Apparently I'm hella rude.
Not that I haven't been told so before, but today's just not been my day. If I had to guess, I got called rude by at least 5 people?

You know, you gotta let me know when I sound rude to you guys...

I'm having a hard time telling when people are offened or what is offending.

Until I was like, 11 or so, the only social interaction I really had was with my family, mostly my brother. and me and him, we curse at each other like there's no tomorrow. I've become quite cynical thanks to him.

I really can't tell anymore what would be considered offending and what not. So I tend to hear "you're rude" or "no need to be so rude" on an almost daily basis.

Guess I'm doomed to be a bitch then? Because, whether you say it or not, if you think someone is rude, they're a  bitch to you, aren't they? You can control your words, but not your thoughts, so just be honest with yourself. I'm a bitch to you. A rude ass bitch who curses a lot for no apparent reason.

I'm being rude again, right? that's what you're thinking, right? that, or you are like me and couldn't care any less.

There's only these to types of people anymore. Those who are thinskinned and take everything I say to heart and those who overlook my behaviour and act as if nothing happened.

Just let me know when I sound rude to you and I'll try to fix it...

I know it's kinda useless, I have a very screwed up sense of "fixing my previous actions", but I can always try.

Sorry, I'm not feeling it anymore lately. I'm sick of getting called rude and weird and creepy. I brush it off when others act rude or weird or creepy towards me, so why can't they do the same?

You can't just call me rude and then tell me to think before I act in the next sentence... it's... hypocritical.

But Oh no, I'm rude because I call people out for being hypocrites.

Yeah right. Just keep on doing that. I'm too busy drowning in self doubt to care. always picking each word carefully and yet I end up making mistake after mistake with every word I say. Never able to do anything between "rude" and ass kissing. That's me alright.

At this point, I don't think anymore cares, I probably pissed off most of you and the rest had never started to read this to begin with, but it's alright.

Just wanted to say thank you guys.

Gonna hit the hay now, who knows if I come online tomorrow.

Btw, does anyone know where I can get chloral hydrate?

Just wondering...

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