I can't get him out of my head.
Just hearing his name gives me a warm feeling in my stomach,but it hurts my heart. Why can't things be different? Why can't he reciprocate my feelings? I just want to curl up and disappear. I can't handle things anymore. I've lost hope. The only reason I'm alive is to help my friends and I suck at that. I can't seem to even figure out my own name. No one can save me from the grave I've dug for myself. I'm not going to kill myself,not yet anyway,but I need to do something to at least temporarily get rid of the pain. I can't take it. Being rejected,being alone. I have friends but they are better off without me. I'm always left behind until I want to stay back. That's what happened in my last friend group. I can't take that again. I just can't. I'm going to be on and off with talking to people. If you need emotional support,I'm really sorry but I can't help you for awhile. I can barely keep myself afloat,and I don't have enough in me to help you. I'm so sorry. I wish I could help,I really do. I'll see you guys later.