he talking about?

"Yes, you will." Clarke states.

"No. Taylor will be inside because she's smart and resourceful and she's a freaking doctor. But she's pregnant. She counts as two and to make sure they both are in here when the doors close I can't be in here too. You don't need me." Tears start falling as I hear his words. I feel like all I ever do is cry now. The pregnancy has actually turned me into a huge emotional mess. I also blame Bellamy because he's either doing something really sweet or something really stupid.

But saying he's not going to be in here? How can he say that? How can he ask me to marry him when he won't even be here with me? I can't live without him, he knows that. This baby needs him too.

"Bellamy, we do need you. Taylor and that baby need you more importantly. You will be inside." Clarke says.

"Does that mean you made the list?" Rave asks her. I'm guessing the list of the one hundred people who get to stay.

She sighs, "no."

I don't think I can stay here any longer without sobbing. I walk down the halls and I don't stop at my door. I keep walking till I get to the door I was looking for. I knock and wipe my eyes even though tears keep falling.

"Taylor?" Jasper questions me. He looks a little better than last time I saw him.

"T, what's wrong?" He pulls me inside, shuts the door, and pulls me into a hug as I sob into his chest. I explain as best as I can what Bellamy said. My heart literally aches. It feels like he's dead already.

"Taylor, you need to calm down." He wipes my tears away and looks into my eyes.

"You and Bellamy are suppose to live forever with your baby. That's how it's going to go. He will be inside and you will live and love for a long time. He thinks he has no other choice but he does. Have you talked to him about it?" He asks me as we are seated on the couch.

"No, I'm just so angry at him." I sigh and cuddle up to Jasper.

"You need to tell him how you feel, T."

"I know, but not right now." I close my eyes as I fall asleep to Jasper rubbing my back and telling me everything will be okay.

When I had woken from my hour nap, Jasper told me I probably should go get food and then talk to Bellamy. But even that nap didn't make me less angry. It just made me numb to my feelings for a while.

But here I was in our room having just finished eating some bread and meat I got from the cafeteria. I wanted to be alone so I came here. It's short lived when Bellamy walks in.

"Where have you been? I've been looking for you." He says and comes to sit next to me on the couch. I don't know what to say or if I should even say something now but thinking about what he said makes my blood boil and I know I can't contain it.

"You found me." I say with no emotion.

"Princess, what's wrong?" He tilts my face to look at him. His brows furrow.

"Have you been crying? What's wrong? Is it the baby?" He questions. I pull away from his grip and toy with the ring on my finger. I slowly slid it off and hold it up to him.

"Why did you give me this?" I ask him. He looks at me confused but answers my question.

"Because I want to marry you."

"Why? I ask.

"What? What do you mean why? Because I love you."

I can't help but laugh a little.

"When you gave me this ring and asked me to marry you, you were making a promise to love me every day, to be with me everyday. But are you really going to be with me?" I question as tears fall down again.

"Of course, where is all this coming from? I'm here with you right now. I promised."

"Don't promise me tonight without tomorrow too." I bite my lip as he wipes my tears away.

"Baby, I-"

"If you're not on the list...If you're not in here, I don't want to be inside either when the radiation comes." His face changes completely as he now realizes what I'm talking about.

"Taylor, no, I just-"

"You just what? You just want to abandon us? You give me the ring and want to marry me but for what?  Why even love me if it's not going to matter in a few months? Why, Bellamy?" I stand up yelling.

"Because I love you! That's why I want you and the baby to be safe and have a shot at life."

"Why even continue this, then? If you're just going to die. What's the fucking point. Maybe you can even screw that girl who seems to be all over you. Maybe I can go to Jack's room tonight. It all doesn't matter anyway, does it?" I would never sleep with Jack or go back to him for any reason. I love Bellamy and I always will which is why I'm trying to explain to him this way.

"Don't say that! It matters! It matters because I've told you that you are the only person I could ever love. And I'm willing to sacrifice my life in order for you and the baby to live better, to live at all!"

"It wouldn't be living without you. Without you it would just be surviving. I don't want to survive on my own without you by my side." I whisper. I have nothing else to say and I needed space now. I grab my jacket and head out the door. He doesn't stop me.

I make my way back towards Jaspers room but a pain in my stomach stops me from walking any further.

A/N:

Omg! What's happening!?

(There may have been a song lyric in here somewhere, think you can find it? It's off a new album and I loved the lyric so much I had to fit it in.)

I gave you guys so many cute chapters of them but now I give you this sad and dark chapter. It sounds almost cruel to say but I loved writing this chapter, I love writing drama or just emotional scenes in general.

Do you think Bellamy is being stupid or do you think what he's doing is noble and sweet? I know Bellamy said in the show he was not going to be inside so I knew I had to incorporate that because that's just Bellamy being Bellamy.

As some of you know from reading my authors notes I put up every chapter, I'm in college. And my schedule has bee pretty crazy, I have so much work to do and it's not hard it's just a lot so I've been busy doing assignments and studying like crazy. So I'm sorry I haven't posted in 2 weeks. Please forgive me.

I really appreciate you all commenting and continuing to read this series and my other books. It means the world to me, honestly. I love reading all the comments. Please don't hesitate to comment or ask me anything!

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