Your eyes opened and you was met with the blinding white lights of the room. You looked around and saw one of the officials from authorities. You have met him earlier too when the same incident as now occured. "5 Ribs broken. An injury on spinal cord causing a crack. Fracture in the right knee. A cut on the left side of abdomen."He read you your report, leaning back on the chair, placing the file on the table infront of him. You gripped the side rails of the bed, forcing yourself up to sit. Sharp pain shoots through your upper body. You can feel the texture of plasters and bandages on your skin ,under the hospital gown.

You let out a grunt ,turning your head towards the man. "Why do I still feel pain?" You asked ,knowing all too well that your injuries were healed by reverse cursed technique.  But some wounds they seem tended normally not with reversal. "We just fixed the broken. You gotta deal with pain just like other sorcerers. You are no more a kid that we'll completely heal you , make it seem like you never had those injuries." He replied ,his voice carrying no sympathy.

"The driver will arrive soon to take you to your apartment. Rest for today . From tomorrow you're gonna be busy with missions" The man said , standing up from his spot ready to leave. "But I'm supposed to go to Jujutsu Te-" He cuts you off "Jujutsu Tech ? You lost your control.  Broke the red strings. If things went out of hand you could have killed many . And you think you are supposed to be going there? For what? Killing people?"

You lowered your gaze, you can't anger the authorities . He's right. Your eyes dart to your bandaged arms , Red strings tied to your wrists. The thread was longer than usual. Some of it was still hanging down from the knot. "Absorb more curses. You lost enough curses . Your new uniform will be delivered tomorrow's morning" The male informed, going over the door and turning the knob to leave. "I want it to be customized as male sorcerer's uniform" You requested, hoping it to be accepted .

He nodded and left you by yourself. You clenched your fists. Bandage around your head due to the fight with Sukuna. Your arms and legs wrapped in bandages. This is pathetic.  You cannot have complete rest . Missions are gonna start again. You'll be back to the prison,higher ups gave you as a home.

You stood up despite of the pain coursing through every part of your body. You got out of the room, walking through the hallways , making your way towards the exit . The driver was already there with the car. It's time to say goodbye to the temporary freedom you had.

You sat in the backseat. Looking outside the window. You don't want to admit it that you are grateful to your egoistic, flippant teacher of yours  for getting you out of that confinement. You wished you could have stayed longer. It felt peaceful to be at Jujutsu tech with some people to interact with. However your interaction was limited . You liked having them around you Especially Itadori 

After a long time you felt the spark which made you feel the tinge of warmth, but it was soon taken away from you , leaving your soul shivering in solitude again. Solitude was a breathtaking yet a suffocating experience . You'll no longer hear Itadori's and Nobara's bickering, Gojo annoying you and Megumi.Just your inner monologue,those deafening voices  of your head . It's strange how you feel sad over leaving people who you don't even know for a long time except gojo. Perhaps the cause of your sadness is leaving, when you feel like you belong there with others. Experiencing everything they do, just like all the people of your age. You wished if it was that way.

But atleast you got to live unlike Itadori, whose heart was carved out of his chest by his own hands. Your eyes burned, turning red in white areas,threatening to spill tears. Lives are turned upside down, taken in an instant. It wasn't the proper death he desired. Was it? Just how much cruel destiny can be? Why death never comes to those who ask for it but to those who have so much ahead in their lives? 

The car came to a stop at the outskirts of the city, infront of the small apartment where you lived. You sighed, getting out of the car. Your movements stiff and slow. You turn the knob, the door opens and you stepped inside. You never felt that comfort of home in this house. It was a cage. The car drove away getting out of your sight. You closed the door behind you, sliding down against it and sitting on the floor in the dark room. 

You brought your knees to your chest, burying your face. Your heart sinks more by the passing second. It's time to let it out. To break down. You can't keep up the facade of acting normal when you are clearly not treated the same way. Everything's that trapped within you will kill you one day. Unless you free yourself from Red strings, the higher ups and this fate full of misery and temporary happiness. The destiny really likes to play with you, getting your hopes high and then bringing you down . It must be amusing to see you fall into the void of despair.

"Stop now...how much am I gonna cry" you sniffled, wiping your tears. You have to  support yourself because no one's gonna do it, not like there is someone anyways.  You limped further into your apartment. You turn on the switch to open the lights. The place was in the same condition you left it. You grabbed a pair of clothes and entered the washroom to shower. It's too early for removing bandages but that doesn't matter. It's gonna hurt anyway since missions will start once again from tomorrow. 

You look at your bare skin. Bruises and scars of all sizes were present. Most of them are around your back and abdomen. You winced in pain when you tried touching them. If only you had reverse technique,you would have healed yourself completely. But you know, even reversal leaves scars. Just like the mistakes of loved ones which scar your heart. 

"Aniki...you are the cause I choose the path of sorcery" You frown, reminiscing about your elder brother. You sure choose the path of sorcery because of him. But who should be blamed for your captivity ? The higher ups? But, they are the ones who saved you or the redemption was to radicalize you ,into a weapon. All your life, you was puppet to them. These red strings gave them more authority. Only if you could break free from all this and leave but there's no place to return. 

Ever since, Gojo took you away from here, You saw the signs of life in you. Feeling annoyance, curiousity and happiness. Though there was one feeling you couldn't pinpoint. A strange flutter in your heart whenever a certain boy smiled at you or try to interact with you. 

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"Ahh..... I'm having butterflies in my stomach" your elder brother dramatically put  his hand on his chest. You tilt your head , perplexed by his words. "Did you eat butterflies O-nee-chan?" He chuckled at your question. "No , I Just meant. A strange feeling you feel when you look at someone you really like or if their actions are charming to you." He smiled while explaining. You made an 'o' now understanding what he meant. "Hey...you would tell O-nee-chan if you feel that because of a boy right?" Your mother heard Suguru's question to you and came into the drawing room, her spatula still in her hand. 

"Don't ask such questions. She is just 4. And don't even think of 'I won't let any guy date my sis' She'll decide for herself when she gets older" Your mother scolded but Suguru stood there with a shameless smile because there's a possibility he might do it.

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"I'm just being delusional. After all I'm a killer. Who would be dumb enough to love a girl with scars "    You sighed, running a hand through your hair, glancing at all those nasty scars. You turned on the shower,the cold water grazing your skin.

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Chapter 10 completed.

*Me posting angsty piece of crap  on my birthday, because I'm born to torture people or maybe just  myself * 

*Pretends to act like a typical Intj antagonist*

*Intj  antagonist can wait .  I gotta say something to y'all*

THANK YOU TO ALL THOSE FEW READERS WHO ARE HERE. IT'S A BIG DEAL FOR ME. I DON'T KNOW IF THIS WILL GET MORE READERS IN THE FUTURE OR NOT ,BUT THANKYOU TO THOSE WHO BECAME MY FIRST FEW READERS. ＼⁠(⁠^⁠o⁠^⁠)⁠／ <3

*Goes back to pretending  an Intj antagonist*