He doesn't need to know my secrets.

He doesn't deserve to hurt like I do.

He's perfect, and I can't be the cause that changes that.

I collapse on my bed, putting my headphones in my ears. The lyrics I relate to to the point it hurts, but I can't seem to stop listening.

When the day begins
But you wish it's done

When the stars align
But you lose the sun

When the pain you know
Folds over someone

You know it's you that's hurting
And it ain't no fun

Sometimes you gotta know what's good for you
And you gotta know what isn't
'Cause there's gonna come a day
Where the world ain't spinnin', but your head is spinnin',
Yeah!

Let lose, let go, let everybody know
That you're broken, all alone
Scream from a thousand rooftops
Let the shadows double over
Let the light give in
Let the sun come back when it's the moon's turn to shine

Let the world know that I wish you were mine.

Yeah-ah, yeah-ah,

Let the world know that you aren't mine yet

Yeah-ah, Yeah-ah,

My music suddenly stops, and I look at my phone. It's having trouble connecting to Wi-Fi.

"Seriously?! In the middle of New York?!" I scream, and throw it at the end of my bed. I need a new phone.

No. I need a new life.

And this is the most perfect time for my phone to ring, isn't it? No, of course not, but it does.

I glare at it as it blows up my default ringtone. I look at who is calling, it's Leo. Of course it's Leo, with today's events. I probably confused the boy half to death. I'm generous like that.

I sigh, and pick up my device, answering the call. "Hello?"

"Are you okay?" his voice sounds concerned. That's the last thing I want him to be, concerned.

"I'm fine." I reply, looking at my other hand for no absolute reason. Maybe wishing it was in his. But I can't do that; I can't cause him that pain.

"Are you sure? Nico, you can talk to me, it's-"

"Okay?! Well guess what, Leo! Nothing is ever okay!" I yell. The other end of the phonecall goes silent.

"You don't know my misery and I don't want you to," I say more quietly, at this point not caring about anything at all. "You're a good friend, and that's enough."

I didn't think I'd admit I was in misery. To Leo, of all people. What a perfect turn of events.

"Leo, look, I'm sorry." I apologize after he doesn't respond.

"It's fine. But you don't know my pain either, di Angelo." He ends call. He called me by my last name, which came almost at the same shock as what he told me. You don't know my pain either.

I know about his mom, how she died in a fire, but I know nothing more. But Leo? Broken? With all his smiles and jokes? Is that all just an act?

Now I just want to forget this day. He knows too much, and so do I.

How wonderful.

A/N Sorry if it sucks. The next chapter, I hope/think you'll enjoy more.