I'm gonna cut this short, mostly because I don't feel like talking to anyone except for one specific person.

So, some shit happened. I don't wanna talk about it, but it lead to me being a mixture of angry, crying and provocatively honest (which I kinda still am, the memory is fresh)

Then I completely screwed up because of that weird emotional mix and now my best friend hates me. She blocked me everywhere, even my phone number and because of my exchange partner so yah.

Basically, I wanna punch someone, then hug them and cry on their shoulder while telling them about my problems in the most passive aggressive / accusing way possible.

I'm not coming back soon (assumingly), I just wanted to tell you this because I felt guilty for being such a bitch about it again. I always get really defensive when I'm hurt, but not the okay kind of defensive...

I'm really sorry about all of this. See you in maybe another week or two. Or more... hopefully not... I just kinda wanna take care of this and don't talk to humans again. Like ever. I'm kinda done with people right now. Sorry.