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Written on: June 26, 2015

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"Come on, we're running late!", Niall shouted, worrying about not making it to the concert in time.

"I don't even know why I'm going with you. This is so wrong..", Harry muttered lacing up his shoes as he had finally come out of the bathroom he'd been stuck in for one hour.

"Mate, you know I'm doing this for you. It's time you either tell her or forget about her, you can't continue like this."

It had been three years since Harry and Taylor had broken up, though they did hook up a few times afterwards, they had called it quits for good one year ago, because it was simply never going to work out, at least that's what Taylor said.

A lot had happened since the breakup, Harry tried to move on somehow and Taylor tried to get over him too, writing songs, staying busy, trying not to think of him. Writing songs. That's what she was good at. She managed to put all of her feelings and thoughts into songs that ended up being hit singles, but no one really knew how much pain she had gone through creating all those memories she remembered all to well. Her latest album called 1989 was all about forgetting him. Harry. They'd had a brief relationship which ended because Harry was too young and he decided to run rather than fight for what he wanted. Neither of them really wanted it to be over, because they loved each other recklessly but it was just to much to handle for both of them.

Today was her opening concert for the tour in London. Niall was invited and since he knew that Harry still wasn't over her and wanted her back more than anything, he decided to take Harry with him. Of course, it was a long process of convincing him but at last he agreed. He knew that several songs on the album were about him, and he wanted to give it a last try, considering the lyrics to the songs which gave him the feeling that she still loved him.

Niall and Harry were heading to the arena and Niall couldn't help himself, so he started the conversation both of them knew they were going to have sooner or later.

"Hey, pal, I, I just don't want you to get your hopes up, you know she's been dating that Calvin dude for quite some time now.."

"Sure, Niall. I know. It's just.. Have you listened to Out Of The Woods? Or I Wish You Would? I know she loves me, at least she did. And I am never going to find out which one's the truth if I don't give her that letter tonight. I won't give her up that easily. I am an adult now and I'm willing to do anything to get her back.", Harry responded adding "I still love her..".

"Yeah, you're right. You better prepare yourself, we've arrived. Are you sure you want to do this?"

"Absolutely. Let's go."

The arena was full and Harry was shaking from head to toe. It would be the first time he'd see her after one long yea that he'd spent in denial of how much he actually still wanted her. They were seated right in front of the stage, causing Taylor to see Harry as soon as she stepped onto the stage. Their eyes met and for a brief moment it was as though they had never split, she couldn't keep her eyes off him, but she had to because the band was already playing the chords of the opening song.

As the concert went by Harry had to fight with his tears from time to time. He knew from the way she acted, that she was hurt while singing the songs related to her relationship to him and looking at him. The fans were freaking out and singing along loudly which distracted her from him. By the end of the concert Harry had become an emotional wreck. He was anxious about what was going to happen in the next few hours.

Moments before Taylor left the stage, Harry run to her dressing room, sneaking around the bodyguards. There was a letter in his pocket which he left on her desk. Since he couldn't think properly anymore he just left the concert early, drove home, knowing that Niall was going to an afterparty so he didn't need a ride. -

Thrilled from the crowd and confused as hell because Harry showed up with Niall she went backstage to change her outfit. As she was reaching for a shirt in the closet she saw an envelope sitting on her desk. She immediately knew who it was from, ran over to it and tore it open, her heart beating faster than ever. Tears started rolling down her cheeks as she read the letter.

Hello, love. It's been quite a while, hasn't it? Okay, it's not the right time to be making silly jokes. This is messed up. I don't even know what to write. It's just that I have realized that I cannot live like this anymore. I saw one if your interviews the other day where you were asked about who the songs were all about and you were saying something like -It's about a relationship that ended because the odds were against those two but it still feels like it is not over.. you know..- Don't judge me if this is not what you said, I can't quite remember. It's tearing me apart to know that you talk about me in the past tense. I mean.. I never wanted us to become the past. I told you last year before we broke up for good and now I'm telling you again. You are everything to me. You're the rays of sunlight that wake me up in the morning, you're the smell after rain, you are the voice inside my head that keeps me sane. You are simply everything. You know, I'm not the kind of guy to say things like this because they sound so cheesy, but, damn, I mean ever word. You make me feel like my decisions and all the wrong paths I have chosen are not what defines me. You complete me and I miss you. I know you're with Calvin now, hell yes, I saw you at the BBMA's but I need to know what you think about this. Me. Us. Meet me at 11 pm at my place if you want to talk. I need to see you. This is not over. We can still work out, if you give me one last chance.

Taylor collapsed when she'd finished reading the letter. She loved him and she had never stopped. As soon as she saw him sitting in the front row, after one year, she knew. She needed him back. Him. Of course, she's been dating Calvin for some months and he was a great guy, he really was, but her heart belonged to Harry.

However, she didn't know what to do. With tears still falling onto the paper she held in her hands she fell to the floor, clinging to this letter, to his words, not knowing if he was going to stay this time. Everything was so complicated. She loved him but Calvin loved her and he had promised to stay with her. He had a good heart and she knew he was never going to hurt her as Harry did.

"Can't someone just take this decision from me? This is too much. I cannot leave Calvin like this and I cannot let Harry slip away again.", she thought to herself, sitting down and trying to calm down. -

Two hours had passed since Harry had left the envelope on Taylor's desk. It was 10:59 PM and he was in his apartment, slowly losing hope. Laying in his bed Harry could only think of how special Taylor was and how much he wanted everything to be the way it used to be, before the breakup, before he had left her all alone without a proper explanation.

He imagined his hands running through her hair as she was smiling and looking like a princess even though her hair was undone and they had just woken up after a long night in New York and too many drinks. Time passed and it was already 11:25 PM when the bell suddenly rang.

"Okay, listen to me Styles. I do not want you to interrupt me, otherwise I'm going straight back to my hotel. You understand?" Taylor blurted out, before Harry could even catch a look on her.

"Okay. Talk. Please." Harry said, anxious about what was yet to come.

"I can live without you, you know I can. I have managed to do so for 3 years as I watched you leave over and over again. Losing you is what made me strong. I don't need anyone anymore, I am my own person. I don't need you, but I want you."

She was talking really fast and she started tearing up. "Everything I have ever felt for you was pure love. Yeah, you make me feel crazy and desperate and you confuse me but none of that matters. You will always be the person I'll have the urge to call when things are out of control at 2AM because since the first time we locked eyes on our first date in that zoo you have been the only one who has been able to calm me like you do.. love me like you do.. I know we are probably bad for each other but you make all me doubts fade away when you look at me the way you do right now. And I want you to know that I still feel the same as I did 3 years ago. You know that I have been crazy for you all this time. I mean, hey, I managed to write an album about you. That must be a sign."

She swiped her tears away giggling at the last sentence she had just said. There was a silence after Taylor had said all of that but it was not awkward. They looked deeply into each other's eyes and Harry reached for her hands. Touching her again was worth all the previous pain and the waiting. She looked into his emerald green eyes and pictures of them lying naked on the floor, laughing like kids on the playground because of one of Harry's stupid Knock - Knock jokes started flashing before her eyes. Pictures of them silently hugging, embracing the moment, not wanting to let each other go.

Right in that moment she realized that it was going to be hard as hell for them. They were going to fight and scream, because that's what they did all the time, but this time it was going to last.

As he leaned in to kiss her she whispered, "You know for me it's always you and I know for you it's always me, Harry."