Regrets

It's been...

Glob knows...

Another thousand years..?

It's been,

Oh so very long...

But I still...

I still can't get over you...

I know.

I know I'm stupid for leaving.

I'm stupid for running away.

Away from you,

Away from her,

Away from everyone and anyone.

Fionna...

She had invited me to your wedding...

And I did come...

But you never saw...

You didn't notice...

You were so happy with her...

I-...

I couldn't-...

It hurt to see you be so...

So happy with someone else...

But at least...

You were happy,

Right?

Yea...

probably...

That tuxedo looked so good on you...

If It was me,

And not her,

I would've told you a million times...

How beautiful you were.

If it were me,

And not her,

I would've

Swayed with you all around the dance floor,

Like you were with her that day...

I know I said I'd never return,

But,

For Fionna's sake,

My best friends sake,

I attended the wedding...

But like always,

I was hidden.


I really wanted to attend her funeral too,

But I knew you'd look so sad,

So vulnerable...

I...

I wouldn't have been able to help myself from taking you away.

Somewhere safe,

Somewhere better than there...

Though,

I do meet up with fionna regularly,

Not in the way I would've liked to...

It gets kinda lonely taking to her grave stone...

Well,

At least we can both relate to loving you...

Holding you...

Kissing you...

Glob...

I miss you so lumping much!

I miss you!

I miss her!

I miss us!

I miss all those 'boys night outs'!

All the times we spent as good friends...

Those times where we could look at each other,

And smile...

Not frown in displeasure or regret.



A year back from now,

I met someone.

I thought I could forget you for her,

But,

You're irreplaceable...

No matter how hard I tried...

How many moves I made...

How many times I flirted...

I just-...

My heart just always craved for you...

She was never really in to me that way though,

Kind of reminded me of how fionna and I used to act...

Now that I think about it...

Their hair are awfully similar,

But hers has a very light touch of red.

The only thing reminding me that she wasn't fionna...

fionna's hair was the most gorgeous golden, blond colour in all of AAA...

I remember that.

I also remember how much she loved to adventure,

How much she loved food,

And how sweet and caring she was...

Of course, not as much as you.

Both figuratively and literally.

And I know,

No matter how much she resembles fionna,

She could never be her,

Not even be her daughter since she never had one.

She had a son.

Who's grand children are now ruling your sweet kingdom.

I wonder where you are, my sweet prince...

What you're doing right now...?

Did you find someone else after fionna...?

Or was she your only true love...

Like you,

Of mines?



The fionna look alike usually hung out with me daily,

Adventuring,

Playing,

Or talking how big of a dick her granddad was.

She was a princess to a kingdom,

I didn't bother asking which one.

I didn't really care.

Her parents had passed away and her granddad was the only one who took care of her.

She wanted the throne,

But the old geezer wouldn't step down from 'his' throne.

What a bastard.

"He's long past due his time.

Why won't he just die?! Ugh!"

"The old farts been crawlin' up my ass again,

Can't keep his nose in his own business.

Asking me where I've been and shit.

I'll go and be where I wanna."

"If he won't let me be queen then fuck him, I'll do whatever I want then" that usually meant she'll break a few laws and rules.

You tell him!

Even though I've never met him, he sounds like a big ass hat.

No ones as sweet as you anymore...

No one cares for their people like you...


But one day.

One very unusual and odd day,

She didn't speak foul words for him...

She came and stopped me from saying anything bad too.

"Hey, man... don't say that... he is just worried for me..."

Where's this coming from?

"He's gone through a lot..."

Oh, really?

'Haven't we all.'

"Shush, Marshall. His back stories kind of like yours... but different..."

Oh?

Now she has my full attention.

"He loved someone, like REAAALY loved someone.

He'd tell 'em that everyday...

But then...

Things happened and he had to call their relationship off...

It broke his heart to do so...

But he had no other choice at that time...

He was being naive and he's suffering for it now...

His so called lover said that he still loved him..."

'Bull shit.'

No one still loves you after you've broken up...

Except me...

"And so when he went to get him back,

He walked away from him.

He left him like that.

Not even giving him a second chance...

Shattering the heart that remained."

'Is this boring story over?'

"Interrupt me one more time and I'll cut your balls off and feed them to you"

Yikes...

"As I was saying,

He then went and had to marry someone he didn't even love romantically and live with her for the rest of his life!"

I don't know why she's telling me this.

'I don't care.'

"Well... you should! I want you two to meet up!"

'No.'

Nope.

Never.

Nu-uh.

Not happening.

'I don't care about him'

"But he's my family"

Since when did she call him her family?

"Please!"

After months of begging,

I couldn't take it.

I agreed to her stupid request and waited in the forest like she told me too.

And waited.

And waited.

With a sigh,

I gave up and was bout to leave when I heard my name. I turned around to see the same girl but she was with someone.

Probably the old geezer.

He was pretty tall for being old though...

He was in a large magenta robe,

His head and half his face covered by its hood.

No.

I-it can't be...

I ran away from you!

Why'd you come...?

Did you know about this?!

She planned this didn't she?!

I wanted to run.

Run as far as I could.

Again.

But...

I couldn't.

I was frozen in mid flight.

My eyes pierced holes in to your head.

You didn't look up.

Do you still hate me...?

Do I still disgust you...?

Did she force you to come just like I was...?

'Gumball....'

It seemed as the whole world fell silent.

Quiet.

Nothing moved.

Nothing made a sound.

Even the raging winds had stopped.

Tension surrounding us.

Drowning us.

In frustration,

Fear,

Sadness,

Regrets...

Your head tilted up and looked at me,

With those...

With the tender gaze I longed for.

With the eyes filled with love,

Care,

Hope,

And fascination.

Regardless of all those things,

it shone the most in sadness,

Sorrow,

And guilt.

Guilt of making me suffer.

Guilt of making the stupid mistake.

Guilt of ever letting me go.

"Marshall..."

Say my name.

"Marshall... I'm sorry..."

Say it again.

"I need you..."

I need you too.

Stop.

No,

This wasn't supposed to happen!

I was supposed to move on!

Not fall for that stupid sadness hiding smile you have!

Fall for those heavenly eyes,

Fall for the voice that spoke with care,

Fall for....

You.

I've fallen again,

head over heels.

Again.

And I hate myself for it.

"Marshall... I-...

I really can't do this anymore...

I looked for you everywhere...

I looked tirelessly around all of AAA for you...

I didn't stop...

Until...

On,y until fionna passed away...

Leaving me with my son...

And my kingdom.

I thought that was all I needed to move on from you but my son fell in love too...

Bringing back those memories of us...

I couldn't-..."

No,

No, don't cry...

Those eyes aren't meant for tears.

Their meant to see,

To guide,

To look at others with care,

Heck, even to look at me with hatred,

But never for crying.

That salty liquid doesn't belong there...

Those tears aren't meant to stain those porcelain cheeks...

The cheeks were only for loving affection.

I don't know what you said after that.

All I did was focus on your face and those vibrant eyes that lured me in.

Longed for me.

Begged for me.

I couldn't say no any longer...

I won't say it...

You're finally wanting me back...

'Shhh'

You fell silent as you looked up.

'You look ugly when you cry'

A soft smile broke on to your lips as you tried to hold in your tears.

It didn't work though,

You just cried and cried,

Until...

Until I pulled your face up with my hands,

Softly,

Extra gently.

"I won't ever leave you again..."

'I won't let you leave me..."

Nothing else was said from either of us afterwards,

We couldn't possibly speak with our lips pressed together.

Softly moving in sync,

In desperation,

In pure love.

Love that we both wanted from each other for years...

And now we have it!

We have what we wanted...

We can finally live together,

With each other.

Without

Any

Regrets.

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