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Part 3 (Last)

Arnav couldn't concentrate on his work. He couldn't bring back his mind from Khushi and her words. He is understanding how much his words had hurt Khushi. Because Khushi he knew is not whom he is saw. He is feeling guilt is eating him up. He couldn't understand how to rectify his mistake. He couldn't understand what to do to bring Khushi back to their lives. It's been two days since he met Khushi. He tried almost every second to talk with her, but surroundings didn't help much.

He so wanted to go to her home, which he came to know from Aman's enquiry. But he stopped himself from, thinking Khushi may not like him invading her privacy. But he wanted to sort things. He wants her in his life as before, as his chirpy and shy Khushi. He informed his parents about meeting Khushi here and told them that he will come along with Khushi how much time it takes. Understanding his thoughts and pain, his parents gave their acceptance along with suggestion to not to force Khushi.

Arnav sighed in pain and desperateness, looking at the outside from the window. He can see the hustle bustle of the traffic. His eyes stopped at the bus stop looking at people getting in and out from buses. But what made him think is, their comfortableness of using crowded public transport. Their way of living the life. Their way of looking and dealing the situations in different way. ‘I wish I am also one of them. I wish God didn’t bless me with these comforts and luxuries. Then I wouldn’t have said those words to Khushi… I wish…’ Arnav sighed.  Suddenly his eyes caught the incident happening in the bus stop, which took his breath away and rage filling his body. He felt someone punched on his chest seeing his khushi being teased by few eve teasers.

All the employees in the office looked baffled seeing Arnav running out in jet speed. Aman, who saw Arnav, followed him in a blink. Arnav rushed towards khushi and held before she fell down on the road. When Arnav saw tears of pain in Khushi’s eyes, he couldn’t control his anger towards the boys. Before he does anything, Aman stopped him showing Khushi, which controlled Arnav’s anger immediately. Arnav helped Khushi and brought her inside the office.

“I’m sorry Khushi… I’m really sorry” said Arnav after making sure that she became normal after that incident.

“It’s not your fault, no need for you to be sorry. And anyway, it’s not new thing for me. It happens with me almost every day” Khushi said, palming her paining leg.

“No… it’s my fault. It’s completely my fault. If I would have told you about my feelings that day, then it wouldn’t have happened now. If I would have told you that why I didn't want you to go for your job leaving us, then it wouldn’t have happened. If I wouldn’t have uttered those words to you, then it wouldn’t have happened. I’m sorry Khushi. Whatever crap I uttered that day, was completely wrong. I never meant those words. I thought if I told you the truth about my feelings for you, you might take that as pity and reject my feelings. I couldn’t let that happen. So I thought if I show you the problems you may face then you will understand and will stay back. But in making you understand, I made everything a mess. I did a grave mistake, which no one, not even myself can forgive or forget. But still Khushi, I am selfish. I was a jerk, and may be still am, but I can’t stop myself from loving you.

I know I did mistake by uttering those words, but can’t I hope for your forgiveness? Can’t I hope for the life with you? Can’t I hope for forever together with you? I am just a human, Khushi. I’m not defending my mistake. I’m trying to say that I am regretting my mistake. I’m hating myself for whatever I did. I guess you faced a lot in your life, but trust me Khushi, I am not happy in my life too. Without you, my life is nothing. I was just like a living corpse khushi. Other than NK, no one was there for me. Everyone abandoned me for whatever I did to you and I know I deserve that. But still KHushi… this heart couldn’t stop hoping for you. This heart of mine is waiting for you. This heart of mine, will not be heart if it don’t get your love. Please Khushi, please tell me how can I get you back in my life, how can I rectify my mistakes, how can I live my life… tell me Khushi… what should I do to get your forgiveness. Tell me khushi… please…” with that Arnav burst out crying. He vent out all his pent up pain before KHushi. “Trust me Khushi… I’m regretting it. And this guilt is eating me up. I can’t take this anymore. I’m not strong as you. I’m not good as you. Please help me to come out of this pain… please help me Khushi… please…” he held her hands and cried his heart out

KHushi cried along with him. “I too can’t take this pain anymore Arnav ji. I’m tired of this pain. Everyday, with each and every happenings of life, remembering your words and crying to sleep, I can’t take this pain anymore. I can’t take these insults anymore”

“Khushi… please don’t cry. I’m sorry… I’m really sorry. Let's go to Delhi again. I don’t want us in seperate places anymore. Please Khushi, come back. NK, Ma, Papa, everyone is waiting for you. They will be very happy. And I’m sure, they are good people unlike me. They will never hurt you. Please Khushi… come with me. Or if you don't want to come there and want to live here, then tell me I will shift here. But please Khushi, don't ask me to go away. I can't anymore. I'm not asking you to forget everything and forgive me. I am telling that I need your love in my life… I'm just a selfish jerk khushi. I can't  live without you. Please for just once think about me… please...” Arnav tried one more time.

Khushi couldn't understand what to say. Her heart is jumping in happiness hearing his words. But her mind is dreading in fear thinking about their past encounter. She just want to throw herself in his arms, where she knew, she remains safe and secure. But the fear in her heart…!!??

“I… I need… I need time to think” she whispered praying that her decision will not turn into wrong one.

Understanding her situation and feeling sad about her words, Arnav nodded his head gulping the pain in his heart.

“I need to leave to Delhi in two days… if you can trust me, then I will be waiting for you” Arnav said pressing her palms little in assurance.

Nodding her head, Khushi looked at their hands. How much she wished for this! Her hands in his!!! If it happened in past, she would have said that her dream came true. But now, the situation and the past is not letting her feel anything except the fear. She wants to forget everything happened between them, because she knew now that whatever Arnav said then, is not true and saying now is true. She knew him well to understand his unsaid words. But where she failed is, recognising his love behind his words back then. She thought that he feels only affection and friendship towards her, nothing more and nothing less. But hearing his words now, she knew he is telling the truth. His eyes can never cheat anyone who knows him well. She knew him… but the fear in her heart is pulling her back from accepting that. She closed her eyes, feeling tired with the happenings.

“Khushi?” Arnav called her, seeing her closing eyes. Looking at the tiredness in her face, he felt panic rising in his heart. “Khushi, I think you need to take rest. It's better you leave. Shall I drop you home?” He asked in concern

Khushi looked at him in confusion and he knew why

“Do you really think I don't know where you live? It's just I don't want to intrude in your life till you want and I don't want to make you uncomfortable” he said looking at her

She just nodded her head. “I think you are right. I should go” she whispered

“I will call Aman to drop you” as he didn't get any acceptance from her, he stopped the idea of dropping her

“But you said… you will drop me Arnavji?!” there is a confusion in her voice along with her innocence

Smiling little seeing the innocence in her face with tears in his eyes, Arnav cupped her face and whispered “I'm sorry… for hurting you in the most worst way… for disappointing you all the time… for not being there when you needed me… for not understanding your heart… for everything… I'm sorry Khushi. Please wapas aa jao… maaf kardo… please”

Closing her eyes again, she leaned on his palm which is cupping her cheek. Silent tears dropped from her eyes. Understanding her fear, Arnav didn't say anything to her but gave a shoulder to lean.

“Everything will be fine, Khushi. Just relax. Don't strain yourself… please” he said “come, let me drop you in your house”

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“What’s our mistake? Why didn't you come to us when they were wrong? We always thought of you as our daughter, but I think you never felt us like your parents! I know Arnav and NK did mistake not listening to your words and Arnav said all rubbish to you. But don't you think you should bring this to our notice? Didn't you think we will support you? Or did you think we will ignore you by supporting their mistake?” Asked Arnav father. Everyone in the room can see the pain he is feeling from long

“I'm sorry uncle” Khushi cried. After thinking lot, Khushi decided to go with Arnav and see how things will turn. She really need a change from these people. She knew how important family is. So, she thought, if she can't be with Arnav for life, at least she will have family. So, here she is.

“We don't need your sorry. You had hurt us Khushi… I didn't expect this from you… I'm disappointed…” NK’s mother along with Arnav's.

“Aunty please… I'm sorry… I was heartbroken that time. I was not in a state to think what I was doing… I'm sorry… I'm really sorry” Khushi tried desperately

“Stop it everyone… Khushi was not at mistake. Stop blaming her for the mistakes she never did” Arnav said gulping the lump which formed looking at crying Khushi.

Both the mothers hugged Khushi unable to control their pain and love

“Khushi… our Khushi… where were you? We missed you a lot… oh God… thank you for giving our girl back to us. Oh Khushi…” all the male members of the families blinked their eyes to clear their vision being in emotional reunion.

After controlling her cries and wiping tears, Khushi looked at her side moved towards NK, who is standing looking out through window. His eyes are wet and his lower lip is between his teeth to control the sob which is erupting from inside.

“NK” Khushi whispered putting her hand on his shoulder

“How dare you Khushi?” He whispered back “I know we did mistake… we know. But how can you leave us? Weren't we sharing our pain, anger and all feelings in between? If one of us did mistake weren't we going to another? Then why didn't you come to me if that idiot did mistake? Why did you leave ME Khushi? How can you? How can you leave me for his mistake? Did you, by any chance, think that I too feel same like that idiot? Did you think I too was a fool like him? Answer me damn it" NK shouted his frustration and pain

“Nk”

“And… please don't tell me, that you didn't notice his love towards you. I know you did. Then how? Why? Do you have any idea what we, he went through in your absence? We missed you Kuku… we missed you a lot!!!” With that NK hugged Khushi and cried his heart out.

Khushi hugged him back and closed her eyes letting the tears flow down.

“I'm not blaming you for anything Kuku. I know you are not at mistake. But…”

“Shh… I know.. I understand” Khushi tried to calm her friend, noticing the figure leaving the room with guilt ridden face which unnoticed by everyone in the room except NK.

Both the friends remain in same position for some time, reliving the affection they shared. After emotional reunion of all, they all settled in hall and talked about life. Everyone felt happy seeing Khushi in front of them after long time. But still they felt an unknown pain in their hearts. Praying for complete happiness, all completed their dinner and went to their rooms calling it a night. Arnav's mother showed Khushi her room and kissed her forehead, conveying her happiness, and left

After settling in her room, Khushi thought to talk to Arnav. But couldn't decide what to. She felt hurt seeing him in this situation. She so wants to erase all his pain. But the fear in her heart is not letting her take the step. She sighed deeply and gasped seeing herself standing just in front of Arnav's room. She shook her head in disappointment towards her hopeless mind. Whenever the thought of Arnav comes in her mind, it never in her control. Her mind works on its own. She turned to go, but stopped hearing NK’s serious tone

“Escaping, are we?” NK asked Arnav, who is looking at the night sky

“Absolutely not” Arnav answered not moving his gaze from the sky

“Oh really?” NK mocked

“Yes, I'm not escaping. I'm just avoiding the pain I might give you guys. Whatever I caused, I think that's more than enough. I'm really sorry, NK. Because of me, you were forced to stay away from your best friend. And our parents, friends and everyone was sad because of my stupid childish behaviour. By God grace Khushi came back here safe and sound; and agreed to stay here. I don't want that smile and happiness I saw on all of your faces, to go. If I staying away from you all keeps that happiness on your faces, then I will definitely not disturb you guys”

“Yes, you should be sorry for not letting me to be with my friend. And you not being my best friend anymore. How can you Arnav? How can you avoid me? Don't I have any place in your life? Is only Khushi your friend? Aren't we brothers? How can you ignore me? How can you avoid me? I didn't talk with you, thinking you will come to me and talk with me. But you royally avoided me. If Khushi did mistake by not sharing her feelings and fears, then you too did the same. Why do you guys left me? Don't I have any importance in your both lives?” NK vent put his pain

“NK?” Arnav looked at his friend

“Don't you dare… how can you both shut me out when you both going through so much? And what are you doing now? You brought Khushi back and you are trying to distance yourself from her? Don't you think it will hurt her more? Come on Arnav open up at least now. Being in guilt or insecurities doesn't help. You should talk, you should share your pain or fears. Weren't the misunderstandings enough in our life to feel pain, to lose precious time? Come on… if you think you did mistake then go apologize”

“Do you really think I didn't?” Asked Arnav.

“No, I don't think. All I'm saying is, that's not enough. Go make her understand and make her accept and forgive you. She deserve your patience Arnav. I am sure, she faced worst. I know how much cruel this world can be for a lonely girl. I'm sure, she might be scared now to feel any positive. And how much ever I know Khushi, she will not melt easily if she thinks whatever you said is true. You need to be patience with her. But you should do this. If not for her, for yourself, for your sanity. You deserve her, her love, her presence in your life. I know how much you suffered without her beside you. You both deserve a closure from this pain. Only I know, how much you both mean to each other. I can't see the pain in your eyes. I want you both out of pain. Please Nannav, set everything alright as always. Only you can do this. Don't make everyone sad by distancing yourself from Khushi, us and your own self. Please…” NK hugged Arnav pleading. Both friends letting out their pain.

“I miss you”

“I miss you”

Both friends said at the same time. Both looked at each other and smiled through tears.

“Think about what I said” NK said before leaving Arnav room after getting nod from Arnav.

NK stopped in his place seeing tearful Khushi outside the room. He didn't expect her there. He held her hand and slowly led her to her room.

Both NK and Khushi sat in silent after NK's revelation about Arnav's pain

“I’m sure, you heard everything I said to Arnav. Whatever I said was not only for him, but you too. Those words related to you too. You both need the closure, Kuku. I'm not saying or forcing you to forgive him or accept him immediately. But please think about it. I know how much pain you might have faced till now, Arnav too faced. If you are alone there, he was too. If you are in pain then he was too. Everyone including me, ignored him, avoided him. We were angry on him for whatever he did to you. But later I understood his point. Even though the way and words he choose were wrong, his intentions never was. He always wanted the best for you. He wanted you beside him. In that anxiety he went overboard. He said words he shouldn't. He is a good man Khushi. I don't think I need to tell this. Because you know him well. All I can say is, please think before you take any decision. I want us to be like before. Happy and carefree and close to each other. Please…” NK pleaded.

Khushi nodded her head closing her eyes in tiredness

“You need rest. Sleep, we will talk tomorrow. Hope we will see a good and new morning tomorrow. Good night Kuku" wishing Khushi NK left to his room, hoping for good days ahead.

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Arnav sat on recliner at poolside, looking at the evening clouds. His face is relaxed. His breath is controlled. His eyes are content. He sighed closing his eyes, feeling the relaxing caress in his hair

“How was your day?”

He turned aside and hugged her, his life, his Khushi.

He remembered that day very clearly, when Khushi came to him and shared her fears of being hurt by him again, her tiredness of being alone in her whole life, her desire to be relaxed and crave for peaceful life, the pain in her voice, desperateness in her eyes. Her each and every word, he remembered. He will never forget that pain and love in her eyes. He sighed deep, hugging her tight

“Thank you Khushi" he whispered

“Don't… I need this” Khushi said caressing his hair.

On her return, after talking with NK, she observed Arnav close. Everyday his way of interaction with her, his desperateness to make everything better between them, the way he tried to make her trust him, believe him that he will not hurt her. His love, his need of her and his pain, everything… she observed everything, she didn't miss a single tear he left at night when he thought no one seeing him. She understood his pain, guilt and most importantly his love towards her. She couldn't see him in that situation. She needs him to be strong as before. More than that, she couldn't let herself in that situation. After knowing whatever Arnav said to her year back, wasn't meant by him; she wanted to think about them, to give chance to them. So, she went to him and talked her fears and everything. She never knew, opening up to others and talking can and will clear things this easily. She is so thankful that she talked with him. That helped them a lot in understanding each other and work on things. Now, today, they are together with trust, without any fear and doubt.

She smiled looking at him snuggling into her more. He didn't leave a single chance to tell how beautiful she is. He didn't leave a single opportunity to show how lucky he is having her in his life again. After coming to Delhi with Arnav, she never felt her limped and scarred form. No one from the families never let her feel the pain. They showered lots of love. No need to tell about Arnav and NK. She is feeling lucky to have them inner life. She is feeling contented, happy and loved.

She is thankful with her decision of taking another chance, giving another chance to them. She was loved by each and every one of Arnav and NK's family. All the elders always supported her upon NK and Arnav. They showered lots of love on her making NK complain about their ignorance towards him. But neither Arnav nor NK were serious. They are equally happy as Khushi.

Khushi started working in Arnav's office along with Arnav, NK. Everyone in office respected her for her nature and work. She became one's favourite. Arnav and NK made sure everyone understand what she is from inside not her outer look. Khushi felt elated with all the happenings and changes in her life. She is satisfied with her life. She sighed looking down at the person, Arnav, who is hugging her torso.

“Tired?” She asked

“Yeah… a bit”

“How was the meeting with clients? Why didn't you take NK with you? He would have helped you and reduced your work!?” Khushi asked caressing his hair. But he didn't reply

“Arnavji?!”

“We don't want to leave you alone Khushi. I don't want to take any chance" he voiced out

“You think someone will hurt me?”

“No one will dare. My employees knew, if they cross my word hen they have to see the worst day of their lives” arrogance dropped from his voice.

Shaking her head while smiling little, Khushi asked “Then? Oh! Do you think I will leave you and go?” She asked in surprise

He pushed his face more into her stomach not answering his question

“Oh!!! Don't you trust me Arnav ji?”

“It's not about you Khushi. It's about me. What if I hurt you and you decide to leave? I can't risk Khushi. If anyone of us is there with you, then anyone can stop you to know the reason. Then they or I can punish me.”

“No need to punish you anymore. Because I'm not going anywhere. I need you and this families in my life Arnav ji. I don't want to live alone anymore. I don't want to spoil this happiness. I will not leave even though someone hurt me. Because now I know what is more important. If needed I may stop talking or reacting, but I will not leave and go. Don't stress yourself about this” she assured him.

“Thank you Khushi. For accepting me”

Khushi smiled in return.

:::

“Will you marry me, Khushi?” Arnav asked holding her hand.

Everyone on the dining table looked at him wide eyed along with Khushi. She is serving all, the breakfast after continuous deny of family members. She likes to do all these to her family. Understanding her desire, everyone stopped stopping her. But they were shocked after hearing Arnav's proposal

“Tell me Khushi, Will you marry me?”

“...”

“Khushi?”

“Huh!?”

“Will you?”

Everyone looked at her with bated breaths.

She looked at all and looked at Arnav.

“This might be so early for you. I understand Khushi. But I can't help. I need you in my life. I can't stay in this fear of some other man will take you away” Arnav confessed

“What?” Khushi whispered, others looked at him confused

Kneeling on his one leg, he continued “Yes, I can't live in this fear. Whenever we go to any party or function; whenever some elders looked at you as if thinking to propose wedding to you; or whenever some business meet happens and those men look at you admiring you; or whenever the topic of wedding comes… I can't live in this fear that someone will make you or force you to agree with them to get marry. I don't want this fear Khushi. Because, I need you, you are mine. I can't lose you. I can't live without you, I can't breathe without you. I can't Khushi. After thinking a lot about this I guess this will be the situation. But I'm not forcing you Khushi. Just think and tell me. If you need to think and need time, I will give. Tell me when you decide. But tell me, will you marry me?”

Khushi looked at the man before her. She can see the worry and tension in him. Khushi looked at NK, who is controlling his tension. Even though, Arnav and NK's parents sat with composed faces, Khushi knew they are equally tensed as NK, Arnav and… her. She closed her eyes, took a deep breath. She looked at Arnav,s eager eyes and nodded her head

“Yes, I will marry you” she said in whisper but form

Arnav face broke into big smile. He stood and hugged her tight, where others celebrated hugging each other. NK, both the parents congratulated the couple. Elders sat discussing about the wedding. NK went bring pandit. Arnav and Khushi sat along with elders looking forward to their future, their happiness and their life.

The End

At last, here comes the update. I'm really sorry for the too much late update. Hope you guys forgives me. Here I want to tell you all something. With this update, I completed all my stories. There is no any ongoing story of mine. That means, here my journey takes a hault. Hope, in future, I will get time to write and post. Not sure though. Trust me, I want to write but lack of time is not helping. So, here is my good bye...

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